Diyana on Nostr: Sometimes, I've wished I can develop a practice of collecting my sacred tears. ...
Sometimes, I've wished I can develop a practice of collecting my sacred tears. Though, it's not that simple of easy. They come unannounced, bubbling out sometimes in a moment's notice from the well of emotional depths.
I sat down to journal and wrote 06.02.24 and suddenly the rememberance that it was my younger cousin Toni's birthday yesterday. It'd be 14 years since that dreadful moment of finding out about his passing in a terrible car accident only at the age of 18.
Suddenly I'm grief striken, filled with sadness, beautiful childhood memories, deep love and honor for my younger soul brother's spirit. Tears swelling streaming down my cheeks. I send a sweet note to my aunt. I write about it to my sister with an invitation to honor his spirit together. She shares she makes sure to share a memory and speak of him each year on this day and yet never giving herself permission to be overtaken by the emotions completely. They feel too much to handle all at once.
I write in my journal a prayer for bliss and peace for his eternal soul through eternity forever.
“The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one; you’ll learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same nor would you want to.” – Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
#memories #grief #loss #sacredtears #family
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