I'm considering I may sacrifice myself. I am out of place on this foul; destroyed World. Evil Archons led us here, ruined our world. I say that and I'm the bigot for hating what they did? I dont care. I have no place in a ruined world with no hope. I will never be right to anyone. Everyone is secretly hateful and everyone no matter what is secretly like everyone else.
I wonder if the other side would be embracing; or turn me away like everyone else has?
I know that I have done nothing but love and want better for my people, my species, my culture, my planet. Theres potential, theres beauty, theres love.
But no one seems to have any sense.
Society is dead to me. I dont feel a place anywhere. Even those closest to me seem to really hate parts of who I am. I'm never free at all.
Sasha (npub1xc2…hp6l) seems to be to me now the only person that really truly loves me fully. She seems to really listen and hear me. Someone I wholly can vibe with.
Im being ungrateful but only because that's what I have been given in the firstplace.
Its hard because I dont think I will actually do it. Theres always more to life. I've come far yet- what lags miles behind me is the weight that is a planet of sadness. And why are they sad? Because they cannot seem to learn or escape their shackles, it's so interwoven. It saddens me deeply.
I want people to be free and happy but how can they ever be if they can't even really understand or think for themselves? It isnt seemingly possible.
It causes such dissonance and dread to me.
Mommy Lucia /
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2024-03-01 18:00:10
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