gil

extraordinarily, charitably naive

any pronoun, with love

[pirate possum by Lily Seika Jones / ig: rivuletpaper]

[banner photograph of the Namib Desert watering hole livestream at 3:21 a.m. local time shared by @ elenaso_]

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2024-08-01 10:42:06

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2024-08-01 06:03:59

--. --- --- -.. -. .. --. .... - / -. --- ... - .-.

2024-08-01 04:49:54

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i feel very very strange about august
what that even means tho,
i cannot see to say.

2024-08-01 04:48:43

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i kinda start to feel like unwell when im not being creative cos everything starts to compress but i dont feel comfortable writing here, at this time, & why is largely a mystery to me & i dont feel comfortable writing on twitter either & so, idk.
by mystery i mean: it isnt a principle, posture, or determination as much as the weather

2024-08-01 04:39:44

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ok, maybe slightly more than a little but only slightly.

2024-08-01 04:38:34

well, things are so dire i have not one but two costume pearl necklaces pinned to my head.
it is helping a little.

2024-07-31 16:45:33

https://david-bollier.simplecast.com/episodes/safouan-azouzi-lessons-of-desert-oases-for-eco-resilient-transformation

2024-07-31 16:42:40

https://david-bollier.simplecast.com/episodes/safouan-azouzi-lessons-of-desert-oases-for-eco-resilient-transformation

2024-07-30 20:15:39

p o n d e r i n g https://image.nostr.build/7ad08609a4ce374c361068b66bee677c6a3bdb7d4711d734b7ce287d76f030e6.jpg

2024-07-30 01:34:06

https://youtu.be/gyIETqPFrsU #note1cej…acq5

2024-07-29 19:32:47

https://youtu.be/KBse9Y6zucs

2024-07-29 14:20:28

27 july 2024 | 7:57 pm eastern
untouched [unedited/uncropped, the haze is cos the cracked camera glass, i think, i removed the rest of it but my finger (in a tshirt) couldnt quite clean it off or it just isnt meant to function that way even if it is clean idk.] https://image.nostr.build/5151917f58f2c5d0e88589bc6cf43ebd430b1b6d6b4ebbd222675035f72a00a4.jpg

2024-07-27 16:06:45

https://image.nostr.build/dc6ab82c863083452b859265a585a3503173974043619e9a2aee5c2f57123411.jpg

2024-07-27 16:04:42

https://image.nostr.build/4c6bc348b187d4b7e65752aa72560942b55a97e7e00806891eefafcad8501a65.jpg

2024-07-27 01:54:57

https://image.nostr.build/20b7c057130ac70b5cc3fc4d7fbd0405ba0628525d1b70e950839a59fef8c4ce.jpg

2024-07-27 00:46:50

https://image.nostr.build/e15a561a130d98ca7d58173cd05df7df36d17e8fa2a9e25ae3e2267f6bbf6042.jpg

2024-07-26 14:52:10

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💜🫂

2024-07-26 14:43:27

couldn't begin to say why it's so ticklish but the qt 'Ridicule ce sabotage !' has me undone 😭

2024-07-26 02:42:33

🦉 https://image.nostr.build/eaeb408dc5720e778d1d60fbb9d03d3d5b95fe3c3bf6da1d2e8cb6349d4988ae.jpg

2024-07-25 22:49:44

https://youtu.be/sjco86ekIlQ

2024-07-25 21:06:26

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update: disappeared! gone! presumably flew off! ☺️

2024-07-25 19:42:57

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they remain alert tho, i just tried to approach w/ my finger & they sideshuffled

2024-07-25 19:41:05

update: they havent moved during the whole time i was making macaroni
granted: i did place them in a damp nest of lamb's ear (i wet the leaves incase they were thirsty) but since it has been a long time im starting to think this is less about the comfort of this temporary abode & more about the damage

2024-07-25 19:02:00

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yes, i am well aware the spider has to eat, too
but not today.
today there was interference.
as i already said: sorry.

2024-07-25 18:51:33

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sorry i cant wash my hands at the kitchen sink & look up & see a bug giving up thru the window cos all tangled & not do something about it.

2024-07-25 18:49:58

i liberated a flying bug from a spider's web cos i simply wasnt having it.

2024-07-25 01:10:20

dont have words to even gesture towards the vaguest shape of anything else
cried a lot today idk
a total horror story was a brief respite
the compartmentalization
wont hold forever cos that's not what compartments are made to do
the lancet said 186,000+ & that's conservative & even that isnt stabilizing as a fact of the matter

2024-07-25 01:02:55

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^ the one above & this one are the two i didnt share this morning that i had to go track down to see again
https://youtube.com/shorts/48WWIwC63lU

2024-07-25 00:59:31

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true love is someone holding an invisible microphone for you
https://youtube.com/shorts/ZSViOoZLUrU

2024-07-25 00:53:53

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i love this 😭

2024-07-24 23:59:16

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im very sorry she didnt get to be a ballerina
i very much hope actual serendipity intervenes on her behalf before she is thru

2024-07-24 23:53:09

as someone who experienced serendipity on a train, my mouth fell open reading this
the rest, naturally, is a horror story https://image.nostr.build/2e02a6d51cc000645a541d7824aac4648f872835b8849af9fb8ec6422ea22dcc.jpg

2024-07-24 14:35:45

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like the most best good magic medicine. if i think about it too much i get dizzy cos overwhelming
https://youtube.com/shorts/-LmyELBFAh0

2024-07-24 14:21:15

was lucky enough to wake up w/ yemi's tomorrow in my ears & the only thing putting a smile on my face is watching everyone dance to it in reels
https://youtube.com/shorts/Y2B2Su8ZEwU

2024-07-24 04:47:09

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actually, now that im putting this into words, i do have a friend who can accompany me who is very aggressively single minded & fast when given a task like if i ask for assistance in this way i think she would be really pleased to do this for me.

2024-07-24 04:40:08

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maybe sunglasses. maybe a blindfold & a seeing eye dog. maybe teleportation. i dont know. the journey is too far.

2024-07-24 04:38:47

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like i get too fucked up by the Temple of Dendur & that's right at the beginning cos how do you walk by stuff but then i dont have the stamina like my bandwidth cant do it

2024-07-24 04:37:08

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to elaborate further, i, in my whole life, have never been to The Costume Institute, not even one time cos i literally can't make it

2024-07-24 04:31:42

ya know the feeling of when you look at too much artwork in a day so you feel fucking insane
not quite that bad cos i wasnt in public but i did look at 1200+ images that the website indexed under angel & then if there was even the smallest chance like maybe i went thru the artist's entire body of work on that website & so
it was a lot

2024-07-24 04:27:34

Roseate Spoonbills by Abbott Handerson Thayer, c. 1909 https://image.nostr.build/2709b18c9c80cd4074b95d92b22703ba07d81a2d190af4abe8f1282ecc92921b.jpg #note16xj…yqe7

2024-07-24 04:25:39

The Vision, Legend of the 14th Century
by Luc-Olivier Merson, c. 1872 https://image.nostr.build/bb3b4d6078fd9a9754df5f20d1457752d2644f022f726e5b7158a7f44e8cb0c2.jpg

2024-07-24 04:21:55

The Sacred Heart of Jesus by Józef Mehoffer, c. 1911 https://image.nostr.build/ea6297d4e178af039cbc3490d876c0a01428d46bee097bc0e7101bcf5d78197f.jpg

2024-07-24 03:41:21

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Blue Jays in Winter, c. 1909
& Frog, c. 1915
much closer to angels, to me, than his paintings titled angels https://image.nostr.build/23bbc184a222bbbb39bbf3130e0813041aaa892f5e9ff9700a4eb7284d173bfa.jpg https://image.nostr.build/774a05950e71ab45ef2eee657a8f25dae12fa00d4c31d345bac37ffa50ba6fd6.jpg

2024-07-24 03:36:46

https://image.nostr.build/842373530aa1393923db26a45b5b5c5117249e42114cc1c1e81030af4b4521fa.jpg

2024-07-24 03:01:38

Male Wood Duck in a Forest Pool by Abbott Handerson Thayer, c. 1909
& Peacock in the Woods, c. 1907 https://image.nostr.build/7fcb48dab9928ee513ef87551d9cf62ffdc8cdb2edf7651327d5c212c2e79191.jpg https://image.nostr.build/d4237739864139566be10ca548abfd1081d96a42cda911c095cda47a226de89d.jpg

2024-07-24 02:14:13

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i hate most of her work but this is cool

2024-07-24 02:13:37

Le Devenir De La Liberté by Toyen, c. 1946 https://image.nostr.build/4b13ff767cc2a2f2523a0cb7c4ee2596197a34f594f3cbae2fd44d7681a4e1db.jpg

2024-07-24 01:55:29

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i appreciate that he renders angels with rainbow colored wings but they still suck
however, a lot of his paintings that are not on the subject of angels are extraordinary

2024-07-24 01:54:18

Blind Veit Stoss with granddaughter by Jan Matejko, c. 1865 https://image.nostr.build/85e2cce651dc1a8403ad1ae8b6f530e919f0ec5c7b3eb56063fcaa0c76b70cfe.jpg

2024-07-24 01:29:48

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Penelope is woken by Euryclea, c. 1772 https://image.nostr.build/a573a230f5d8c883cdb65d7879854abaf7244dbd77683bf601640c5220d272e0.jpg

2024-07-23 18:01:24

Hector Taking Leave of Andromache by Maria Anna Angelica Katharina Kauffman, c. 1768 https://image.nostr.build/7b97977d7a12d2e3b94afaa96df27b24eee05c371ede355601bf162d351f69fb.jpg

2024-07-23 16:43:48

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my broader conclusion at this moment in time, again, taking into account im under the weather: human beings have created a lot of pretty un-artfully rendered paintings thru the ages
on balance of scales im incredibly unimpressed, however, i did just look at a whole lot outside of their context & local temporal world vibe

2024-07-23 16:37:03

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so, that's the backstory
now, re: this painting
1. i've never seen a dragon like this & im into it
2. i dont know this story so i just went to the skim the plot & it sounds both incredible & so bonkers i snorted, which, again, in the context of 580 suckass angel paintings, is meaningful

2024-07-23 16:34:33

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sure, im still under the weather, yea of course on my phone which is maybe a tall order but honestly, is it

2024-07-23 16:33:48

context: ive looked at 580 paintings involving angels this morning & they all suck #note1ejk…mmzq

2024-07-23 16:31:02

Angelika, guarded by a dragon (Angelica and Ruggiero) by Arnold Böcklin, c. 1872 https://image.nostr.build/7f876de27d0d9c6f87633e7caace8492266c6ac99077aab63141b84d7c1ee18a.jpg

2024-07-23 05:42:51

seven minutes in & i already feel so much better inside my very own face about human beings so that's why im sharing here
prolly gonna fall asleep listening to this cos last night when i tried praying it suddenly became way too serious & got really long cos i didnt want to leave anyone out on the entire earth so that took awhile
https://youtu.be/pUa_LzZk7PI

2024-07-23 04:25:27

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i wonder if i'd have a vague foreboding sense that the future was gonna suck
or maybe id experience it as gleeful
like found dead in my bed w/ a smile like some part of me knew it was so clutch to die before 1844

2024-07-23 04:22:52

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i am not saying this in actuality
made promises
reincarnation not about me
etc
etc
i mean in a strictly petty way
like so selfishly just-for-me
like a one off life like icecream
it would sooooooo be pre-Nietzsche

2024-07-23 04:15:38

you know how people can be single issue voters?
i am so sure i am not the only one looking to reincarnate pre-Nietzsche
like just a prohibition on the entirety of the 1800s for good measure. absolute refusal to live downstream of his existence.

2024-07-23 04:07:40

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i
really
hate
this
man

2024-07-23 04:05:39

“What doesn't kill you, makes me stronger” is an aphorism that originated in 1888 from German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche.
ohhh not this motherfucker #note1mvw…jp6c

2024-07-23 02:37:43

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the insidious tyranny of resiliency is definitely coming from a human being who was absolutely fucked & from europe

2024-07-23 02:36:03

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more helpful but still not what im looking for cos i feel like this is resting in something else & im not well versed enough in modern traditions of thought & people like eric fromm to even say like 'oh that's some fromm shit' but i know it's someone's shit

2024-07-23 02:17:30

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let's see what this shit is about https://www.flinders.edu.au/content/dam/documents/research/torrens-resilience-institute/resilience-origins-and-utility.pdf

2024-07-23 02:16:40

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well.. that was nauseating test subject shit

2024-07-23 02:11:54

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like, first of all, where is any of this even coming from cos a person isnt a bow
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2956753/

2024-07-23 02:07:38

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if resiliency is predicated on the notion of elasticity what happens if the bowstring snaps

2024-07-23 01:43:34

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like where is the film where the protagonist is like: honestly? no.

2024-07-23 01:42:47

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all that said, as in, poor time to make proposals & yet, proposal anyway:
where are the stories about not resiliency?

2024-07-23 01:41:18

granted, this is my third day under the weather (i dont think it is covid but who the fuck knows)
granted, i probably got sick at my grandma's interment funeral memorial hangout last week cos a bunch of people i didnt know from all around this country were hugging & kissing me & saying things like: i havent seen you in 25 years
& granted, my friend is back in the hospital
which is a long way of saying:
things could be better from a mood standpoint
so im saying that upfront re: bias

2024-07-22 17:48:10

remember that time i tried low effort flirting thru innuendo with a product that, if purchased, exposes you to chemicals including Bisphenol A (BPA), which is known to the State of California to cause birth defects or other reproductive harm.

2024-07-22 17:22:59

https://www.fivebelow.com/products/bling-power-bank-3600mah?variant=9135288

2024-07-22 04:24:59

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i can tell this is true from his face. 💜🫂🐶

2024-07-22 00:40:28

one day. https://image.nostr.build/f0d7531e41c3502a14ae71c14b46971317c1f72883dc0416965d187333227370.jpg

2024-07-22 00:19:41

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w i s t f u l
have such a related currently incomplete sidequest

2024-07-22 00:17:30

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no. well.. ok maybe twice like an encore so for a brief horrifying moment anyone tuning in wondered if it would play all afternoon but nah just twice.

2024-07-22 00:12:04

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sup

2024-07-21 23:24:03

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& that's not even touching the aesthetics of her being quarantined in isolation in some futuristic dystopian prison building but it's ok cos she can somehow control the broadcast

2024-07-21 23:16:44

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like..
ok so im gonna be aggressively wrong
but fix it with these spins, those white pants, & some bedhead
what a recipe

2024-07-21 23:15:02

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truly dying at how unhinged it is to open a song with "i can read your mind"
like just fully delusional
& coupled with spinning in a computer chair?
truly 10/10

2024-07-21 23:08:25

if i had a pirate radio station for an afternoon id play this 🏴‍☠️
https://youtu.be/T6wbugWrfLU

2024-07-21 15:05:47

https://youtu.be/9R8VxUWcMzw

2024-07-21 13:18:18

https://image.nostr.build/7bfebe6daa279c301aa973441a3fbdd7cfe70681130b8571197fe10a1de5e79f.jpg

2024-07-21 12:26:11

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go get it is 3 words

2024-07-21 12:11:16

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to create a game of clowns
is to be one
which is fine, btw
it's ok

2024-07-21 05:02:14

https://image.nostr.build/4d85f182db57acd20df10e5a12f53a993f9187fff3a4e2a3ffabed772d7a248e.jpg

2024-07-21 03:01:43

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nah let's burn it all down.

2024-07-21 02:43:10

my kind of love song
https://youtu.be/VdZDVWX6K2Q

2024-07-21 02:34:59

https://youtu.be/OSEtk6eS5vk

2024-07-21 02:04:39

https://www.tomshardware.com/raspberry-pi/raspberry-pi-projects/one-of-the-first-home-computers-resurrected

2024-07-21 00:32:41

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not sure why damus(?) stripped the color out. the color was dark purple burgundy.

2024-07-21 00:08:42

https://image.nostr.build/caf6db214b573be9652510b6cda7c43a2dd6d3b79b4177882c14db93e458a86d.jpg

2024-07-20 20:48:56

https://youtu.be/IxnqrEBxmm4

2024-07-20 20:24:44

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nah, grundle i think

2024-07-20 17:12:55

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https://image.nostr.build/198b87f978bca3ed1ec1a72bba70c8fd29e5fb140395f5db3fec03b31d2f1f67.jpg

2024-07-20 17:00:28

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this needs a drawing cos it was intense hold on.

2024-07-20 16:59:47

flush af rn
whole bag of walnuts next to me
had a squirrel on the stairs.. didnt want to startle them .. tossed some in their general vicinity & one bounced off the wall right between their front paw hands like we coordinated it.
incredible.

2024-07-20 16:54:58

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is he saving the other hand for dessert

2024-07-20 16:53:30

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is that your final answer, vic?
like if you were staring god in the face.
a 3x typo.