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sometimes when i'm depressed i ask myself, "when was the ...

2026-10-26T03:45:01Z

sometimes when i'm depressed

i ask myself, "when was the last time you listened to george harrison's all things must pass"? and the answer is usually, "i dunno, months ago, years ago?" and then i put it on, and am reminded of how happy i can be. there was a time i listened to this every day, as a routine, and then i fell out of it, and i started feeling more like shit.
though every time i put it on, i instantly feel good, and whole.
listen to all things must pass.

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i got a dumbphone! well, i did it. on a whim, i decided to just ...

2026-10-23T02:44:54Z

i got a dumbphone!

well, i did it. on a whim, i decided to just get a dumbphone.
i opted for a dumb.co phone, because it was cheap and accessible for such a radical lifestyle change. i was honestly expecting it to be a little more challenging to make the switch, but there are enough tools i'm used to having built into the dumb.co phone that i'm actually not missing my smartphone at all. in fact, i'm pretty much just leaving my phone in my pocket for the most part, just using it to send text messages throughout the day (which, to be fair, is about all i used my smartphone for before, aside from doom scrolling various web pages).
i'm getting more and more interested in starting an offline group in my city, as well, but i've never started anything like this before, and am also quite the introvert. the idea of starting anything group oriented is scary to me. i do think it would be worth it though, to meet people who are also wanting to just get outside more and talk and share real life things. has anyone here done that (shoot me an email if you have and it worked well, or well even if it didn't work well... my email is on the about page).
i dunno, i'm just tired of seeing all of my fellow humans on public transit glued to their phones, looking annoyed to be around other human beings. i want to be able to say hi to people and meet new people, and build new communities.
i also love the camera. its a super basic cell phone camera like the ones i remember before i had a smartphone. it takes very tiny images that quite frankly look like shit but i dunno, i still really love them for all their shittiness and imperfections. i'm going to try to take some photos with it and make a small zine of them. i shared one on my new /photo page!
well, i'm going to go read my book before going to bed! goodnight internet.

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day-log / biking in new old places, lunch Just got back from ...

2026-10-16T02:46:41Z

day-log / biking in new old places, lunch

Just got back from biking around my new neighborhood, and into Beverly, the next town over. Its very nice out, and the air is cool enough that you need a light jacket, even while biking, which I love. I meandered through the curving streets, up and down slight hills, with no plan in mind. My phone was tucked away in my backpack, I didn't need it. I didn't look at it the whole time I was out. That felt really good. In fact, I still haven't looked at it since getting back. Most of the places I looked at were closed for Indigenous Peoples' day, which probably saved me a significant amount of money and the burden of biking back with a much heavier backpack. I did pass by a record store I haven't been to in a while, as well as a thrift store I want to check out. I stopped at bonny breads, a bakery my friend had talked about years ago that I never got around to trying, really just because I never lived this close to it until now. I stopped in and had a chicken salad sandwich on a brioche roll, the only thing left after their morning rush. Listening to who I can only assume is the owner talk to one of the bakers, I gathered it was a very busy morning, and I was glad to be there in the slow part of the afternoon. The sun was beaming through the huge plate glass windows into the shop. It felt like a solarium. Honestly, was pretty nice. I sat there long enough to finish a cappuccino and my sandwich, before heading back to my bike.
I biked back over the bridge, and found a bench near a causeway that jutted out into the river to sit a little bit longer and read. I'm reading a book my mom gave me to read, Small Mercies, by Dennis Lehane. Its riveting while also shining light on a really gross time for the Boston area. I'm glad to be reading it because it is helping me to understand the history of the area I've always lived around a little more, but also glad that we've come a long way from where we were in the 60s.
I took out my Diana camera to take a few frames while I was on this causeway. I'm excited to see the film, and also really want to get a C-41 developing kit so I can develop color film at home. I just prefer doing things myself, and especially shooting with more experimental cameras like this, its tough to bring it to a lab where they will treat it like film shot with more traditional cameras.
I then packed up my bag and got back on my bike, and rode back in the direction of home. I followed the bike path along the cove beaches, smelling of salt marshes, until I reached the point where it diverged in two directions. I opted for the longer way out to the Willows, and then looped back to the street that eventually turns into mine.
Now I'm back home, and I'm going to spend a little bit of time updating my iPod. I've been trying to make sure that my digital music library is updated with my current CD collection, quite a task. Its a nice task to do though, and I'll probably make a loaf of banana bread before beginning, so I can be smelling the aroma of something baking at the same time.

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