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Last Notes npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good morning and good luck out there npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen really lovely and thoughtful π«Ά npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it takes some time..., but it becomes sweet. if always a loss. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen malcolm in the middle. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i started this post with good morning, i love you. then the day went wild, i never finished it, and now i say, good night, sweet dreams. my son asked about my mom today: who's belly was i in?... i told him gramma angie. you didn't get to meet her. why i didn't get to meet her? she died before you were born. we went back and forth about life and death and illness... cancer, specifically. it was really beautiful...; i am amazed by his sweet thought processes. he's so young... we ended on how i see her in hawks and eagles... birds of prey... she loved to fly.. probably her favorite thing. followed by her love of gardening.. she had an out of this world flower garden. we went out to our garden to plant the last seedlings and move some hoses around before our weekend road trip. right at the entrance was an owl's feather. "gramma angie!" ... i think as of today all feathers to him will be my mom... pretty special... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen my version is shrug, smile, + "okay!." npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen you get the beneficence of jupiter with your venus. π«Ά npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen woah!. mine is conjunct! npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen no, but messed up that we all see it could be. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love their relationship so much πβ€οΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen a strange turn of events for a flat lady. i suddenly understood why sports bras existed. i did not wear one, but i got it. my first pregnancy i told a friend i got a boob job π because they grew before my belly. ah. forever one of my favorite moments. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i am just going to be pregnant or breast feeding until i hit menopause. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen leave the cities. they are the most mentally deranged. #nevent1qβ¦y4fq npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen for us it is building the community. our families are rather useless, which is unfortunate, but rather normal for the boomers of our hometown. we find ourselves paying for family more than historically would be true., but we are so value aligned with our people... it is slow work, but better for all of us in the long run. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it is my only, but i have always abhorred social media... it took me awhile to be convinced to try it. i am kind of amazed at how much i enjoy it. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen so sorry π’π©·π« npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ooh i like how it calls itself poetry. that is sweet. i learned about human design maybe six years ago. i am a reflector. i remember reading about it and feeling incredibly relieved that it was not all in my head and i was not broken πβ¨. i did not start closely looking at it until last year. reflector, 3/5. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen is this different human design? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen ππ next year... cukes next year. it is a learning curve. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen uh oh i hadn't considered this... i just thought warm and cuddly. but also opens the door for two kitties...... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i prefer "community building", ππ but to each his own. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it is! my son picked the name out months ago and we can't drop it. just too good... been on that manifestation grind. apparently i needed a practical reason... likely the husband convincing. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen one of my favorite trends on nostr is the beautiful, simple sharing of a day in the life... i am pretty personally private, but i will try it out today. good morning, yummy coffee. i started a garden this year. last year we moved and had a baby, so i am really excited it exists now. it has been so much wonderful work... this morning i will go out and see if my tomatoes have taken off yet. the ground squirrels ate my cucumber plants... just. tore them from the ground. roots and all. it may be time for a cat... i will probably wait until camping season is over before committing to a kitten. but my husband is warming up to the idea. or my son and i are just breaking him down. will let you know at the end of summer... we would name it soup. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen feel this. ugh and the noises. ππβ€οΈβ€οΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i've always thought a lot about spaces and how they should support the purpose of the room. i like this as an additional consideration. like easter eggs, but they feel natural. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen this is a neat concept npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i put it off for awhile... to recreate my playlists will be a bitch and to lose the easy stream, but the app was getting so dodgy... i finally lost it and got myself nice speakers and hard wire them to my computer. loving the quality upgrade even if my selection is limited. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen fun crazy helps raise interesting children. alternatively their rebellious phase would be good and responsible, so win win? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen did this last week. felt gooooood. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen practical obsession, this one. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i have gotten much more comfortable with spiders. i like them for the most part, but here they are non lethal and not the size of my hand... so. smaller steps necessary. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen your attention to detail is rad npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen these pictures make me feel like such a wuss. i am terrified. i live in the north where the killer animals are the big ones. i prefer it. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen the mormons always make it into the scifi future... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i haven't finished it because i have children and no couch potato time, but i've really enjoyed the studio. to cover some other genres and time spans some favorites are bojack horseman, community, travelers... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i add handfuls of spinach to many things. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen but are surrounded by it. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen this and trogdor. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen life's too short to own shitty knives. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π€° npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen love love love love love. π₯° npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen what fun! npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen gm π«Ά npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen bad ass npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen lovely and fitting that father's day is the solstice. may you light up the sky of your children no matter the time of year. thank you for all you do and all you are, papa. β¨βοΈποΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen hooray! gm! npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i have never been more offended by you npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen πβ€οΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen reading this brings me joy. ππ©· good for you taking your need for change seriously and seeing it through in spectacular fashion. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen they look stupid. i hate everything about them. why is the ratio so wonked? npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen they tried to convince me to schedule a c section with my second because my first was so big and labor was so long. i said gfy and had him on the couch at home hardly an hour after the midwife arrived. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen this goes with picking the proper partner in parenting. in my house we are both bitcoiners. my husband is top among fathers and still seeking to improve. π©·β¨ #nevent1qβ¦0vc9 npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen my older son had a month long sleep regression. it was hard. and one day it stopped. i assumed - incorrectly - this would be the same for our second. babe two had a sleep regression and a cold and another cold and a big bout of teething... the poor sleep did not stop. for. months. co-sleeping, co-regulating, co-existence... there was no solution without intervention. a friend he loves very much came and spent two nights with him to break him of his overnight feedings. i slept by myself and my husband took the toddler. i felt alive again. sleep is everything... and two nights was enough. after another month, we moved from my room to his. we took my body pillow and his bunny with us. slowly, slowly, slowly i would leave him to sleep for more time. slowly we trained him to fall back asleep without needing intervention. slowly he started sleeping better without the need of intervention. he felt secure enough in our connection to know that it remained despite the sleep situation changing. the key is we both sleep better now. sleep is the most important part. are you sleeping well enough? is the babe sleeping well enough? is it effecting the rest of the family? these questions matter more than βwe do thisβ or βwe do not do thisβ or βthis is the wayβ. AND. every babe is different. as i am sure we will see with number three. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen the hospital narrative is so scary. my first was a real hard labor at a hospital birthing center... meant to be more naturally inclined... i had him without drugs, but... traumatically. at the first appointment for my second, the ob told me she would not let me do a birth center birth again. it had to be in a hospital room. and she preferred a scheduled c-section. all this - the. first. appointment... meant to be celebrating and she was fear mongering. i said, fuck you and i found a midwife who is simply.. everything to me. had baby two happily and easily on our living room couch. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen π€ i am all about as few words as possible npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen people are so down on motherhood. the culturally acceptable conversation pre-natally is offensive. i'm with you on baby count. lfg π©·β¨ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen OMG WAT npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen yes... elite mom culture is very damaging and alienating. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen much of this is baby specific, in my opinion. a lot of the rest of it is parent specific. then circumstance... there's not one path. i think authenticity is the trait that matters most in parenting. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it's really hard to be a new mom π« no one thing makes it a failure. your awareness sounds like you are great at it. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen teaching babies to sleep is incredibly important and valuable. we went the route of a floor bed after co-sleeping, got a double mattress so we could comfortably train - ended up working really well. this list has brought good conversation and healthy push back. i find that valuable. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen reminds me of a story i heard in colorado of a "dry" weed county. someone complained to the sheriff, so he went up in a helicopter to scope the situation. there were so many "illegal" grows, he decided to do nothing about it; to him it was clear his constituents had made their choice. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen implied in "the" person rather than "a" person. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen the hardest part of having children is finding the person to do it with. everything else is also really hard, but that's the hardest part. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i love this. gm. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen one of mine wouldn't fall asleep until you put the swaddle on him and he kicked his way out π truly specific and incredible npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i answered the top, but thinking about it, i think the luxuries scale... it can be perspective.; a really top cappuccino, a glass of wine with lunch, a trip to the gym with a sauna, a house plant... it's important to feel deserving of niceties. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen sometimes sleep training is necessary, but never cry it out. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen to me this was baby specific. baby led swaddling. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it was my unlock. it released the burden of revisiting, too - that i SHOULD. reread where i was a year ago... just doesn't ring true anymore. anything really lovely or moving or important, i copy out to a different document and delete everything else. i just keep my daily word count. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen πβ€οΈ love that for you. while that sounds more fun, i must admit to my normal being i. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen curiosity is sort of the base of it all... i have not put self exploration into that frame before. as i try to consider what words i would have used before right now... drive, inherent motivation, change orientation... they lack the color offered by curiosity. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen it' is easy to start, it is hard to do more than three days in a row?... i think figuring out what's maintainable. weekly? using prompts? discarding the words... npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i find it difficult to maintain relationship with people who do not actively seek to improve. i have found it difficult to maintain relationship with most people. π¬ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i want as many children as possible. it is hard. but it is everything. written from morning cuddles. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen good night. xx sweet dreams. https://blossom.primal.net/2bbd42b142742ab39838959fb2b7e346eca4d46769c88bdbc551cab64241d69c.jpg npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen i have perfected my strawberry rhubarb pie π₯² npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen my dad and i are similar at the core of this. we do not have what i would consider ambition in a worldly sense. my mom was the opposite: she was extremely driven and which made her very successful in the business world. growing up i tried to be what my mom and what society wanted of me; i was basically a straight a student and incredibly competitive in sports. my sisters rebelled and were not traditionally successful in school or competitions. to me, this was the childhood dynamic of how to handle family expectations playing out. in adulthood, i have come back to my center and realized that that stuff just does not appeal to me.. i have children and i have a garden and i have a home... βdrivenβ is not my word. i definitely burnt out in childhood. i saw that the route i was running was not fulfilling. the flame was artificial to me - from borrowed fuel... both my sisters are now traditionally successful - good jobs, continue to be promoted through the ranks, and take great pride in it... for one it is clear this is completely natural. this is her living her core out in adulthood. she likes what she does, she is good at what she does, and she wants to be the best. in the other, it is not so clear... is it learned and she is now trying to gain some mom points in adulthood? is it necessitated by lifestyle wants and the needs of existence? is this her natural state?... i think the core burns for what brings it purpose and for me - that is not drive or ambition... it is a quiet hearth in the center of my home... but based on my family, i see it as a blend of conditioning, genetics, and circumstance. there was a timeline where i continued to deny my core - my genetics - and fought through to be SUCCESFUL. and i believe that people do that, too. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen my take is it's a combination of genetics, childhood, and finding the thing that lights you up. my natural flame burns low and slow. it does not measure well in the normie world of success metrics. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen gm π€β€οΈ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen feel this so much. π«Άβ¨ npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen yes and i am the crazy person who believes it is in the skies. many such quantum leap cases of people evolution in my world. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen happy birthday π«Άβ¨π npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen great movie... one of my favorite. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen can speak to none of the rest of it, but shiva as destroyer is a telling that lacks. the full picture could still follow her narrative as it is destruction in the face of creation; except that it is not evil., it is simply indifferent.. as the shining sun. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen bitcoin is for enemies unless they use it in a way that insults my sensitive nature. npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen nah that is why it's a board npub1k647j89337vk6wstenvtjlev94g2nf8cqccwdr5gsx558jujwzfqfqnekl helen finding today people have a lot of opinions about other people's money and i thought the whole point of bitcoin was gfy? 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