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Last Notes npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Utterly, thoroughly, completely exhausted... I **_think_** I did the required assignment. But I'm not 100% sure. My head hurts from looking at the screen. Its been hurting since 2pm. I can't even find some of the stuff the professor was talking about. This is the ultimate bad UX. I didn't want an online course. Its half online - labs are in person. I had signed up for a full in person lecture course. They closed that course due to low enrollment and phoned me last week to tell me and I had no choice but this. I have always been terrible at online courses. The one saving grace today was that I already knew all this shit. That won't matter if I missed some assignment that was hidden in this mess. Its the first 2 chapters today, then the next two tomorrow, etc, because its a full class in just 4 weeks. The online thing has at least 19 billion little thirties to click, nothing is presented logically, it made me open series of links with instructions to finally go to this other completely different thing to do a thing... Could've just linked directly to it the first time, but Nooooo.... I have to convert circles into check marks. I am not totally sure I found all the right circles and converted them to checks. There's a million of them. **_Somewhere_** there's a Discussion section for students to help each other, and its required... And I can't find it. **_Somewhere_** there's a place to drop pictures of completed worksheets. I can't find it. I also see that there are assignments given by the book publisher, and it has a points system, but I see no info about whether its required. I had a doctor appointment that ate my afternoon. That's 3 hours - the appointment, the waiting, the picking up yet more fucking medicine from the pharmacy - that I needed today. But now I'm just done. I have until midnight, but idk what to do. F it. I need sleep. This class was supposed to be a reward... #nevent1q…cys0 npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Its a play on St. Germain, but Orc Face is fun too. St. Germain was an alchemist that caused a sensation at European courts around 400 years ago, at which time he was at least 300 years old. Supposedly. Its quite likely he was a "go getter" type serving the French king Louis XIV. He was fluent in apparently all European languages, and multiple people recounted seeing him when they were young, and again later when they were old, and St. Germain hadn't aged at all. My own pet theory is that he was the legionnaire who stabbed Jesus on the cross, who Jesus said would still be here when he returned. Obviously very symbolic language, even if an actual historical event. English : "saint Jermain" French : " San zhemah" where the 'zh' is like a more continuous J and the 'ah' kinda nasally Basically an early modern man of mystery and intrigue, and who actually existed npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Real like Ubik? https://npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf.blossom.band/7aff345c956a40d5998ccd126d3e0e40d22721b35ebfc87c72b255f1b8440d04.jpg Definitely gonna check it out, many thanks npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I'm skipping the statin tonight. Its potentially risky because it helps keep the clot from growing, but I feel like I have to because its causing pain in a new location. I'm 100% sure its the statin. Idk why I'm telling nostr this. Last words, maybe. I also have a renewed hatred of doctors, since they told me to call if there's a problem, and I've been calling for days and they don't answer or return the call, and they also got me using their app (mychart, and its constantly trying to access sensors) but the app doesn't work if I try sending them a message. I don't like stopping a medication without consulting a doctor, but they aren't giving me a choice. I've been trying for days. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Oh its a response to the troll, who I'm pretty sure was a monero shill a few months ago. Blocked that dumbass yesterday. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Oy vey 🎩, I forgot how slow this is... npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain The happiness beginneth. Syncing headers... npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain An open day. Tomorrow the storm begins, but today I practice thumb twiddling and.... Hmm. There's an old laptop in a box over there... How much happier it would be if it had a node on it... 🤔 gogogo! npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Which side was core on in the block size war? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain That's not necessarily true. For example, I can light a dollar bill on fire, in an emergency. If it was made of plastic, it would be objectively worse. You're applying a heuristic without thinking about it. Magical thinking. Nothing in bitcoin is magical. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I think about that sometimes... What divine plan could make me her son? We're opposites, and not in a complementary way. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I'm willing to talk with you, but if you're starting by trolling, you'll just be blocked. I don't want to... But one must have standards. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Maybe it maximized the benefit of sharing. You let people sort themselves, which leads to more honest and better targeted conversations. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Yes. But she's my mom... I can't exclude her. I already avoid her, and I think that's a monstrous way of dealing with it. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain That resonates.... All of it, but especially the thought record. I was actually doing that before the accident, by journaling. I don't write much, but I was truing to consistently answer the question, "what were my goals today and why did/didn't I achieve them." But that stopped with the stroke and I totally forgot about it until just now, reading your note. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I'll try. I just don't know how to get to a point where I can have a real relationship with her. If I'm always surrendering, and she's always stomping around in her pride, that's no relationship - its a hostage situation. I've dealt with this by avoiding her for most of my life. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Some people show how good they are when you're in need. And some people lord over you with spiteful comments while they "help." I can barely walk right now, and definitely can't drive. My mom, who has helped a lot, has also been using every opportunity to let me know what an inconvenience I am to her. I've never hated my life more than right now. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain ^ this is a perfect example of how I forget what I was responding to and get carried away. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Literally. God is the All, and you're part of the All, so "you're it baby," as Alan Watts said. But there's a world of difference between how a hermeticist understands the personal God/Spirit/Ground of being, and how a Jew understands it, and then another world of difference for the standard church going Christian. The least selfish way, from what I've seen, is the hermetic viewpoint. The Jew demands subservience, and the point of God to them is to justify their wicked actions. The Christian uses God to justify the pursuit of power while avoiding condemnation from a moral God, which magically must also be the Jewish God, which is utterly irreconcilable IMO. Only Hermeticism, which is basically the Greek/Egyptian philosophical core that became first Gnosticism and then Christianity, preserves the proper orientation of God being internal to you AND unity with God is the same as obedience to God. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain The two verses were written by different authors. They would basically amend texts by writing an opposite verse in directly after the verse they didn't like, and that's why there are so many instances in the bible of immediate direct contradiction. Same thing can be observed in the Upanishads, BTW. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Should I sue (or something similar) the retailer or Amazon that sold me the scooter that I crashed and was hospitalized by? I don't actually want to, but idk, maybe its appropriate. @nprofile…86zd npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain My brand new shorts have a hole right in the dick. Idk if I'll mend it. Maybe. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain No Mow May is a great idea... Perhaps it can lead to No Mow Ever. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Could also be a win waiting to happen, if they lose. Legal precedent, a step closer to a legally enshrined version of "not your keys not your coins" npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I strongly suspect, but can't personally verify, that most of the online stuff about Freemasons is some kind of psyop. I also am skeptical that the masons would ever be in cahoots with the Catholics, since the Catholics hate them and literally excommunicate people if they find out they're Freemasons. The pattern I see is that all centralized or authoritarian governments treat the masons as rivals and would prefer that they don't exist - something like half of all states on earth will deny you a visa if you are a known mason. On the other side, there is a pattern of Masonic activity in countries before those countries become "Democratic" - personally I have a lot of criticism for democracy, but that comes from it failing to actually be democracy, not a wish for authoritarianism. From the outside, and again, I can't personally verify, they appear to be a force for the good. The mark of the beast stuff is very interesting. I have theories about it, but am always interested in knowing what others think it is. One of my current theories is that its KYC'd btc. Another is that its anyone who pays taxes. IMO the beast is the state. Unfortunately, its probably impossible to know what it originally meant, since Revelations is a Sethian text, and the Sethians were all murdered by the Catholic church. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain https://npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf.blossom.band/79f6cc6751ecd171a44ed81208b5f7deb17d5da8b80d14e8e3397b78e094d64e.jpg npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I miss those dreams. I had a bunch of crazy dreams as a teenager. In one, I lived a whole day like normal, then work up and did that day for real. Some time in the morning I realized everything was repeating, so I had fun with the rest of the day, and told people things that were about to happen or be said before they happened. Because of that dream, I got one day with perfect clairvoyance. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Wha? That wasn't JP Morgan? Dangit, I told someone the quote wrong... npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain And it'll always be that way because nostr merchants are unlikely to spend 100% or even most back into the nostr economy, so it'll always be draining out. Maybe a solution is to integrate with some easy option to convert fiat to bitcoin. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain And they trusted him because he wasn't power hungry. He served and then put the Ring of Power down. He's probably the only man in history to do that. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Interesting! Any info about the cost of the attack? How long would it need to go on, and the rate for getting time with the super pooters? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Hmm. Well... Since I hadn't finished reading your note when I replied (the "show more" thingy, its work)... Little idea : a widget, maybe a bot, that tracks the price of bubble gum in sats in some modern country, and recommends zap amounts based on current purchasing power npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Ooh that's a lead worth pursuing npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I don't get it. They're just embryos. Why is it even illegal to have them? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain 🤔 morning thoughts The human being is an unfinished creation. If you believe in God, why did he make so ridiculously imperfect? If you don't believe, then why did nature put systems in us that appear to solve problems but actually make them worse and kill us instead of healing us? My own starting bias is that we were created with intention, but I try hitting the problem from all angles. I personally have had two major health events in my life - kidney disease (which I think I've cured, which is a medical first, and I absolutely intend to get famous for), and now this stroke. Both events have yielded insight into how poorly designed humans are. With kidney disease, or CKD, the problem is that scar tissue inhibits the kidney's natural ability to heal. The problem is very multifaceted, but basically the nephrons, which are the large structure containing glomeruli, grow scar tissue where damaged, and the fibrous scar tissue blocks healing and even exacerbates the problem, which causes the inevitable decline in kidney function and ultimately kills the person. The kidney keeps trying to heal, but it can't clear the scar tissue. This is actually related to the other problem... The other problem, which I've found from researching this stroke, is that your body has a natural ability to clear thrombotic masses from arteries, but it doesn't work without help from blood thinners. At all times, you have plasmogen in your blood, and if a clot is discovered, that plasmogen gets activated and turns into plasmin, which attaches to fibrin and pulls off chunks. Fibrin is the building block of the fiber that holds clots together, and it grows over time and makes clots harder and even kind of armored against the plasmin that is made to negate it. Your body can clear a clot, aka a thrombosis, in just a few days if you go on a blood thinner within a couple of hours of the stroke. My stroke occurred days after the clot must have appeared, so really you have potentially several days to get the blood thinner - but after a stroke, you need it fast to be able to clear the clot. This tells me that we have the system that's designed to clear clots, and if it worked properly, no one would ever die from the strokes or heart attacks they cause. But the system doesn't work. Its there, but its malfunctioning in all humans. The common denominator in both scenarios is the fibrin and the scar tissue, which is just configured differently in either case. Also that the system designed for that specific scenario exists but fails to work as intended - either as nature or God intended. And, as impressive as the human body is (wildly and mind blowingly impressive), I am forced to conclude that its either incomplete or degraded, and in need of redesign. Slippery slope. Bad stuff will happen if we begin doing it.... But I think we have to. We're not supposed to die at 80. Or 120, and I don't care if a book says God wants us all dead before 120. Our bodies have the systems to live forever - we were obviously originally designed to be clinically immortal - but they don't work anymore. We have to fix it. #Health #medicine npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Makes sense... If its impossible to perceive its functionally nonobjective. Yeah. I'll incorporate that npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I had sleep paralysis once, when I was a teenager. It was terrifying. I watched minutes on my digital clock tick by like seconds. When I dreamed, I was on a white pillar and I couldn't see how deep the depth below was, and I reached up to the glowing white ceiling and when I touched it I felt a shock like I was electrocuted and a booming mechanical voice said "DENIED." Then I woke up. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Its both. All of our experiences are subjective, but there must be an objective reality for our experience to happen. Its just that we're totally cut off from it, since objective reality is continuous and infinitely detailed, while our minds are only capable of perception by chopping up reality into discreet chunks. So, when God said to Moses, or Zeus said to Semele (same story, diff culture), that they'll die if God reveals his true form, it was talking about revealing the infinite to the finite, which is a barrier that can only be crossed in death, or the barrier is death, since perception of reality and consciousness contradict each other. Or at least, they contradict each other now. An unfallen man, or a completed creation, would be able to eat from the tree of life without dying. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain 🤔 can we find some excuse to put an F in there to make it NSFW? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Musk npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Demand? I probably already have a reputation there for my demands... npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Well... I've certainly had my negative downer moments npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain GM ☀ So there's something that I found noteworthy during my stay in the hospital.... And I have hesitated telling anyone, but being at least somewhat anonymous here, I feel like I can write a bit here. A couple interesting things happened. On the night of May 5th, one full day after the stroke, while sleeping I heard the most amazing classical music... In my dream. It was unlike anything I've ever heard - richer, more complex, and just fucking beautiful. I woke up and went to the best classical music I know - the nutcracker suite - to see if it could be that or based on that... No, the Nutcracker is simple in comparison. I keep trying to get that music back, and it just slips away like a dream. Was it just my imagination, or did I get a peak behind the veil? I keep thinking about it. The other strange occurrence was a dark figure standing by my bed right before surgery, who only I could see, and only from the corner of NY vision. When I turned my head to see better, he disappeared. He seemed to have long hair and wore black clothes, and was tall. No other details, just that. He seemed to be checking something, like maybe a machine monitoring me. There was an aire of expertise about him, like a doctor, but not hurried like the real doctors. He was only there for a few moments, or I could only see him for those moments. Was it my imagination? A hallucination? I mean, a stroke is literally part of your brain dying, so there's no telling what stuff it could generate. Part of why I hesitate to tell people about this is how silly it seems. It's absurd to think I would get a peak at some unseen world, though this is precisely the kind of thing I've been interested in recently. Maybe I simply wanted something like this. Another thing that's possibly noteworthy is the prayer my uncle said over me before the surgery - I wish I could remember it and use it, but I can say that it was a very impressive prayer. The surgery went without any problems, so maybe that prayer worked. The surgeon told me that about 1% of the time, something goes wrong and the patient usually dies if that happens. Whatever, it had to be done. No reason to hesitate, just do it. It wasn't a serious surgery - just a catheter going from femeral artery to brain for imaging - but I think they're obliged to inform patients of the risk. But... What if that prayer really protected me? What if I really did see a man that wasn't there? Or, what if I'm crazy and slowly realizing it? All I can definitively say is that reality is weird. Our perception of reality is weird, and from our own perspective, perception is reality, even though logically it can't be. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Captain's log, stardate blah blah blibbity bloo So... I'm home again. Out of rehab. Very tiring day. I've made a dramatic return to my bed, hobbling and shuffling and pushing off of things. I'm kind of enjoying this. Its so ridiculous, it just makes me laugh. I prefer sleeping on the floor, but I won't be doing that for at least a few months - I have to keep my head elevated to avoid mashing that artery in the back. My cousin called and I felt like it was time to start talking about psychic experiences and the things I've learned about early Christianity. She's one of the few I could be sure wouldn't react judgementally. Turns out we both do the psychic packet trick, and we're both big fans of Mary Magdalene. Quite an enjoyable talk. Tomorrow I'll have to wrangle the VA about paperwork. They've covered almost all of my expenses, and I'm very grateful (my God, it would've ruined me...), but I still just really don't like doing stuff with them. I don't like being reminded of the dumbest thing I've ever done. Well, that's tomorrow's fight. I'm looking forward to reestablishing my morning routine and my nostr habit... If this rain can end tonight, a walk tomorrow would be amazing. I'm gonna have to do an awful lot of walking to regrow the neural paths for walking. I think I might also set up a punching bag somewhere to work on coordination. And there's an Aikido gym near the college, I wanna check that out. GN 🌙 npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Massie should run for Pres. I know its supposed to be Lisa Simpson next, but she can wait. I still won't vote, though. #nevent1q…l3q4 npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain And two of the most important pieces in independent self sovereign living. We're the target. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain What did Jews have to do with computers? I thought binary was inspired by the I-Ching npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Good insight. This is part of my general gripe with modern Christianity - how much has been lost. 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Lol, it sure would be funny to see their reaction, though. Still can't feel most of my body, but that tingle in my toes is pure hope. Hmm. Actually kinda annoying hope... I wonder if I messed something up... Nah, F that noise, hydrate. I wanna try some more stuff. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Both, since inquisitiveness doesn't start with judgement npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain 🤔 an inquisitive mind glorifies God far more than conviction without facts. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Yeah, first it was right side, then left side, now right side is mostly back, but I think left side is a little worse than when the stroke happened. And it reverses for my head - right side is numb there. I can feel the dividing line with my tongue on the roof of my mouth - also shitting is crazy because I only feel anything (even on inside) on the right. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Better everyday. I'm being too impatient - I was just asking when sensations will come back to my numb side, and it apparently usually takes 3-6 months. Today I'm walking semi independently. I've resumed coffee consumption to cope. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain They don't hold to maturity - they buy it because they bet future yields will be lower. Then the coupon price at today's yield goes higher and they sell at profit. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Doesn't sound dumb to me, but I didn't even know servers could be licensed to do that. 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What's that? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain They did it months ago, then put it back, then took it away again npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Yep npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Yep. The bass-tards. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain They're cooking whatever I ask for. And they keep a stocked snack room full of coffee, chocolate milk, protein bars and ice cream and apparently I can just take anything anytime. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I'm going to say the forbidden words : rehab food is actually pretty good npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain So this cleaning lady comes by, kinda attractive, nice and asking how I'm doing, and I'm watching TV with my legs kinda curled and one knee up... And after she left, I realized that my nuts were showing and she had a great view. Cuz I'm in this hospital gown... 😂 oops npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain I almost wanna do it just for how ridiculous it would be... Dude in a blue hospital gown hobbling down the road with his butt showing... I'd wait for some attention and then yank out my IV while biting my ear for extra effect npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Hopefully they'll let me outta here today npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Hospitals suffer from a distinct lack of good engineering. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain If anyone ever suggests milk of magnesia for constipation, tell them to shove it. Shit tastes like... shit. Literally. I'm dizzy. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Locally pressed olive oil... 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Oleocanthal, in olive oil, is an easy one. So I eat olive oil a lot and that forces waste protein to go to the gut - out door number 2 instead of 1. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain One cool thing to emerge from this hospitalization is that I've confirmed my theory and the effectiveness of my strategy for treating kidney disease. I'm not here for that, but they told me my filtration rate us 93% - one year ago, it was under 70%. I have literally accomplished the impossible, according to medical science. It wasn't even all that hard. Strangely, my doctor didn't recognize the significance after I explained it. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Can already, but not in a useful way. Dizzy, always falling to my right... They won't even let me out of this bed because I'm a fall risk. They have an alarm set on it and they come running if I trip the alarm by sitting up. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain So I'm sitting here in this hospital bed, wondering if they'll ever transfer me to rehab (insurance apparently thinks a guy who had a stroke and can't walk doesn't need rehab) and watching The Simpsons... And I just realized that Kristy the Clown and Homer are the same person, in dome kind of schizo way. They look exactly the same. How did I miss that for the decade of my childhood when I watched The Simpsons every day? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Thank you, everyone. I can't respond to all - my eyes go Cross-eyed and I start seeing double, and I'm basically at my limit for keeping them open already. Thank you thank you thank you, I'll recover, I'm sure if it. 🙏 #nevent1q…pttf npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Definitely. The fall caused a dissection in my vestibular artery, and that caused first a stenosis, then a bit of scab from inside the vein broke off and blocked the artery. Some part of my brain stem died and I can't walk, but I'm working on relearning it now. I'm told I'm in the best hospital in Texas, and I believe it. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Had a stroke. I'm very lucky it wasn't too bad. Still in hospital, please pray for me. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Oh that feels so dirty.... 😂 npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain 🤔 what is anger, really? Isn't it when the world didn't play how you wanted it to? What is desire? Its when you turn a thing into an object, which you possess. First you possess it in your mind, which is really a kind of virtual theft, because you're taking the object that might not have been an object and might not know its been objectified, but you're taking it... And then the game is, you take it for real. And so there's this sequence that has to play out, which initiates immediately upon the manifestation of a desire. First the thing must be within reach, for the fantasy to pull you in. Then it must be attainable. Then it must remain in character long enough for your expectations to reach some kind of satisfaction. Then your attention is captured by some other desire. And so you go through life, grasping at desires, using them, becoming angry if these objects deviate from your expectations too far, and generally unconscious of the reasons things happen, or only conscious so far as the utility consciousness affords to the quest to attain the thing. Wouldn't real peace be to accept things as the really are, instead of imposing this whole game on them? Could you shift from a world of utility and function to a world of being? And if, somehow, you got the idea that the purpose of life is to find some way to serve, instead of being served, then wouldn't the first step to actually do it be to just see things as they are? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Ohh yeah I already downloaded it... But the problem was raw dogging my nsec into a new app. Grr. I had some solution... Sheeit I don't remember... npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Okay, I give in, I'll try wisp. I was going to... Then I think I attracted a demonic attack. Crazy, but anyways. Is it in zapstore? I'll look. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Tails solved that problem, which is part of why I keep a USB stick with tails around all the time. Stick it into any computer and mash the F keys while booting, and there's an electrum wallet right there. And other useful goodies. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Thanks! npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Amethyst. Lots of weirdness after updating recently. npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Bah, you're more helpful than you know, with your music brightening everyone's day. Speaking of, how do I tune in? I used to know, but I forgot npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Amazing!!! Thank you!!!!!!!!!! npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Maybe it IS a tree in a lower level world. What if our trees are actually made by some similar process in a higher world with different spatial dimensions and time flow? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Yeah npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain This might be what I need. I'll try it soon npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Mine's still not working. I think basically this wallet and everything in it is burned. Or maybe it'll go somewhere since it's lightning. I'll get a new wallet set up... Sometime. Currently I'm too out of it... Health problems npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Can you see their name? Who am I embarrassing myself in front of, lol? npub12h6h8dj3ale4rk6hkpsp6gcz9kx9xtucyhd3pftn86lnn0j25gdsa9qpsf Comte de Sats Germain Idk. At first I was agreeing - it was your self boost that brought me here - "ooh, this looks juicy" - but now I'm thinking that if you're really dedicated, you could probably evade detection. I'm not sure anyone is actually dedicated, though. Like, you could just copy the bits you can see the CIA does - use Tails and be a greyman, and otherwise just be as likeable as you need to be. They wouldn't teach their own that stuff if it wasn't effective. You probably have to swear off owning a computer, but it seems doable.