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Is there chatting applications that work well with sitting and/or lying down? B. Is there a particular headset that works well when lying down? I'm asking because I might get some funding soon for electronics from the government and I'm considering getting one for when I'm in a flare-up and want to socialise. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1vwr…fnzd We basically need to do this on a wide scale. Make it so that if the issue isn't addressed, their value will be lower than if it were. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Friendly reminder that the housing crisis is caused by the middle class democratically colluding with the rich to keep their home value up. We can't make housing affordable if their houses don't lose value. Target them as well. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Atlas... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29ECwExc-_M https://clip.arachnid.town/media/50ea24705f481b65f3db0ddc667c6a88c7ace3596bad3d554ef8382b595788c8.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I wish there was beings that were just hot outfits without the human. That probably makes zero sense. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I wanna fuck the Intel AI DJ. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/f598a4aa47e04986c83fecae8c37b330675a780edf75a133c27fb739ee9d22f9.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1pf5…fprv How is Discord following a court order somehow making them "not your friend?" There are a million things that makes Discord untrustworthy; this is not one of them. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1ysu…2jyl It's worth noting that basically every country that speaks English that isn't the US uses zed. So it isn't really the Canadian way, but more of a general Commonwealth thing. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Pronouncing ZFS as a Canadian would (zed eff ess) rolls off the tongue better than zee eff ess. The "zee" kinda melds together with the "eff" in an awkward way. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb https://clip.arachnid.town/media/a94a76f19c5c32d7753b69055882b8c6f256f68a390b97dcd322e2c55db11fcf.webm npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb https://clip.arachnid.town/media/70f334a99370ea1ee7f9edd2bd571cd14d293dddecec23d6546b0380570963d6.webm npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I hope y'all don't mind if I post some eyebleach. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/af3c4c513fb9dfe74e63a434fdd020536edfad72b99dfd97d35cdee2f8589353.mp4 npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Me fighting autocorrect: https://clip.arachnid.town/media/4a911af2e12cceb051dc775e5322d41eff5ca2337745e193dcde81ec9133d90d.jpg https://clip.arachnid.town/media/a07648a1c3f61822d1fb12c4c36a6fc48f2ea271aa5d76773fbbbdef0f97808b.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Me when I'm trying to list the things around me because I'm disassociated: https://clip.arachnid.town/media/5d0d3b1244fd7db005f5c519099235f0b74f0dfaf06a794d45087dc2c1487063.png npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I'm okay with COVID conspiracy theories if they're about COVID being worse than people think. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I fucking love this poster, by the way. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/0aa24292ff3b21dca8cc8bf4a1c44a0a3abf1b5c63536a37256ccffd689b8f2c.gif npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1txd…lw23 victim rights npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1txd…lw23 victim rights npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1txd…lw23 It's really funny how fast y'all respond to this shit. inb4 you're just searching "narcissist" over and over or something. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1txd…lw23 Just realised I worded it poorly, (narcissistic abuse) victims, not (narcissistic) abuse victims. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Terminally online narcissists on their way to harass a narcissistic abuse victim expressing their feelings: https://clip.arachnid.town/media/8b5f9e02a971e7ecbc88d7651cb8df40328c4e971b3265b1631006adc8dc2bc0.gif npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb D.B. Cooper be like: https://clip.arachnid.town/media/0cd0ef44b26a7c596b3a36c5691b4209d401b30b4101afb3a16ca9559af17dff.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Mr. Beast looks like a Mii. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/c2bfda9323adf955d37de9e1e4e743466b18109b87f890c59f19f9fe00c7299c.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub128m…fzga I gotta hide now. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb "Bro, like bro. Imagine if, like, Unix had objects instead of text bro." That's what the filesystem is for. But you use Unix, which doesn't support the features necessary to make it useful for programs. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Y Separator, where we find new and upcoming startups to take money from. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I still think about what it would be like growing up in Beast Orphanage. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/71f6f542096c7c9a705f2bed6a95c4fac1278d499f590ba9de4aedcf6bb913b1.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub15c7…suze @npub1wah…xc8t That moment when you're the weaver in the web that you made. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Knew a guy who had this exact image as his profile picture who played Metal Gear Solid all day. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/9fc95c8f53d10cb3d72da0ced27dde2a6c8e865e6406a29241b108b826e3c2d0.png npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Guys, I'm sorry to say this now, but I'm a government operative projecting electromagnetic signals into your brain, mutilating you and putting gay thoughts into your head. I'm so sorry, Fedi. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/1b1c8394712f329fd314ac7caec33166a3ecec07d634c655313668f7d642b2d8.upload https://clip.arachnid.town/media/5e322a3eb87df7f70efff36edda709be40114964b024e5d41f87d3474d4a05e7.upload https://clip.arachnid.town/media/77307a0937bcb5d7b0888d427b65d2e44b0b659511a3120dfca8e96ecefc62e4.upload npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb https://clip.arachnid.town/media/877da3357220592d00b36695af25a67db20f9889afcfa661b1fb98110827e547.upload npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb So hard being gay but also wanting to eat pussy. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/38f7f8179cc710c12b696cd2ef14df149ad662b73792267329d75fc82523f105.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Someone should draw Drew DeVault as a catboy. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb https://clip.arachnid.town/media/58bcbef4d2e9d522dad80e419a79c41f6be690eafa1a827221d13fdaf6197e3d.upload npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub120n…nr5j The Link Phenomenon npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub120n…nr5j TRUE. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb The world would be so much better if new bisexuals weren't allowed to know what femboys or twinks are for five years. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb We all know this one person. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/a2f12c9422ce900e8f5bd3b5c84556b2d33c7f9692c30a4a0d21f0835458de34.upload npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1qq7…fedr Cutting them causes uncontrolled release of nicotine. For someone like me that could be dangerous. Especially since I've never smoked. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb @npub1qq7…fedr You get more nicotine per dollar than buying the half as intense ones individually. I'm looking into microdosing nicotine for my health issues and I need half (or less) of the least intense patch. I can use tape to use half, but I'd rather not. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb "Why doesn't Canada sell nicotine patches in halves?" and other questions that makes me want to move to Europe. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Motherfuckers who have wallpapers like this but runs Ubuntu https://clip.arachnid.town/media/d5902781b7c5e3a03888861360b0161a6f083e796b1e7f95062943905fc27456.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb People need to start recognising that people who shit on 18+/MDNI accounts are people who are trying to shame people into not having boundaries. It's fucking toxic and it needs to stop. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Finally, a good programming tutorial. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/ccdd4e1353ca0399dc09f4d1b9c0b3ebede91a9bc54e4b9833eeada673ac2852.mp4 npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb https://clip.arachnid.town/media/73b6a1a73be6b5b00334aa0bcb11c83c1128201e09801df30b3d3391c8039175.webm npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb The Wayland protocol is a prime example of bikeshedding. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Having a family doctor who knows nothing about specialised medicine be the gatekeeper to specialists was a horrible idea. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Broke: Climate action bad because something something gay sex with Trudeau Woke: Climate action bad because I drop my fries https://clip.arachnid.town/media/df04efedb40bcacd0ece1f73046ee7b98d66bf4060272ac2ca6f5e822c2bbe59.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Prototypin' a vectorised Plan 9 cursor. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/d420742a40497b5cd38c44cb7d6bb1d297c290d278fbeaf37dbc147b6c5b568d.upload npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb It's been twenty minutes of CS2 Vulkan shaders compiling. Genuinely the biggest flaw of Linux gaming. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I feel like most FSE/Poast users could just be Chat Gippity bots. Asking an LLM to generate an unfunny edgelord reply would probably have better results than those humans who make generic-ass soundboard replies. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7rfBz_pGPg https://clip.arachnid.town/media/b5f6311060a2ad87134dcd989c54724ab63ad9c278cbd985c90514ae640f9e7d.webm npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I think a post like this was very emblematic of how other's truth had infested me. I'm still an anarchist, but my frame of mind was influenced by the toxic structures and made me blind to it. Socialists don't give a fuck about disabled people 99.9% of the time. They are rarely considered, and if they are they're an afterthought. Why? Because we aren't useful to the proleitariet. And really, nobody else cares about us because we can't fight back. They only say so much as to appear to support us, but not meaningfully plan out a sustainable way we can live. I was still chronically ill, mostly housebound when I made this post. Going for a thirty minute walk would leave me bedbound for weeks. Many others are like this. I have a provisionary diagnosis of ME/CFS, an incredibly underfunded and poorly researched disease relative to other ones. Medical abuse, sexism, pseudoscience by opportunistic scientists, and suicide are common. Why? Because the institutions can do horrible things to us without consequence. We can't burn down their houses and businesses, we can't protest for weeks on end, we have no economic leverage. We are completely dependent on able-bodied people. And so, they control our entire existence. Crippled people need George Floyd levels of imposed societal discomfort, but we will never get it. And really, the fact people even had to disrupt people's comfortable life to get anything done speaks volumes about how brain-oriented people are. Neoliberalism has a very simple exchange. The government makes more than fifty percent of people comfortable, and in exchange they get to exploit them. If you're disabled, you aren't able to be exploited. It's designed to do the minimum to keep humans feeling sustained. You work a 9-5, come home, eat food in a reliable fashion, drink a beer, have your partner satisfy your sexual needs (lest they lose 50% of what they own), sleep, have a large military to keep this life around, and are given miniscule free time to exercise certain rights if you play well with the system. The first level of these structures are comfortable people. Happy humans getting their needs met. To challenge this system and think with their heart is to risk what sustains them. If you never have to see, interact, or directly feel responsibility, there is no means for you to have a heart anyways. It's pointless, and society collectively characterises doing so as unneeded worrying. You never see sweatshop labour, or pollution, or the disabled killing themselves, or anything. So who cares what the consequences of not paying $15 extra in taxes are when you only are a comfort-seeker? Of course, the foundation is the oppressed and disposed. When people burn houses and businesses, it forces them to do something, but only to maintain that comfort. And so society does the bare minimum to keep themselves comfortable. Whether that be having overall little progress for eliminating racist societal constructs to appear to work on the problem more than they really are, or macing peaceful protestors to stop empathy from spreading. Think of Occupy Wall Street, and the general strikes that might happen in Quebec. These are rare examples of their comfort being challenged not artifically but naturally. The system was not fufilling its end of the deal. And so, as usual, it did the bare minimum to fix the issue. A good example of this is ODSP and CERB. The government paid the working class $2000 a month when COVID threatened them, which demonstrated what they felt Canadians needed to survive on. ODSP completely deducted these payments from people on disability, and it was only given to working people. This was in spite of ODSP being roughly $1000 for years, with a payment barely larger than before the 2008 recession. The reality is that it's easier to just not think about us cripples. People aren't using their hearts. They're using their brains. They see dead weight, and act accordingly. Even if they feel bad on some level, they built that tinted box to survive in a world that's much more cruel than it seems. For many socialists, they're okay with discomfort. But most aren't deprogrammed from using their brains for everything. That makes them in many senses more dangerous. They can't be manipulated via comfort in the same way a neoliberal can. They are blindly and unknowingly ableist, selfish and focused on sustaining themselves. They focus mostly on class solidarity as it pays the most dividends to collaborate. It presents an alternative means of reliable comfort: spreading the wealth evenly. "Mutual aid" means nothing if they have no value in the disabled as comfort-seekers. It's a band-aid not on the wellbeing of the crippled, but a band-aid on their image and psyche. Just as ODSP is a band-aid on the government's image of neglect and social murder of the crippled. If people used their hearts, they would realise how fucked we are if they went through with their plan. They would feel the pain we would. They would feel the worry we do. They would know how helpless we are. They would understand, in a sense, that they're a perpetrator and approaching genocidal, and try to make it stop. But they don't. But really, we silence our hearts because we're traumatised. For the comfortable, it's because they were beaten and programmed by a system to fear losing the reliable comfort they have, and fear having to face the consequences of how they are able to feel comfortable. They have no clue what life outside of their bubble is like. For the oppressed, it's because they have to do heartless things to keep themselves alive, and emotionally disconnect from abuse and exploitation. I was programmed to silence my heart as well. Not only towards others, but myself. While a neoliberal seeks comfort in terms of reliable sustanence (as all humans do, which is why neoliberalism is so effective in exploiting people) I seeked a basic human need I didn't have: socialisation. While on an intellectual level I agreed with socialism, I wasn't willing to criticise the ableist structures that propped it up, because that would disrupt feeling neighbourly and connected. It would ruin the warm and fuzzy feeling of solidarity and unity my brain wanted. My brain muted my heart's conviction. It muted its fighting spirit. It seeked rewards that pleasures the brain, even if it was hurting me. I feared what it would be like without it. Remember that post about trauma? See some reoccuring themes? This screenshot might seem benign or silly, but it's a testament to how damaged and traumatised myself and others are. Really, socialism and anarchism isn't a complete answer to the world's ills. It's only a part of the solution. Mutual aid means nothing if people are programmed to be unwilling to help anyone but themselves. Socialism means nothing if we turn against each other whenever things get rough as we learned works in a neoliberal society. Communism means nothing if we're programmed to see it as a reward for those who were productive rather than a common good that the crippled are worthy of experiencing too. Abolishing landlords means nothing if we keep our "fuck you, have mine" attitude and refuse to help others get shelter. Fighting for socialism as a means to reach equality means nothing if the working class collectively decides to pay women less. It's amazing how deeply ingrained neoliberalism and associated brainworms are and how at odds it is with human nature. How it makes us shut down our hard-wired human nature. https://clip.arachnid.town/media/87d068e4f5951c0d0f2b67a2303f46e1b32177ee3172e8b79002b81f7015280f.jpg npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I'm proud of that post I made the other day because it was a rare post that was straight from the heart. I didn't have some neutrality chaser before and after, and I didn't care about being right or perfect. I didn't filter myself at all. I wasn't afraid of doing it. I want to do more of that. I think maybe I can have a healthy relationship with this account if I do that. The words I'd speak could scare away the people who have ruined this place for me. It's not the meta's truth that has hold of my head. It's not the toxic consciousness of the network's truth. It's not some manipulator's orbiters' truth. It's mine. And mine alone. They can't take that away from me anymore. They don't have anything to hold over me. Even if they did, I can just walk away and find something new. My truth comes from my heart. For a long time it came from my brain, but I was merely programmed that way. That was a defense mechanism to keep me safe from the pain it experienced. The heart is hardware, but the brain is software, so the latter can be easily manipulated. If people want to reach my truth, they need to go through my heart first. I'm already posting for myself. I've been posting privately to a small, mostly quiet audience for a while now. I'd just need to scale what I've been doing well. I'll think about it, but it would imply some major changes. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb I didn't know until this year that pizza toppings going under the cheese was abnormal and weird. I got into an argument with someone about it and it turns out it's just the style of pizza here. npub1pwyws4a4d5hl83tetks32rz3qhw7wu8fdahln73cw3jf3s0690dszxya8k webb Migration is cancelled for the time being, I was expecting to recieve my unemployment today (which would let me rent the new servers and migrate them without being forced to pay for January) but they changed the payment date last second for people outside Toronto to the 29th. I expect to get it done next month.