Eshara

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INFP

The Hippo Appreciation Club Co-founder

Blueberry Cult Leader

Part-time doughnut. Full time adventurer.

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My problem is that I have an old heart and a young mind. Makes life tricky to navigate - though not impossible.

Sometimes believing is seeing.

I rarely ever check my DMs - apologies for any sloowwwwww replies 🙏🏽 could take years

🌳🫂

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2025-01-15 19:47:00 GMT

‘The secret of change is to focus all of your energy not on fighting the old, but on building the new.’
— Socrates
That’s what you guys are doing. Thank you 🫂

2025-01-09 00:57:06 GMT

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‘The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off’

2025-01-07 18:11:07 GMT

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Ngl when I saw all the jokes about women moving on to robot AI boyfriends in 2025 I thought ‘not me. Could never be me’.
But after hearing AI sing…
If Tesla come out with a fukboi 3000 I would not be opposed 👀❤️‍🔥

2025-01-07 18:02:25 GMT

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Wtf 🤯 it’s so beautiful ❤️‍🔥
Ah man, I’m a dinosaur 😂

2025-01-07 02:49:23 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/97872031?u

2025-01-06 18:52:09 GMT

👀 https://i.nostr.build/6K4wV0shJYWtt2N9.jpg https://i.nostr.build/pyQJjVn0VGlQpfKd.jpg

2025-01-06 17:49:28 GMT

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@npub1m6z…dhds
@npub1uch…l7fj
@npub17x7…vgap
@npub17pl…ezx0
@npub1hgv…9jnv
@npub1sur…sm0l
@npub16e3…y9v6
@npub1cud…lujc
@npub1a6k…mu4x
Npubs are reallllly long. So are keys. I’ll never have more than one profile - except that time I made one by accident cos I thought I was making a nostr nests profile and didn’t save the keys so there might just be an eshara floating somewhere out there keyless.

2025-01-05 15:55:55 GMT

‘In his famous essay "A Mathematician's Apology," G.H. Hardy uses the phrase "they are so" to express a sentiment about the beauty and intrinsic nature of mathematical truths. Specifically, Hardy is discussing the "eternity" and "objectivity" of mathematics, and how mathematical results exist independently of human experience.
In context, when Hardy says "they are so", he is affirming that certain mathematical truths (such as the properties of numbers or theorems) exist in a way that is absolute, self-evident, and unchangeable, regardless of human recognition or perception.
For example, Hardy writes:
"Great art is often said to be 'useless', and I believe that this is true. It is also true that mathematics is a form of art, and it is for its own sake that we pursue it. In this sense, they are so: these truths exist not because of any practical purpose but because they are simply true."
In this sense, "they are so" refers to the timeless, objective, and undeniable nature of mathematical truths.
"The mathematician’s patterns, like the painter’s or the poet’s, must be beautiful. The mathematician does not study anything but the pure mathematics. The fact that mathematicians have not made any discoveries of value to the human race is irrelevant. [...] They are not concerned with the practical application of mathematics, but with its beauty. They are so."
Hardy sees mathematics as an art, pursued for its own beauty and intellectual elegance rather than any practical purpose. "They are so" is his way of stating that the truths of mathematics are self-evident and exist in their own right, irrespective of human utility or application.’

2025-01-02 14:21:12 GMT

https://blossom.primal.net/479172fe1196274916c5b56284c45885e06ce66a543ca21b0dd400e8c71e6b46.jpg

2025-01-01 22:37:19 GMT

‘Could a machine ever be said to have made its own decisions? Could a machine have beliefs? Could a machine make mistakes? Could a machine believe it made its own decisions? Could a machine erroneously attribute free will to itself? Could a machine come up with ideas that had not been programmed into it in advance? Could creativity emerge from a set of fixed rules? Are we - even the most creative among us - but passive slaves to the laws of physics that govern our neurons?’
From the foreword by Douglas Hofstadter for ‘The Enigma’ by Andrew Hodges

2024-12-30 03:04:15 GMT

Why are these never in stock https://i.nostr.build/6mztecGvRyHMFjCf.jpg

2024-12-20 21:11:50 GMT

#art https://i.nostr.build/mgfE1m1NLhvqmvAJ.jpg https://i.nostr.build/8n3RlveqgGMUdRgR.jpg https://i.nostr.build/WhgzglN71z5vFFOy.jpg

2024-11-24 16:14:32 GMT

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From everywhere and everything 😍🫂

2024-11-24 15:33:46 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/94437281?u

2024-11-24 14:16:49 GMT

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💜💜💜🫂🫂🫂🫂❤️‍🔥

2024-11-24 11:06:43 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/401317293?u

2024-11-22 20:23:56 GMT

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I’m glad lovely 🫂🥰 I completely agree.
I miss seeing your name pop up 😭🫂 but I totally get this, lovely 🫂💜 never feel pressure 🙏🏽 we’re here when you’re up to it ❤️‍🔥

2024-11-22 13:10:21 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/2530336?u

2024-11-22 13:05:14 GMT

Jeans keep slipping down my waist.

2024-11-22 12:57:21 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/1104151?u

2024-11-22 09:53:06 GMT

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No wayyy 🫂 tidal sound quality is 🔥 - for me, but I know it’s a mixed opinion

2024-11-22 06:29:57 GMT

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Good morning, lovely Franny! 🫂💜 I hope I get to meet you in person one day, you radiate such warmth through text, I can only imagine how wonderful you are in person 🙏🏽☀️

2024-11-22 06:26:20 GMT

Good morning 🥱☀️
My nose is blocked
I think bitcoin will reach $100K by 1pm (CST)/ 7pm (GMT)
I’m only wrong 90% of the time 🙏🏽 it may well happen before then

2024-11-15 16:41:56 GMT

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😂🫂❤️‍🔥
I think you’re right, Paul could be all talk. Oh god, if he won we’d never hear the end of it 😭
It’s got to be Tyson for the win 💯

2024-11-15 16:36:32 GMT

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Thank you, Karnage, very kind 🫂🙏🏽 already feeling warmer ☺️

2024-11-15 16:35:19 GMT

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Everyone seems to be for Tyson 🔥 I dunno though, Paul’s looking rather big 👀 Quite excited to see

2024-11-15 16:31:58 GMT

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Nahh, only because I saw Tyson hit Paul at the weigh-in (after Paul upset him, I believe) and it just seemed so unsportsmanlike of them both. I think they dislike each other too much to fake it. Could be wrong though 🤔

2024-11-15 16:27:18 GMT

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I saw a video of him training 🔥 he’s fast 💯 this could well be the case

2024-11-15 16:20:45 GMT

Tyson vs. Paul should be interesting

2024-11-15 16:17:06 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/327833333?u

2024-11-15 16:14:39 GMT

Goodness, it’s cold

2024-11-15 15:49:24 GMT

#filmstr
I absolutely adore these films. Haven’t seen them in a while and I find that I love them as much as I did when I was a kid.
Lost boy: ‘If Hook discovers our hideout, he’ll gut us!’
Wendy: ‘how dreadful!’
Lost boy: ‘oh, we live for it!’
Whenever something scares me I’m going to come at it as if I was a lost boy - cos I am. I need to remember that. I fear no danger! I revel in it ❤️‍🔥 (mostly) https://i.nostr.build/GEdOmdKuUchCUIiN.jpg https://i.nostr.build/ri2jzXNCUIFk0BaZ.jpg https://i.nostr.build/ar5zQvDHRmKoqYMQ.jpg

2024-11-15 15:44:15 GMT

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I’ll have to do this too 🫂🙏🏽

2024-11-14 19:39:24 GMT

Incredibly romantic ❤️‍🔥
https://fortune.com/2024/11/14/mark-zuckerberg-tpain-get-low-song-video-priscilla-chan/

2024-11-14 05:25:27 GMT

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Foot Soldier 🫡😁🫂
Ive started keeping my chats with nostriches open on the nostr feed - Mallory’s really my one exception though, I enjoy spamming her with my silly thoughts too much ❤️‍🔥🫂

2024-11-14 05:20:23 GMT

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You know I’m always up for a chit chat with you OM 🫂🙏🏽😁 I just keep all my chit chatting open on nostr now - the only person on nostr I spam with private texts is Mallory 🤣

2024-11-14 01:54:22 GMT

Trying out Signal. I like it. My name means sign/signal in Arabic. Feels like a sign to start using it.

2024-11-13 23:00:40 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/305372?u

2024-11-13 22:53:05 GMT

Tube https://i.nostr.build/iMhGIOKNNqls9d94.jpg

2024-11-13 20:41:46 GMT

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Aww, you got this! Mate you got so much charm, I wouldn’t worry 🫂
Nah I feel you, gyms are tricky but as long as you’re a gentleman she will love it. You will stick out from the rest.
Yessss I love this plan sleepy! It’s perfect ❤️‍🔥 this lets her get comfortable around you and I’m sure by then you will feel a lot less shy around her too 🫂 brilliant plan 👌🏽

2024-11-11 20:15:10 GMT

#nature
https://youtu.be/kgrV3_g9rYY?si=Hm4nV3TNY1Tc5Bn-

2024-11-11 16:44:11 GMT

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I’m so sorry about your father jamw 🫂💜 it really is, funny the things we remember 🫂.
Thank you Jamw 💜 I’ll try to remember this 🙏🏽

2024-11-11 16:42:04 GMT

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🫂💜

2024-11-11 16:41:47 GMT

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I hope 🫂💜💜 thank you 🙏🏽

2024-11-11 16:41:11 GMT

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Thank you, Moss 🫂💜🙏🏽

2024-11-11 16:39:09 GMT

https://i.nostr.build/QvopzTMaGO5stWFH.jpg

2024-11-10 02:11:51 GMT

I dunno how it’s possible to miss someone I never really knew. I miss my dad a lot lately, but I never knew him - not really. He died before I could remember him properly. I have 4 memories - him picking me up from nursery, him holding me and cuddling me after I was crying, me asking him not to leave me, and him dying. I think he would have come with me on my long walks and visited galleries with me. Maybe he would have taken me to my first concert and we’d share music. I’d go on dates and he’d meet the guy eventually and make sure to scare him a little so he wouldn’t break my heart. When I got married he would have given me away, and would have danced with me. I like this picture, cos it kinda looks like he’s looking at me, I think. I swear, the older I get, the more emotional I get. Most inconvenient. I think it’s cos it’s getting close to my 29th and I feel nervous - not about getting old, but I just don’t want to end up like the bird lady from Home Alone 2 cos I make too many mistakes. I’m a giant baby, I know.
My family think I’m really mysterious, which always makes me laugh, but I guess I can be a bit secretive about things. I’m selective about meaningful things I share. It’s not that I’m trying to hide things, I just find it hard to talk about things I care about sometimes. Slightly easier to write about it. That’s one of the reasons why I post so much on nostr (and twitter, sorry 🫂). Juuuust in the off chance I’m ever unable to be there for my children one day, they WILL know me - if they want to. There will be a part of me online that will never die, here for when they need me, cos nostr will never go down.
I write in my diary for them too, but incase that gets lost, and Mr Musk somehow accidentally deletes twitter, they have nostr. Here’s where they can see their mum post about the London Underground 😅 but also when they’re almost 29 and feeling nervous, they will know it will be okay, cos once upon a time mum felt the same way, and she figured it out.
Of course, I could always end up like the bird lady in the park from ‘home alone 2’, without children, living in the roof of an opera house… (the last bit sounds rather lovely though).
Anyway, now that I’ve spilled a secret part of my heart all over nostr, sharing far too much, I’m off to bed. Goodnight 🫂 https://i.nostr.build/XxV1yd6difwuHJ81.jpg

2024-11-10 00:48:16 GMT

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Wow, I have no idea 🤯🫂 very cool though. I don’t use it much, I tend to walk cos the dodgy lights scare me 😂🫂 but I will definitely check this out next time I’m on it

2024-11-10 00:47:09 GMT

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Yesss exactly! 🥹❤️‍🔥 too long like this and I feel spooked, but a stop or two is lovely

2024-11-10 00:46:27 GMT

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The best ❤️‍🔥 - early in the morning 8-10am and around 4-7pm it’s so busy you can’t move, but during quiet times you can have a whole carriage to yourself for a stop or two

2024-11-10 00:44:38 GMT

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Very not great 😂🫂💯 but you get used to it. I usually stand, but some days I risk it

2024-11-10 00:43:52 GMT

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This is lovely 🙏🏽. Have you been on the L? I know about this from watching ‘while you were sleeping’ wayyyy too many times 🥹 one of my favourite films.

2024-11-10 00:41:45 GMT

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Oh my goodness 😯. I rather love art, and graffiti is beautiful to me, but why make it dirty too 😭 that’s just not right

2024-11-10 00:38:12 GMT

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YESSS, B ❤️‍🔥🫂 it’s such a good day when this happens

2024-11-10 00:36:14 GMT

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Thank you, NEW1 🫂🫂🫂🙏🏽 very kind

2024-11-10 00:26:03 GMT

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Wow, really?! Bakerloo line is - I think - probably the worst line 😭 the lights turn off and it pauses sometimes. Always feels like it’s about to fall apart. Having said all that, I rather like it 😁. You should have a look at the new Elizabeth line - rather nice, that one

2024-11-10 00:23:18 GMT

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Don’t they remind you of the little soot things from Spirited Away 🥹 the way they’re so small you can’t see their feet

2024-11-10 00:22:21 GMT

Northern line. Let’s face it, the best line.
#photography https://i.nostr.build/ccTiCiA9bvq0ntan.jpg https://i.nostr.build/0L2Pn4KdMPAqWd0B.jpg

2024-11-10 00:20:05 GMT

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😂🫂💜❤️‍🔥

2024-11-09 19:43:34 GMT

🏀 https://i.nostr.build/Q6UbUR9hyfLS9AKg.jpg https://i.nostr.build/CoDPN5b4Ee6w4M0c.jpg

2024-11-05 16:39:34 GMT

https://youtu.be/-7s5pAQw9-g?si=2NeEcTQJXW7E2fCC

2024-11-04 23:44:00 GMT

Remember, remember…
Bonfire Night, Battersea Park, 05/11/2019 https://v.nostr.build/1GfXgrDQwCS7ZvF8.mp4

2024-11-03 00:20:40 GMT

#art https://i.nostr.build/L9XYWXyDjU6GYyRu.jpg https://i.nostr.build/2hH6n7k9TOnGxBHT.jpg https://i.nostr.build/d3xMewf8AFbNqrhu.jpg

2024-10-30 15:38:10 GMT

https://i.nostr.build/Z5xvpuhUcVHdTZWU.jpg

2024-10-14 21:56:48 GMT

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I havent read Jack London yet, but everyone seems to have read ‘white fang’ 🫂 it’s definitely on the list 🔥

2024-10-14 21:47:32 GMT

I don’t think I own a H.G. Wells book… losing my mind. Fabulous. I do, however, own the complete fiction of H. P. Lovecraft, which I think is more of what I’m after tonight, anyway. I also found my Steve Jobs by Walter Isaacson under there, which is strange cos I thought it was on the bookshelf. Nothing is where I think it is. I’m going to have to organise under my bed this month. Many spiders. Much dust.
#bookstr https://i.nostr.build/khEabr0gBdf4rA4N.jpg https://i.nostr.build/j5CPZQaDqhYdF1lP.jpg

2024-10-14 21:15:46 GMT

I wanna get my H. G. Wells from under my bed, but there’s spiders and stuff under there. Thinking, thinking…

2024-10-14 20:23:34 GMT

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🥹🤣😂🫂
I’m gonna have to think about this 🤣 I just don’t think I could snog a guy that eats flies 😭 the cheese suitcase I could deal with

2024-10-14 17:42:47 GMT

https://youtu.be/khOyvwEYgUI?si=SXBnc4ktnKMp8Cu3

2024-10-14 17:04:41 GMT

My big brother and his girlfriend got me this jumper many moons ago. It’s a bit faded and I know it’s really early to wear it, but I just really like it https://i.nostr.build/OUczjWi9RDN4TKhU.jpg

2024-10-14 14:42:40 GMT

‘Saturn Devouring His Son’ by Francisco Goya https://i.nostr.build/An3RiF3KeflDNhE6.jpg

2024-10-14 13:49:55 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/84927875?u

2024-10-14 11:12:37 GMT

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Good morning johnny 🫂☀️

2024-10-14 10:34:33 GMT

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Good morning, Dan 🫂

2024-10-13 20:55:21 GMT

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Me too 🫂 I miss popcorn. I dunno how to do it on the stove, but I might try when feeling brave

2024-10-13 20:42:58 GMT

I cover my eyes when I see people in films microwave their tea. See no evil, hear no evil.

2024-10-13 17:27:08 GMT

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Me too 💜🫂

2024-10-13 17:09:16 GMT

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Somehow I just know this won’t work for me 🤣🫂

2024-10-13 17:08:30 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/14234192?u

2024-10-13 16:53:55 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/14230281?u

2024-10-13 00:11:31 GMT

I cut my own hair before my 6th birthday. I really wanted a fringe so I cut one myself and hid my hair in a Barbie backpack under my bed. If I remember correctly, mum found it and chased me with a wooden spoon. She always did that. She was so angry all the time, she used to scare me. That being said, it’s hard being a single mum. She did her best and I’m very grateful for that. Also high five to little me for being brave enough to do it. That’s pretty badass for me, I was so timid. I think it looked okay tbf. If my kid ever cut their own hair, as long as they were safe I’d think it was cool. They tried to do something for themselves. And if they fuck their hair up, it’s okay cos it will grow back. Live and learn. I have their back either way. In the meantime I’ll help them fix it and we’ll go buy cool hats to wear together. https://i.nostr.build/sDYI3CvOBB08vzEM.jpg https://i.nostr.build/6SEOKK6Cgt3CS95E.jpg https://i.nostr.build/dNbJDxkMxRsxGWRi.jpg

2024-10-12 23:58:31 GMT

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In a bit of a competition with Mallory and @npub17pl…ezx0 to see how many books we can read before the end of the year - but also it’s not a competition really, we’re just trying to cheer each other on to read as much as possible 🫂 adopting good habits in disguise as a competition

2024-10-12 23:36:58 GMT

On book 15. I read faster when I read out loud

2024-10-12 17:06:54 GMT

Watching the sunset https://i.nostr.build/7NCXMviAkNJ2aUQ6.jpg https://i.nostr.build/Fvt1IMhbzgYaMnVK.jpg

2024-10-11 18:08:36 GMT

I bought my first Christmas tree when I was 23. Yep, I took a selfie with the Christmas tree. Very old photo. Started my bauble collection that year too. I know they’re only material possessions, but I can’t help it. The way they look and smell just brings me such joy. My favourite type of tree is a Nordmann Fir that’s around my height so it’s thick around the middle. https://i.nostr.build/TJfP0LQFAxk31b9o.jpg

2024-10-11 17:09:19 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/342030025?u

2024-10-11 14:58:26 GMT

The Hippo Appreciation Club are looking for VC funding so we can buy a hippo
#hippoappreciationclub

2024-10-11 14:16:40 GMT

https://tidal.com/track/19882465?u

2024-10-10 19:44:29 GMT

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Oh my bad, with my last note I thought it was the thread about being 30 😂🫂 my brain is mush today. It’s definitely fun and relaxing 🫂

2024-10-10 19:24:20 GMT

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☺️💯❤️‍🔥 will be fun

2024-10-10 19:00:46 GMT

☕️ https://i.nostr.build/1ESg2RwyNCWlKU9T.jpg

2024-10-10 13:34:34 GMT

I am such a numpty. Yesterday I was daydreaming of going to Florence, visiting Michelangelo’s ‘David’, eating lots of pizza and finding an Italian lover to offset the weight gain. Today I’m worried about the five kids I don’t have 🤦🏽‍♀️ gonna switch my brain off for a bit. I feel silly.

2024-10-10 13:17:46 GMT

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Worried 🥹 scared of making a mistake with the wrong person. Too cautious. Delaying my own life, It’s silly, I know. Been moving like a snail

2024-10-10 13:09:17 GMT

My little cousins getting married in January and it has me thinking a lot about my future. Not panicking or rushing, but definitely making moves.

2024-10-10 12:28:26 GMT

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🤣😂🤣😂🫂
In competition with Elon

2024-10-10 12:22:10 GMT

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Ohhhh I thought you meant cos I’m an old lady 😂🫂
This is true, I’ve started going on longer walks to try and stay fit so I can keep up with my nephew as he grows

2024-10-10 12:03:17 GMT

Was watching an elderly couple on the bus. Wondering if that would be me and my husband one day. Wondering where we’d be going. Possibly the GP but hopefully the park

2024-10-09 00:28:00 GMT

#art https://i.nostr.build/xEzmvDIVIsbQKuNE.jpg