I'm really sorry to hear that 🫂
I've not yet experienced the death of a parent, but I've lost more than a few close friends over the years. I know it's not really comparable, but the last one I had known for close to 30 years. Still feels fresh when I think about it. He literally saved my life once upon a time.
One of the things I try to keep in mind is that our limited time on this planet is part of what makes our lives so valuable. Having the privilege to witness the last chapters of someone's life and to see the completion of their story is a beautiful thing even though the pain is unbearable.
If you ever need to talk, my dms are open.