I'm on autopilot all the time because all I do is work. I come up for air a couple hours every week to focus on paying bills or doing chores and then another month has gone by.
I don't feel alive anymore and I've gained like 50lbs in the past 90 days. I just feel like I'm drowning and my chest hurts all the time. I walk about 30,000 steps every night but I'm breathing heavily now. No matter how much I sleep it's never enough. If I sleep 15 hours or 4, I feel exactly the same. If I don't drink for a week or drink every day, I feel exactly the same.
