allthingsholistic on Nostr: Well done, honestly.. because it really is testing. I think I am the same, just once ...

Well done, honestly.. because it really is testing. I think I am the same, just once which I was able to vocalise to another family member. I immediately felt awful for getting stressed in the situation because it was probably much worse for her. It would be amazing to get inside her head for a short while, just to truly understand where she thinks she is, when she thinks it is, etc.
The repetitiveness and reassurance 🫠 well done for keeping your cool!
I completely understand what you are saying at the end - unfortunately, I was pushed into this situation, as such. Ultimately, it was my decision but I didn’t feel there was any choice in the matter considering I was staying up overnight waiting for ambulances in between shifts at work or staying up all night in A&E whilst she snored away! My Grandmother is most certainly not responsible and we did not have a close relationship beforehand. She basically disowned me, my mother and siblings, only speaking to my Aunt for about 8-9 years. Once she has passed, I will be so grateful for the effort I put in to ensure she was supported in a dignified way, and all the care I have provided, but honestly.. I will be so happy. The weight on my shoulders is incredible - I don’t do it for thanks, but I definitely don’t do it to be disrespected and under appreciated! Only December I was being shouted at and threatened to be reported for neglect and abuse….. all because I stated the fact I was always left her washing up to do after work/a day for myself when she was supposed to be there to ease the load 😬 families, eh!