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Last Notes npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic modest. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic corn snakes are like "YES BYE", ball pythons are "gawrsh" but also "BAM", indigo snakes are "FUCKING OR EATING LET'S GO", coachwhips are "MOVE MOVE MOVE", and blood pythons are rocks that breathe npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic rosy boas are either "henlo" or "i'll fucking end you" and not much between, which is why I solidly respect them as a species npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1k6v…hs98 terminated night access to Astotin Lake npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic so much gone by. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic crunching on sunflower seeds and I look up to see a female house sparrow sitting on my windowsill trying to peck through the screen. um ma'am these are my seeds npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic no fuckin' idea what this meeting is about, but fortunately it's with senior staff so i have a good opportunity to make an ass out of myself npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic she’s gone. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic not long, I think. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic having a friend come over today and I am terrified because I have never had one of those enter my home and I don't know how to act npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic question: how do you deal with being told your taste in decor is tacky (rightfully so, I expect)? npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic all done. artery was 99% blocked so stent went in. that was wildly painful npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic waiting is the hardest part. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I also love feather birds npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub190e…yxxn my response was "the file going TO them was 12345, and the file coming from them was 12345, so if you'd like to explain the discrepancy, go right the fuck ahead" (I paraphrased a bit there) npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic this is the best picture I have ever taken or will ever take in my whole life npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic sudden misfiring neuron led me to remember the smell of water on warm summer days with a crisp breeze in summer holidays. not appreciative of it, since I'll never get there again. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic one minute of squirrel npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic rarely does he enjoy the yard, but it’s a beautiful evening npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1qxm…0dmf you get used to it. plus I live very far from the ocean npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic thinking about what universal basic income at $1,000 would do for our household. I'd be able to pay housing/bills on my own; I wouldn't have to worry about a bad month. might even be able to add to savings instead of draining it. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I don't know how to convey "I don't want to ask you for this favour because it will cost me too much emotional currency and I cannot cope with your angry tone/words for three hours" npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1v6r…5cxc of course. why did I think otherwise npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I wonder when we'll get to the point where fundamentalist Christians refute the Bible because it doesn't reflect what they want to believe, sort of like they do with Trump - refuting all sources. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic "can you tolerate this dose?" you can't ask me that. I have lived with daily pain and fatigue since 2016. I have heard you all tell me nothing is wrong with me so many times, even as I am in too much pain to turn over in bed, when I fall so often that my Apple Watch notifies me about my walking steadiness - you can't ask me if I can tolerate the dose. it makes me more tired. I fall asleep standing up. I have trouble breathing. but yes, I can tolerate it, like everything else. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I like that as an adult, I can decide that Lucky Charms, tater tots, and a handful of cherries is an appropriate breakfast npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic does turning off white noise always make the room super deluxe extra silent? npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic it's a very minor typo, but I really love seeing "me" instead of "my", like "communication with me staff". arr matey. yer quarterlies are rising with the tide. best review that performance else I sends ye to walk the plank (of HR) npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1j2x…x78h I don't know this word! npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic it’s healing npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic what colour is this eye npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic adulthood is like, what if you still had the brain and emotions and experiences of younger you, but then also had to deal with some of the worst experiences available, and had to be responsible for them, and couldn't really show any outward signs of them npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic working on a roll of pictures taken on a windy day. I can actually hear my voice echoing. “just stay still” it pleads to a branch npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic edibles hitting a bit hard and fast tonight. that's cool, I guess npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1mpw…4h3u this is freaking amazing and I want it! (my dream car is a Smart car. tiny) npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1e30…3j42 Edmonton drivers scare the living daylights out of me! but yes I really need to get it done npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1e30…3j42 my dream is a hybrid van to drive around the continent in, but I can’t drive, so that’s kind of a thing npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic cuddling with Mr. Taco because the thunderstorm is coming up. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1fnc…z6cw ah… not really. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1e30…3j42 honestly I feel like hybrid is a great option for folks who do long distance (that's not all of us) - use electric for your trips to the grocery store; have a gas tank for the drive to Kelowna. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic this is adorable and I love it and it wouldn't even get me to Calgary, much less Jasper. I feel like electric vehicles are going to remain an urbanite's ideal until we develop battery technology that can go a bit longer than this (sadly, I don't think there's anything to be done about the fact that you'll be charging for 30 minutes minimum, versus fueling up in five minutes). npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic has anyone. in the history of photography. stopped in front of the beauty of sunlight falling through trees, or a bird in joyful flight, and gone "hang on, this lens is ONLY tack-sharp for 28mm through 135mm, so I need to be careful here, and then there's a ton of distortion if I'm under f8, so..." npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic reading lens reviews is so fucking pointless. "it has mega distortion at 174.64mm" fucker, does it take the picture good? thank you npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1vhj…vzwe yep! not my first and hopefully not my last. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic guess what I did today. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1e30…3j42 I'm just like... look... look UP... like an inch. a visual inch. c'mon. or look down! it's in my signature! npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1cz0…crpl right? it's *right there*. I can get a verbal misspelling (my name is something like "Matthew" so if someone writes "Mathew" okay, whatever) but... argh... no npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic my name. is in. THE EMAIL HEADER WHY IS THIS SO HARD TO SPELL WHAT THE ACTUAL npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1es9…dwp2 my dog is fortunately very quiet right now. if she began squeaking Mr. Taco, I'd die npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic the piece of paper that just fell to the ground too loudly is my new mortal enemy npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic people who react to discontinued hashbrowns with "Canada can't even grow and distribute potatoes, thanks Trudeau" need to be sat in a high chair in a corner for a while until they can manage their emotions npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic the amount of stress in the household this morning is truly fucking epic. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1qzs…9002 yep. need to spend spoons to use spoons. irony never smooths the way. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic the problem with "spoons" as a metaphor is that it doesn't take into account that energy is often a limited-time offer. I can have energy for a task in the morning but none in the afternoon, even if I haven't "spent" any spoons on anything in the interim. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1c3z…gkpf I often use "how's your day going" which to me at least offers the subtle opportunity to vent a little, but I think I'll start using some of yours. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1qzs…9002 it's extraordinarily difficult for me to say "I'm fine". I like some of the joking responses as being a good way to respond in a socially acceptable manner without torquing my brain about it. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic there is literally no question I loathe more than "how are you". not sure if other chronically ill people agree npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1cr2…q039 I wish it had succeeded. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic friend: I don't want to do [X], I can't handle the pain, maybe I'll just keep smoking npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1v6r…5cxc hard to know what capacity. think I’ll have to just guess. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic as usual i am stuck looking for a bag. i need something big enough to fit a little change of clothes (shirt, underwear, socks), a book or two, Kindle, and some chargers - but not so big that i could pack three days in it. would prefer grey, don't care about material, want it to zip shut. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic yep, angio's all booked at the Maz. they told me to pack a bag. thinking of what to pack npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic the day they invent technology that lets you dial in focus after the fact is the day that I am an enthusiastic early adopter npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1k6v…hs98 it was, by others' accounts. I wasn't tasting much of anything. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic the really hilarious thing is that I took the time to cook steaks and herbed potatoes and lemon green beans and, uh, I can’t eat. any of it npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic looks like I’m on the list for an angiogram/stent. doc recommends switching to Mediterranean diet as well, but that might be problematic with my neurodivergence (my relationship with food is extremely difficult). I can at least STOP eating things like red meat and sweets, even if I can’t eat whole grains. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic the phone and PC keep insisting the other one doesn't exist. shortly I will demonstrate their existence by putting one through the other npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic third or fourth try to download 7000+ images from my phone. next time I don't wait six months npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1kvj…cgfv all mustelids are like nature was having a VERY bad day npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic greetings. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic mood. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic taking a leadership course and heavily distracted by the fact that the font kerning is fucked in the PDF handbook ffffff npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic TIL that hearing voices just out of aural resolution triggers some pretty intense anxiety. interesting! npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic "which do you prefer, coffee, or tea? this is probably a very easy question to answer" it IS? since when? sometimes I like coffee but sometimes I prefer tea but it depends on the kind of tea and the time of day and sometimes even the day of the week and npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic acquaintance: I'm having NIGHTMARES about him LEAVING npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic yesterday, my body was a starship with every conceivable alarm going off. this morning, it's drifting, power flickering through subsystems, probably full of monsters. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I wish I was as comfortable as a cat in a heated kitty bed #CatsOfMastodon npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic went in to Michaels to grab some paint and as I was checking out, I turn around to see my dog sitting perfectly in front of the cashier because usually we go to Homes Alive and she knows that they’ll give her treats if she sits nicely and gives a paw, so clearly all humans should abide by this pact npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1747…xrc4 all animals have bad dreams - it’s part of natural sleep npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1747…xrc4 gods should be careful around humans. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic me to dog: you’re such a good dog. did you have bad dreams? you shouldn’t have bad dreams. if I knew what god was sending them to you I’d kill them npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic me to staff: these headsets are over $600 each and they think it's more efficient to keep replacing them in case it's NOT your desktop's problem? npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic trying to figure out the plot to Final Fantasy XIII is... npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic pride. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic leaf belief grief thief. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I have a hell of a time explaining to people why I don’t particularly want to go take pictures at noon on a clear, sunny day. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic if you can’t tell, I’m reading the debate regarding the atrocity of atomic bombs’ use in war. I agree with the people who noted that it was not the slope anyone should’ve stepped onto. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic there’s a case to be made for why the atomic bomb drops were a bad idea, but saying they would’ve been prosecuted as war criminals because of the atomic bomb is asinine. you would’ve been prosecuted - if the Nazis really cared about trials, which I’m thinking they probably didn’t - for everything, up to and including “looking at me funny”. they did not need those bombs as an excuse in this hypothetical. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I read a passage regarding the use of atomic bombs in war that suggested that, had the Axis won, the Allies would’ve been hung for war crimes based on the use of that weapon. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I’ve literally never been on another mountain. I actually got confused for a second before I remembered that I can barely make it up a fucking incline, let alone hiking up a mountain the old-fashioned way (Whistlers is the only mountain in Jasper with a convenient tram that takes you almost to the summit.) npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic because I’m A) out of shape and B) not really in a good place, cardiac-wise, I have only ever been up one mountain in my whole life (I know. it’s very sad). I took some pictures up there. I posted those pictures today and someone is arguing with me about where I was. where *I* was. when *I* took the picture. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic you haven't lived until you've watched a spider pick up their freshly cleaned and filled water dish, carry it a few inches away, flip it over, and begin burying it deeply in the soil. did I offend you, you miniature bastard? npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic a lot more small businesses would get my money if they used Afterpay or Klarna - I don't know if these are compatible with Shopify, but I can tell you that I will hesitate on a $50+ purchase - but if I can use those payment systems, I am fantastically more likely to make poor financial decisions. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic some days it's all I can do not to say "do it the way I asked you to do it. do not get creative. if I had wanted you to get creative, I would not have outlined the specific way I wanted the task done; I would've given you an overview and let you go HAM. do it the way I asked you to do it so I do not have to ask you to do it twice." npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I forgot you can't complain about the cost of vet shit without someone suggesting you kill the animal it's for. so helpful npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic I estimate it's costing $300/month (minimum, and I'm probably underestimating) to care for Puck in advanced kidney failure/severe arthritis - money well spent but I hope we can keep this up. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic no. I don't want this hyperfixation. go back to the other one. or pick something free? free sounds nice npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic the more I see of Threads, the more it's an absolute train wreck, like horribly irredeemable. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic @npub1e4s…35mt I'd say that's on par with going to IKEA on a weekend in late August, right before U of A classes open. npub16phldarzq43phspfjnralna083yw3zxu7mlmd9nwa3826xxt4sysj62suv senanthic American robin giving me the look
