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Last Notes npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen this does * npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen acting normal is no fun. the facial expressions are too predictable. π€β¨ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i agree with this. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π i want rain so bad... maybe at the end of the week., but we're still sitting pretty from nightly storms in june. just everywhere around us is suffering, so we deal with the smoke. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i don't disagree with muting. just liberally. have no opinion in this particular mute, just feel it ought to be said. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i disagree with muting liberally. that's how you lose discussion. mute with discretion. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen woooof... that's something npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love a rowing machine... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen πβ€οΈ good luck out there. i'm excited on your behalf. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it is wild... truly the first time i have real doubt... better advice for those that lost would have been invest in the s&p 500 π« ? buy the etf... like. fuck. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen at this point, i think i would launch it backwards over my head π an embarrassing number of years out of practice... babies... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love kettlebell swings. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i will be shocked if he remains. that would be the thing that turns me from naive to cynical, beave π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen one of my favorite npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen want. and very excited for pictures β¨π°π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i define happiness as a somatic experience. my heart opens. my body settles or buzzes or both. my skin glitters if i concentrate on the experience of happiness... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen thinking you deserve trust is an interesting paradigm to call into question... i would agree that to be nvk's folly. i have great issues trusting people. why this situation lands all the shittier. sounds like we differ on our who. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i do not see what leverage he gains. most of that work is thankless. but the point of a board is that no one person holds the power. if nvk is removed, i will be satisfied. again, holding people as heroic and infallible has been the problem in this narrative. especially someone as abrasive as nvk. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i would not camp gigi with nvk. but i understand single points of failure and faith as a problem. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it has to be coming... i think that org is 95% gigi and he's had a time of it lately... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen what? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen phenomenal show. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen thank you. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i find identifying with things distasteful. it has forever made me uncomfortable. i have spent many hours throughout my life considering what labels i claim spirit star gazer mother reflector human being there are many i have held for a time only to let go storyteller. artist. teacher. editor. amateur astrologer. witness. for years bitcoiner was on my list. at conferences when asked what i do, i would answer, i'm a bitcoiner. even when i had jobs in the space - i thought..; BITCOINER is so much more important. it encapsulated freedom of thought, of movement, of narrative. rebellion with a purpose. an organized schema in the face of chaos. and even though i dropped it off the list years ago, today it feels present. today i feel the idealism of those days. the hope. the shimmer. the crowd. the commuity. the faith. i hear the party lines echoing ; don't trust, verify. stay humble, stack sats. be your own bank. hits differently. much of life is a dice roll, but this is a meaning i had not considered. today i am lost wondering about those days of identity. βbitcoinerβ i wonder what in that structure might have helped to lead to this outcome... donβt trust, verify. but... we all had faith. who of us read the tea leaves? the whole narrative around this possibility was that you were protected if you followed these steps. when in actuality, you werenβt. you super were not. the bravado... i am not a public figure. i am not one to push bitcoin on others. i had one friend i reached out to last night as the sky was falling. and still - ... i feel culpable. i feel captured. i feel the narrative won out over the values. i was not exposed, but. my idealism has crashed. my hope for the future of bitcoin is shaken at least and shattered at worst. the deeper i look, the harder it is... be your own bank stack sats because one day they will come to mean something one day they will be real savings and you can sweep them off the exchange and put them into cold storage where they will be safe and you can protect them unless you canβt through little fault of your own... be your own bank. be sovereign. roll the dice. no, but actually - roll the dice. fuck. today i am broken. and i am sorry. and i do not feel like a bitcoiner. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen contemplating the coldcard vulnerability and hack --- it is simply devastating. every new cycle of thought around it brings a different disappointment. but tonight my thoughts are with everyone who lost savings...; i wish there were words to wrap you up and absorb some of the hurt you must have... i am so sorry. i love you. & i am thinking of you. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i'm envious... mine died in a late frost. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good morning! beautiful nasturtium. and everything β¨π©·βοΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen we just got a french bakery in town... it brings me enormous joy. the pastries are very, very good. she ships her flour in from france. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen "mama see?" npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good morning and good luck out there npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen wow... i think mozz, but would need to contemplate the loss of extra sharp cheddar... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen gm β€οΈβ¨ love debussy in the evenings. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen really lovely and thoughtful π«Ά npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i am much in love with husband after ten years together. as is he. we remind ourselves this is rad and unique., but it definitely exists. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen we have a rule: "you can always knock on papa's office door." it is really sweet. 95% of the time, he gets a hug. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it takes some time..., but it becomes sweet. if always a loss. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen someone hurt him π«π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i guess i should have but i did not realize there was a pro flock contingency... i recently learned there is a pro tsa lot... so... i should have... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i vaguely remember it.. maybe a few episodes?... remember no opinion on it... too young. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen not unless it is their usual way. if it is selective, i don't mind. if it is every time they reply, it's a bit odd. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen malcolm in the middle. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen is yummy. can confirm. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen that's lovely npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i started this post with good morning, i love you. then the day went wild, i never finished it, and now i say, good night, sweet dreams. my son asked about my mom today: who's belly was i in?... i told him gramma angie. you didn't get to meet her. why i didn't get to meet her? she died before you were born. we went back and forth about life and death and illness... cancer, specifically. it was really beautiful...; i am amazed by his sweet thought processes. he's so young... we ended on how i see her in hawks and eagles... birds of prey... she loved to fly.. probably her favorite thing. followed by her love of gardening.. she had an out of this world flower garden. we went out to our garden to plant the last seedlings and move some hoses around before our weekend road trip. right at the entrance was an owl's feather. "gramma angie!" ... i think as of today all feathers to him will be my mom... pretty special... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen my version is shrug, smile, + "okay!." npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen woof... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good luck out there. will miss you. π«Ά npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen you get the beneficence of jupiter with your venus. π«Ά npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen woah!. mine is conjunct! npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen no, but messed up that we all see it could be. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love their relationship so much πβ€οΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ugh retire npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ghey npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen a strange turn of events for a flat lady. i suddenly understood why sports bras existed. i did not wear one, but i got it. my first pregnancy i told a friend i got a boob job π because they grew before my belly. ah. forever one of my favorite moments. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i am just going to be pregnant or breast feeding until i hit menopause. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen leave the cities. they are the most mentally deranged. #nevent1qβ¦y4fq npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it has taken me awhile to get used to... and to see it as a blessing. that we have found them, can afford the help through the early ages, and not get hung up on the mediocrity of our born family system. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen for us it is building the community. our families are rather useless, which is unfortunate, but rather normal for the boomers of our hometown. we find ourselves paying for family more than historically would be true., but we are so value aligned with our people... it is slow work, but better for all of us in the long run. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it is my only, but i have always abhorred social media... it took me awhile to be convinced to try it. i am kind of amazed at how much i enjoy it. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i feel more human. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ahhh, this brought tears to my eyes. π©· thank you for your wise words. what a lovely friendship... i will post a picture of soup when she materializes. it will be in no small part a result of nostr's response to her theoretical existence. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen so sorry π’π©·π« npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ooh i like how it calls itself poetry. that is sweet. i learned about human design maybe six years ago. i am a reflector. i remember reading about it and feeling incredibly relieved that it was not all in my head and i was not broken πβ¨. i did not start closely looking at it until last year. reflector, 3/5. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen is this different human design? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen eat slowly. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen mmm... good for you. perhaps i will find one tomorrow. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen this is how i have always believed your cat finds you, but i am reading the universe as telling me we need to put ourselves in the right place at the right time. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ππ next year... cukes next year. it is a learning curve. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen the tomatoes i have in containers on my porch look amazing... it is so disheartening π i want my garden to be winning. definitely a struggle year for the in-ground, but just so, so glad to have it started. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen uh oh i hadn't considered this... i just thought warm and cuddly. but also opens the door for two kitties...... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i prefer "community building", ππ but to each his own. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it is! my son picked the name out months ago and we can't drop it. just too good... been on that manifestation grind. apparently i needed a practical reason... likely the husband convincing. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen lovely. β¨βοΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen one of my favorite trends on nostr is the beautiful, simple sharing of a day in the life... i am pretty personally private, but i will try it out today. good morning, yummy coffee. i started a garden this year. last year we moved and had a baby, so i am really excited it exists now. it has been so much wonderful work... this morning i will go out and see if my tomatoes have taken off yet. the ground squirrels ate my cucumber plants... just. tore them from the ground. roots and all. it may be time for a cat... i will probably wait until camping season is over before committing to a kitten. but my husband is warming up to the idea. or my son and i are just breaking him down. will let you know at the end of summer... we would name it soup. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love my rowing machine. gm and good luck out there. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen feel this. ugh and the noises. ππβ€οΈβ€οΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i am doing just fine, thank you. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen not very often. i like f1 and my son watches movies on it, so maybe once a week? we're above average with the world cup right now. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen a pretty face and a proven puppet. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ours exists, but is not the center piece of our home. it is hidden. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen what a world... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen πβ€οΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i've always thought a lot about spaces and how they should support the purpose of the room. i like this as an additional consideration. like easter eggs, but they feel natural. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen this is a neat concept npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i put it off for awhile... to recreate my playlists will be a bitch and to lose the easy stream, but the app was getting so dodgy... i finally lost it and got myself nice speakers and hard wire them to my computer. loving the quality upgrade even if my selection is limited. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen fun crazy helps raise interesting children. alternatively their rebellious phase would be good and responsible, so win win? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen did this last week. felt gooooood. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen and the vanilla extract. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen intriguing concept. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen practical obsession, this one. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i have gotten much more comfortable with spiders. i like them for the most part, but here they are non lethal and not the size of my hand... so. smaller steps necessary. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen your attention to detail is rad npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen these pictures make me feel like such a wuss. i am terrified. i live in the north where the killer animals are the big ones. i prefer it. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen the mormons always make it into the scifi future... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love an ugly baby. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good. someone so retarded should be removed from the gene pool. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i haven't finished it because i have children and no couch potato time, but i've really enjoyed the studio. to cover some other genres and time spans some favorites are bojack horseman, community, travelers...