npub1k6…amdzr on Nostr: npub1k24sy…m26zw Me, I almost "act" if I have to speak in front of people, like ...

npub1k24sy39zjs7pccfcafcfghn0tcl96wht85tf7ygv3tv2cqa7kezqum26zw (npub1k24…26zw) Me, I almost "act" if I have to speak in front of people, like when I did the tours. It wasn't really me speaking, it was this character of me, the tour guide. Same when I've had to give talks on things. Makes it easier to face them. But going out for drinks or something, or worse, one on one, it's just you there and the person will be judging you, the person. That scares me, because I still have the voice in my mind that says I'm disgusting, annoying etc, from my childhood.