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tbh I hate it when there are scrolling problems and it would be nice if it was easier to upload multiple photos at one time. there is also something cringe about social media profiles in general. we need at least one platform where you're not even allowed to have an identity u just have words and that's it.

2024-08-26 19:06:22

one of the most important lessons I've learned as a woman is the difference between being loved and being bogarted.

2024-08-26 02:41:25

I hate hurricane season because that means NO SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN 😠

2024-08-24 08:17:27

name that sample
https://open.spotify.com/track/3KvnF95wCJkQlCxUumLEDe?si=XqM5KpfmQ9aqkXww-a-45A

2024-08-24 07:20:25

btw I think the way to have accurate and valid elections is to do an extremely thorough census first. without that, there is no way to know who is alive and who is dead, and that is one way fraud occurs in elections. we also have no way of knowing how many voters there should be and what percentage of Americans are actually voting.
if silicon valley can fix the lack of census and consensus based voting – like, invent something practical pls – then it will have atoned for a small portion of its many Flaws and Failures aka Sins.
God might forgive them all for making technologies for absolutely degenerate heathens. some worthy individuals might make Heavenly Levels of Riches from it. AND INDEPENDENTLY. some of us just want to do a better job than Sam "I really did cook the books" Bankman-Fried at sharing that, but it's important to first realize that "wealth inaccessibility" is a systemic problem.
in general, Jews don't like to share the wealth they invented for themselves but that needs to change.
Satoshi is basically up there with Jesus at this point. Bitcoin really can't be gatekept and that's why it is more Heaven on Earth and Christ-like than any other financial bartering system in existence.
every Wall Street financial transaction should be in Bitcoin. the public should be able to see these transactions settle immediately. the buying and selling of debt might even cease to exist.
and the coolest part is that money will actually have a tangible value again. what role it plays in politics, elections, and governance will change. that's how we get truly democratically elected leaders.

2024-08-19 15:06:37

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2024-08-19 05:01:37

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2024-08-08 17:03:13

one man's "pls stop making things so awkward you're saying too much" is another man's "interesting, go on..."

2024-08-07 03:43:15

https://open.spotify.com/album/5NUnKImQvHXj3315ab9cjp?si=9qbky0rpQiu0we4PK9-Zzg

2024-07-29 20:08:14

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who's a Marxist?

2024-07-29 19:47:33

https://x.com/anyaparampil/status/1817945347223658668?t=vjAFlMQST-huw8KvGwhP8g&s=19

2024-07-29 07:15:34

like. now y'all know for certain who's the Zionist Candidate in any election he tries to interfere with AND VOTE THE OPPOSITE 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

2024-07-29 07:14:14

I'm sorry but he's the new Inverse Kramer 🤣

2024-07-29 06:57:16

my warning to all of Latin America would be that anytime a candidate tries to sell you on "democracy", you're just opening the backdoor to all the crap the West has been absolutely plagued with in the last 50+ years.
it's actually simple to decide who's right to run a country. just ask whether they've got ties to Israel or Netanyahu, a literal Anti-Christ, and whether that candidate shows signs of having the Zionist Mind Virus. realize that all these powermongers and oligarchs do, and their armies of influencers and media puppets, is serve as an informational inversion point to avoid getting blackmailed or pew pew'd.
so Elon, for example, he'll take a cause and mine the fuck out of it then on the next layer of revelation or data invert the narrative to make it harder to point out that all roads lead not to Rome, but to Israel. that is the Zionist Mind Virus at play.
(I've gotten really good at predicting the way he's gonna reply guy to all his low IQ shill accounts btw. it's unfortunate to still be in the shitpool of Twitter after all this, but Nostr is a great cause he's not on it. I mean how actually retarded do you have to be to think that being anti-Zionist is a sign of having the "Woke Mind Virus"? we all know he is DYING to say that.)

2024-07-29 06:41:22

now that Elon's been fully exposed as a Zionist, every time he picks a candidate in some country he's got no connection to, they'll probably do the "how close will this candidate bring us to Israel?" / "Zionist or not Zionist?" math and choose the opposite.
really saying something that Latin America is showing signs of preferring dictators to "Democratic" US-backed leaders aka Second Hand Zionists.
every single time we try to import "democracy" to a country, it's Zionist-backed. the long term effects of this are ultimately Jewish and "Deep State" machinations; they woo the populace with images of American-style liberation then pull the rug right out from beneath that nation's feet. the people don't even realize what's happening until like a decade or two later.
anyone who supports Israel at this point should be vehemently rejected and even shunned for being willing to subject their country to that tried-and-true Zionist protocol, straight from the Elders of Zion.
the thing with real democracy is that it must originate with the people themselves; and it is best when it does. all the CIA propaganda and Zionist protocols in the world can't emulate the results.
Zionism is the most dangerous and evil force on the planet and it has already done immeasurable damage to Latin America. democracy is the mask it wears, otherwise America would truly be a democracy and not a Jewish puppet government.
reject, reject, reject.

2024-07-26 22:21:49

twitter is an ideological chokepoint.

2024-07-25 17:17:39

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2024-06-30 19:10:25

https://open.spotify.com/album/3fjeFLyo8FY1Appkw4Mrvy?si=J-ACo-JERJCk0UzFyCgDUQ

2024-06-28 19:59:11

idk but if there's a next stage of the rap battle it's about Israel v Palestine. https://image.nostr.build/3842b0e5d698351cfe889a9f6b455a91c7b4bffa2373155e17019a2f18145bbf.jpg

2024-06-25 18:37:29

https://open.spotify.com/track/3prtPGzdSOvl5CGCrkN34h?si=FdcNCBkTQ8GJ2Y6vhm-MHQ

2024-06-25 18:34:00

breathing through your emotions is a different kind of breath.

2024-06-24 18:51:44

literally everyone born before 1979 is just jealous that they never got to experience Decentralized Notoriety before getting sucked into the Media Circus School for Public Figures and Puppetheads.
WE DON'T NEED NO THOUGHT CONTROL.

2024-06-23 20:21:27

I'm sorry that I sometimes have to process things like this but it's moreso about things that need to be addressed in the public square aka The Collective Consciousness.
we are all over sharers even if that means over sharing the same shit on the daily - your sales pitch, you propaganda, opinions and rhetoric, linked in ass content types of things.
btw. you think LinkedIn didn't ban me at one point or two? it's always the same funeral for the originals Disruptors of technology and scientific innovation - they eventually become. corrupt and boring bc of having too much power just like George Orwell reminded us of in "Animal Farm".
it's not useful to take these people so seriously that now you're justifying their bullshit for them. literally not a single one of these men's estates are worth the cost to your soul and I am DEAD serious.
all the women who go for this sort of thing end up turning into Pillars of Salt and I don't think I need to explain that one much further. "ohh look at her she's in love" like yes ma'am Real Good D can do that.
but if you sell your soul for money, your own body will reveal it; and even if it's perfect, you won't be free enough to fall in love. don't fall for the money trap instead. don't settle for someone who isn't madly and happily in love with you. proud of you. protective of you.

2024-06-23 17:43:27

I thank God every day that I'm only mildly attractive bc I could not handle the kind of attention hot girls get on a daily basis, especially just for being hot.
attention for being talented or smart?
that's the best because it attracts talented and smart people who also have something of value to share.

2024-06-23 06:19:20

eventually, I think we will have a generation of men stand up and refuse to repeat the sins of their fathers. I pray for these ones every day and the rest of you can gfy.

2024-06-23 02:05:24

the United States of America IS the Promised Land and that's why our Jewish family wants to take over it. let's be frank, it is great here. we have a great military even if the leaders who have conned and bribed and blackmailed their way through the political pipeline suck ass.
but that's really the problem: this Promised Land was promised to all who believe in the American Dream. that's all you gotta do - believe that the shit show some people have created can and will be replaced with something more like the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.
it really is a test of the spirit on some way, and there is no longer a bloodline claim (always an excuse for violence) because Jesus came to abolish all blood sacrifices once and for all. this may not be written in the Constitution but it is fundamental to this nation's survival to understand that.
it is biblical.
I don't care what your religion is or what the religions of our founding fathers were. we don't need religion, we need to accept that love is the only answer. Jesus made that very clear. those who choose to live through a love for humanity should lead us. all else leads to more and more fragmentation of our connections and bonds as humans.
instead of coddling the screaming war baby, let us demand that the USA commit to a global ceasefire. this is where all ceasefire agreements need to begin - in our own country, which commits itself to not engaging in any more war crimes from this point on.
if we can't, then we really should boot all those people from power and start fresh with uncorrupted citizens who are willing and capable of leading us toward a better future. this isn't our grandfathers' world anymore and we have everything it takes to fix these messes.
if greed is the problem, then create and implement absolute accountability; this is one of the highest forms of intelligence as it helps ensure our survival as a civilization.
I believe in us✌🏼

2024-06-22 18:25:53

true
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2024-06-22 14:19:51

regardless of the connection, it's abundantly clear that our paths are diverging. he's graduated from mooching cigarettes off of women to mooching experiences off of old men. wherever I'm going in life, I can't take him.
in the same way that he makes me feel culturally inept, like, I'm cool and exotic but not exotic like *her*, he's pretty much as standard as it gets for a guy who's been referred to as a "tumbleweed".
he looks at every beautiful woman like he's missing out on something. he gets doses of reality every once in a while when he realizes that the people around us could give two shits about him.
but it's me who brings the emotional brutality by telling him the truth - that I don't play these games anymore, that I've got other opportunities, too - and he's stuck on the thing he can leverage for a little bit of control.
I keep asking myself who this reminds me of, as if I don't already know the answer, but would I miss this if the call finally came through and I had the chance to finally put it all on stage?
the paradox is in wanting what you want - all of it and nothing at all - whether it pleases anyone else or not. imo, he's either a massive fraud or a fantastic liar or a deadbeat nepo baby or in the closet.

2024-06-20 17:00:11

look, the most monumental act of hubris was the Cool Jews being like, "nuh uh that bitch can't even EVEN. we need to set our Golden Goose up with a real Jewish yapper!" and like baby that is fine whatever but now these girls are DYING for a dude who actually likes them like that.
sucks to be stupid, ya know?
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2024-06-20 16:45:51

"I don't know who's writing all that shit" yeah bitch neither do I.

2024-06-20 16:45:19

I write on Nostr so everyone else can save face.

2024-06-20 05:11:28

never seen a rapper get canceled harder and I have a feeling we'll never see it happen like that again.
God bless Kendrick Lamar.
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2024-06-14 18:56:23

https://open.spotify.com/album/0Kzb3u6kMnOJOZXYFSk33F?si=Axo7ywa5R7WeoEUwv2UL0Q

2024-06-14 04:14:03

all the housekeeping ladies noticed how he lit up when I walked in the room. the other side was so gentle and sweet, but alcohol and drugs and lies do something to people. you go from friends and lovers to enemies with regrets. I saw it in his eyes when he left, but that's not the way it was supposed to be.
that kind of thing only happens once in a long while, displacing reality into another realm where differences of opinion don't matter and all those things you do to get under each other's skin are a great source of laughter until you realize that you might be in love.
then it hurts. then you see the ugly side. then the truth comes out and you watch that person run away after insisting so many times that honesty is what matters to them the most.
fact is, nobody was playing a role here.
the honest, beautiful moments make me wonder if fate is a real thing and maybe he'll come back someday a better man---stable, healthier, happier. the past doesn't matter all that much, nor do those mistakes people make when they're too scared to admit how they feel.
sometimes you spend years and years being so careful with your heart and then that one person comes along to remind you that it's ok to be a little wreckless.
I guess it's called a fling for a reason.

2024-06-13 20:39:48

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https://x.com/TheOfficial1984/status/1801321261001306129?s=19

2024-06-12 18:44:28

the real nail in the coffin was when a drunk Albanian guy said, "you looked so pretty swimming in the water" and the Israeli responds, "she'd look prettier underwater."

2024-06-10 22:50:41

it all started when I said, "I'm the only one who makes money off of me and anyone who has made money off of me but hasn't paid me is gonna have issues." the man was stunned. for the next 24 hours, he made sure to keep the kitchen knife close in case I walked in.
someone said that he has the tendency to pace around staring into the void like a zombie; has been around junkies of all kinds but this guy was on another level. my observation: he's in the business of Making Arrangements if you know what I mean.
problem is, one night I said that any man who does these sorts of things deserves Consequences. any man who tries to do these things to me, especially, needs to check himself before he wrecks himself.
nobody---especially not some Aladdin ass street rat---is going to make a commission or fee off of introducing me to people who I could very well meet on my own. but here he was, thinking he'd found a little golden goose to...pimp, maybe?
last night I straight said he could do whatever business he wanted but he's not gonna do it here. talking about bad reputations and how this place seems to hate him, all the drama with the Latinos. and he, get this, he purportedly SAVED MY LIFE???
like. the gall.

2024-06-10 21:45:04

one thing I've noticed about the Sinking Ships of Small Businesses is that there's no real plan to improve the state of things, so there's a lot of petty politics internalized and often shifted onto the lowest level employees.
but hey, new chairs.

2024-06-10 15:35:45

btw. what's that syndrome called when you don't respond to a man right away and he starts thinking the most terrible things about you?
I'm not sure it actually has a name but I do know that it's an object constancy problem but for intimacy.
that's why it's important to always be present in a child's life if you're gonna have one.

2024-06-10 15:30:34

first of all, he looked like something out of a movie. in a place like this, you know he's a Very Important Man. the place was literally surrounded and it was a very tense vibe.
the Israeli has eyes. he can see. but he's never seen it happen like that. I'm sorry it had to be that way but only God knows why things happen the way that they do.
"just take your W and get on with it." I am. but don't beg me to intervene like Mipha's Grace when the streets start contorting and all that has come due is now finally due.
it's not about money and everybody knows that. it's about legacy and that the good ones never really walk alone, although it may seem to be the case for a while.

2024-06-10 15:12:29

most fucked up people on the planet are the ones who killed little kids in combat believing that they were dirty terrorists only to have to look at your own child and wonder what really makes the difference.

2024-06-10 15:10:02

they do be trying to link things to you, don't they?
intent? I intend on not being eaten by animals.

2024-06-10 00:37:49

https://open.spotify.com/album/6X4w3XifxQVXdKDgwgD7Wk?si=VdUKN_tQRMKmSbVOkLAH9w

2024-06-08 16:48:19

I mean, isn't it a little strange that the one person lurking here, living here, is a Sephardic Israeli Jew who's fucked up enough in the head to sit on a balcony staring into the void for months on end...? like he was waiting and waiting. observing everyone and everything.
anyways, the attraction was instant, and I don't take these things lightly because I'm pretty well-armed emotionally, especially in new environments. he's used to combat, needs the intellectual stimulation.
back in Israel, decades ago, he served in a unit that runs in tandem with the highest military intelligence unit aside from Mossad. did four years and called it quits, got married and became a father.
the marriage fell apart because he's more devout than her, and to this day, he seems to remain devout. I question this because it all seems very much like a rules and regulations game. he talks about the benefits of being a Jew all the time.
we did have quite the debate about the current state of things early on, and I was clear that I don't agree with Israel's actions in Gaza, explained Zionism, and expressed my skepticism that Palestinians are all just Muslim terrorists.
this is the tension between us, plus the fact that people are constantly watching us interact. like I said, the Latinos have opinions about him, regardless of how they feel about the Holocaust or Jews or Israel.
it's almost like, in the end, the Jewish Card has been restricted in play and responded to with "we're sorry that happened" and "we dont want it to happen again" and "it's not a valid excuse anymore".

2024-06-08 08:20:52

he's on day five of a bebido bender.
on the bright side, he hasn't talked about Israel in days. a former IDF soldier who can't look me in the eye since the night I made him jealous on purpose.
I thought he fucked a big Italian woman on his birthday after I left the bar and walked home alone. I didn't want to see them flirting. she's kinda gross and messy. his *actual* type, I guess.
he didn't do it, but might as well have.
next morning, a polish man enters the scene and falls in love almost instantly. that night, we all go out to dance and there's some major chemistry. I get a little revenge - two can play that game amirite.
the soldier is big mad. he looks like an Israeli version of the artist formerly known as Prince. when we have a minute alone, he kisses me, and says that if I do that one more time he won't kiss me ever again.
we sit in a bathtub at 3am, very drunk, and he holds me while I sob about our miscommunication. the drama's been unfolding for days as he can't quite stomach that other men love me.
he doesn't want a relationship. fuck my life.
next day, I go on a date with the polish man, who won't stop fixating on some imaginary future we might have together. we drunkenly said we'd get married in exactly one year the night before, but I hate him now.
I return to this drunk Israeli man, who's so happy that I didn't fuck the polish guy. the dude was boring AF under the harsh light of sobriety. the Israeli's a complex and complicated disaster. do I love him??
it's not really a secret, but all the other men are agitated now. the setting isn't exactly right for normal interactions anyway and I guess that's what makes it exciting and also really cringe.
I can't believe I give two fucks about a guy who only eats kosher hot dogs and frozen pizza. he raised a son well into adulthood but he's like a teenager himself, self-obsessed and erratic. I enjoy his stories about being a dad.
for like four days straight all he ate was kosher cacao powder straight out of a can, so I started making him fried rice. he felt like I was mothering him. he complained about my overuse of butter.
I stopped cooking for him altogether. now he hates that other men cook for me and buy me food. the fuck is wrong with that??? saw me playing my Nintendo Switch during work and said he *hates* that I play video games.
fuck his life.
obviously, all of this is besides the point and occuring in an alternate reality. I'm not here to fall in love with a guy who writes down his credit card numbers in a notebook and swears he isn't a gigolo.
tbh, I already forgot why I came here at all. the Latino locals at the cafe next door think he's trash. he won't even go over there to ask for ice. they want to rescue me from him like in West Side Story.
it's not funny, but he thinks being a Jew is like a prophylactic for unwanted scrutiny. I want to do a serious background check on him. he's probably not a bad person, just messed up in the head from a couple wars.
I know these types well and I swore to myself that I'd never get involved with one. God and the Devil are raging inside of him. I'd rather not get in the middle of that. he's just so frail and so staunch about everything.
I'm pretty sure love will break him.
it's over, I think.

2024-06-07 07:43:30

*except when you become what you aren't paying attention to.
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2024-06-07 03:30:58

I've been observing the local alcoholics.
they form bonds faster than anyone and follow each other around everywhere. it's obvious that they haven't really slept much in days, maybe weeks, and they can't stop not sleeping.
even when there's literally nothing of value to say to each other, they sit there and crack open one bottle after the other. I don't know how they do it because I get sick of people after like four hours.
how do I look so good for my age? well, I stopped drinking at 25 and rarely ever drink anything except water and coffee. it's never worth it to fall in love at the club. alcohol makes people do the stupidest shit.

2024-06-05 21:31:59

told another guy he'd hand me over to him. they were all over each other that same night.
"we're like brothers" except I've never seen brothers kiss each other's faces like that. got real drunk and they both said, "fuuckkk yoouuuuu" to my face.
he thinks all the men are gay and want him. I doubt that, but all he ever does is think about himself. probably can't even care about what a woman wants or needs. he thinks they just exist to please him.
gets in stupid little arguments with everyone. corrects you when he's wrong. interprets most things in the most negative light possible. sits on the balcony all day to think, doesn't eat, takes a bunch of vitamins.

2024-06-04 23:24:46

yeah I'm ready

2024-06-02 15:27:07

i hear the real estate renovation business is looking for a petite cutie with near-unlimited amounts of money (she didn't earn it, she just spends it) to Make America Great Again but they're looking at the lady behind me right?

2024-05-25 06:57:03

feelings? nothing more than

2024-05-23 19:48:05

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quite possible!

2024-05-23 18:44:53

swimming in the ocean is a form of therapy 🌊

2024-05-23 15:22:37

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Ravens had a great season last year and Lamar Jackson is an amazing QB.
would like to see them win a championship :)

2024-05-23 14:42:07

excited for football szn

2024-05-22 07:07:52

the Russians would love it, apparently

2024-05-21 16:07:17

haters will say I'm doing this to make people mad. the socialites are CONCERNED. nobody even gives a fuck except that he's good at proving a point. how intriguing. on good days, we ignore it; on bad days, they look at me funny. her???
last night, someone just said it. I'm very grateful for the clarity, but I don't want to live like that. obviously, the point is that you eventually lose the option to live otherwise. it's telling how the watchful eye has, from time to time, become teary and misty at the thought.
imagine being lucky like that when so many are not and have not been, then thinking it right to complain about being utterly beloved by these guardians, and in such a way that the only imposition is almost undisturbing.
there's a queue of introductions waiting to be made, but God forbid this one slips through the cracks. or maybe that's exactly what should happen. it just depends on the day and who believes what and whether things are or aren't going the way things are supposed to go.
you'd think the sons of these men wouldn't give a fuck, but you'd be surprised at the resentments they hold against their fathers and what a great need there is in times like these for feminine interventions.

2024-05-19 05:37:37

guilty as charged, you say? https://open.spotify.com/track/0zE0NaTrsqnsMvD0EMajLL?si=gcwA8Lu5RrK-lAIfys3m_g

2024-05-18 01:43:21

personally, I don't want to rehash the past nor engage in this pseudo-psychopompous bullshit, but you do realize at some point that the only power left in these games is the power of preemptive attack - an easy thing to accomplish unless, say, you somehow have an ally who can see the look in your eyes when you describe what its like to become the chosen subject of a malignant narcissist or two. maybe even a group of them.
people have pointed out that sexlaptop's entire game is playing on male weakness, and I think that's true, but it's sort of weirdly masculine and aggressive in a way that could never even qualify as artistic. it's very low IQ braindead stuff and I hate to be the one to point out that any defense of this behavior is literally just to keep from being nagged to death about it.
anyways, I think it's good to align oneself with people who innately understand what absolute trash comes from the wretched desire for wealth and fame, but also pursuing it with so little actual talent aside from repetitive propaganda and lies that your life is only known by the desperation of your climb to the top.
everyone in that circle of hell is so much more fucked up than they will ever admit. I still feel like God has protected me from so much that would have destroyed me had I sold my soul to it.

2024-05-18 01:23:45

k, so, sexlaptop was trying to pull some fuckshit in collusion with a well known celebrity - light stuff, just kinda low-key manipulative types of things - but another Jewish account made this known almost instantly. not that it wasn't obvious already, I'm just saying that I love it when the Jews Who Know What's Up throw these psycho JAPs (was told the meaning of this by a former IDF soldier LMAO) under the bus.
and not to parse too heavily into this, because at some point you do realize that these people are utterly idiotic, but the celebrity wasn't exactly trying to hide it. remember that sexlaptop is an expert at drumming up bullshit for absolutely no reason and without respect to facts.
so my guess is that the celebrity had shown some sort of very vague and probably nonserious interest in non-sexlaptop rhetoric, and we all know that this would be bad since some of that rhetoric is very specifically anti-bullshit.
not that this matters all that much. I just wanted to point out that whatever little disinfo plot she was running was almost instantly pointed out by OTHER JEWS and now everyone on the internet hates her for being an outright petty bitch to people who know far less about her than she does about them.
it's one of those situations where you have lots of connections and zero conscience; data but not dignity, and of course everyone is willing to rat her and her alleged conspirator out. my guess is that it was written off as asymmetrical girl drama and only one party was the real aggressor.

2024-05-18 01:07:42

sexlaptop should teach a masterclass in famewhoring.

2024-05-14 21:59:18

amazing to see an NFL player talking about this 🧡
https://www.instagram.com/reel/C69Sy_BuQMS/?igsh=MXhxNDFqM2g1dm5sNw==

2024-05-14 19:43:23

almost infinitely more powerful people acting like victims is so fucking hilarious to me.
gratitude makes such a difference no matter what you experience in life.

2024-05-14 19:32:38

same shit, same shitty people.
but so far I feel very lucky and blessed to have found what I needed.
things are always getting better :)

2024-05-12 21:41:40

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZdZppoiqEJsgjYXnJeAKA?si=huE8-TvCTXmkGwnQw033fw

2024-05-12 20:49:18

it's weird how even the richest man on earth thinks it's unfair that a woman could inherit something just because. but if men in general understood what it means to do "A Woman's Work" they'd be far more respectful about it.
I could never enjoy the struggle porn so much (or at all) when God blessed me with abundance - and maybe even some money and power - but mostly with gifts from God, which some people are curious to see for themselves.
if you are money rich, just remember how it felt to be the subject of it, as are all those who inherit anything, if you ever really experienced it at all.
the digital age has changed everything, yes, but the fun part is in the discovery process.
can't blame people for wondering, right?
the ability to wonder is one of the greatest gifts from God.

2024-05-11 14:49:47

compatibility is and never was the issue. there's no world in which I'm compatible with anyone who treats women the way he does and I've known that since the beginning.
but, ya know, it is a good thing to tell the truth about how you, a man, have done things to seriously harm a woman, her reputation, her opportunities, and whatever else; instead of writing it all off as "well, now you're unsuspended from Twitter, be grateful!"
no sir, I'm mad because the feds literally had to intervene and then you tried to throw ME under the bus for being some type of subversive psychopath who studied a 1990's journalistic publication and made music.
look in the mirror, bitch.

2024-05-11 13:46:21

you gotta remember one thing when he does the whole "I saved your free speech" schtick: he was also intentionally lying about the reason I'd been suspended in the first place and it wasn't purely because of some shit I said on Twitter like it was for everyone else. that's the sanitized, less strange version of it.
can you imagine what would've happened if the media was granted the right to run with a story about how these billionaires were running a sort of cat-and-mouse game on anons, potentially for romantic or sexual reasons? that's called sex trafficking because the power dynamic is ultimately asymmetric and there is no plausible way an anon could know what tools are being used to accomplish this.
I might have been the only "victim" who came right out of the gates saying THIS IS A FORM OF SEX TRAFFICKING. so yeah. it is the creepiest shit ever and the term 'dystopian' hardly covers it.
so let me just be totally clear:
elon musk is a fucking bullshitting ass megaliar who wants to shove his convenient story about Saving Free Speech down everyone's throats while playing the same freakish and demented games that started it all. and it doesn't hurt that his attack dog Ashley is the one who loves censorship more than anyone, especially if it means no one ever hears about those dirty little secrets so many women probably wanna tell about him.
I SuPPoRt eLoN mUsK
no bitch you report to Mossad like everyone in the DW/BB circle does. it's just that last year nobody was talking about it and nobody had figured out what is blatantly obvious if you just, er, listen to the rhetoric.
guess who was the only one who tried to warn me? like, an act of honesty that spared me from much but also left me with nothing. just guess why I was like, "I'm gonna marry him", as stupid as that was. because to me, there is no greater kind of love than when a man puts himself on the line for a woman. just right out the gates, without comment.
just look at what a self-centered, self-obsessed little bitch the other one is. dude who claims to use his own child like an emotional support puppet is also going to use women for the same reason. ofc you think you hit the lottery when you find one psychotic enough to do the things she does to "protect" you; ya know, things he's never done for any of the women he's been with before, and it's not until a baby pops out and their job is complete that they see what they actually mean to him.
uh, sorry but the story there isn't "oh we met and we fucked in a bathroom and now we're in love."
that hoe is seriously and almost incomprehensibly deranged.
MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN lmaoooo.
tbh, I *want* all those lies to come crashing down on him - the aforementioned bastard. he deserves it and nothing is going to change until that happens. I mean, the only thing keeping him safe at the moment is Ashley and That Whole Crew threatening to weaponize the government to damn all those "Anti-Semites" to hell (prison). is elon gonna step in and pay for all the lawsuits against, idk, paid-off members of Congress who used their positions of power to literally rape the Constitution? doubt it.
bro doesn't have the balls for all that and free speech only matters when it's convenient and you need a Joint Cause to convince the man that you're fuckable.

2024-05-11 13:14:55

I hate men who have been so deeply emasculated that they try to teach women a lesson rather than being a fucking man and doing the right thing for them.
that's what happens when you have an absolute bastard for a father and you become one yourself.

2024-05-10 06:32:53

Scorpio delivers the poison and Scorpio Rising is the antidote or something like that

2024-05-09 13:59:27

bet you anything a collab with Kendrick would start a war but it does appear that the war is inevitable and will be ongoing.
LFG lol.

2024-05-09 05:27:07

everything spirals when people want to be friends but other people don't want those people to be friends. like, if there is something enriching about a connection I don't think that that should be anyone elses business. all you're really doing when you have the upper hand and choose to use it to damage someone in a far less advantageous position than you is prolong the tension of what might otherwise be a happy connection for others.
eventually they'll hold even more tightly to the friendship itself, and perhaps you'll find yourself on the outs for once - which doesn't feel good at all, whether it's deserved or not!
it's especially weird when it involves a lesser known person who didn't do much to offend anyone to begin with, tho I think the beauty of forgiveness is that it really does wash away those resentments from the past.
there's a good lesson in being on the receiving end of peoples' wrath, and that is that if the roles are ever reversed, it's not difficult to remember how it felt to be hated soooo much for really stupid reasons. retaliation is never worth the effort and there is very little, if anything, to be gained from it.
I actually do appreciate that it's been understood that there's a huge personal risk in losing anonymity because of money or fame or something. imo, it's not worth it unless for a very good reason, or as a natural outgrowth of one's work. perhaps it's the value of humility and gratitude in action that makes the difference in how those blessings in life are received.
I believe that when God blesses people, it's in the right time and place, and you don't have to struggle with it because it's given freely as the result of hard work and patience. knowing that opposition is just a means for growth is why none of this bothers me so deeply that it distracts or detracts from the thing I love the most, which is music.
I feel enormously blessed that God gave me that gift and that it's only flourished with age. there's really no amount of money that could convince me give up, and no level of hatred that outweighs the intrinsic benefits of being a musician. I wish that all people could understand creativity as a life-giving force which protects your heart and mind from attacks by your worst enemies.
to share that gift with other people is one of the greatest joys ever.
🧡

2024-05-08 23:44:19

can somebody put sexlaptop in check for me? 🙏🏼
allegedly, she's doing some weird fuckshit but is also kinda scared cause the hood ain't about it except maybe drake and people for whom drake is their favorite rapper (I'm praying they that is no longer true). idk what else to really say about it except that I find that kinda behavior extremely disturbing. I assumed everything was fine and she got what she wanted and feels very confident in being The One or w/e. like, at the end of the day, even if I dislike some things that have happened, I wish the best for even the hoes and haters.
life must go on and there is happiness waiting for me, too.
she's also allegedly trying to bring a football to the Hate Her Party and that's quite simply not the right venue for such a thing. why would a football hate me? I've got a good hip to shoulder swivel and I know the game better than Taylor Swift.
I'm starting to feel like she might be a highly advanced and very creepy stalker??? do I need to talk to the FBI about her???
but furthermore, can adults just do whatever they want without some strange high school level political smear campaigns running concurrently in the background? or at least be an adult and confront it head on. I'd do a diss track but it's an unfair advantage since I know that bitch can't sing OR rap just from her nasally and naggy sounding talking voice. not to mention that she's repetitive as actual fuck.
I mean. goddamn these hoes are crazy.
I honestly do feel bad for any man who comes in contact with that kind of energy. it's like Mean Girls except nothing changes and nobody gets along in the end. sad!
I don't wanna get involved in the political stuff rn as I am taking a much needed mental break and using this time to pray, seek God, get recentered, and forge a good path forward for myself.
I hope a great man comes along, but I also hope he's willing to stiff arm some people and refuse to betray me and all the things that are necessary with these demonic characters.
I literally woke up from a nap where I dreamed there was a lion chained to a fence and it lunged at me but only left a small scratch on my leg, thank God, but I FELT that scratch and woke up. I believe in divine protection and you just never know whether these sexlaptop types of characters are so insane that they'll try to have you murdered or harmed.
so keep me in your prayers because after this I'm gonna record an album with a lot of bangers. this city is speaking to me, and I think my style is already well-attuned to it somehow.

2024-05-08 07:52:08

it's funny how, after a certain point, money doesn't necessarily make you happier, smarter, or more fulfilled, and the only real difference between a famous billionaire and an anon millionaire is whether you get to be in public without your photo being taken or being accosted by strangers.
I suppose what I'm saying is that - if you remove the need for stuff, expensive shit, things that only serve the purpose of luxury for luxury's sake - you're still left with a baseline of experiences that you either now have access to or lose access to.
I think this is why the richer you are, the more out of touch you appear to everyone else, which is fascinating in some ways but essentially non-essential in that sweet spot where you have enough to live the best life you can live but not so much that there's a target on your head and you can't do normal people shit anymore.
to be clear, I've never actually envied mega mega rich people; I think they become who they are because they otherwise live pretty isolating and miserable lives. everything has to be private, you can't go anywhere with security guards, and everybody is so far up the asshole of your business that you get paranoid.
it's as if there's really no value to having more money after a certain point except as a social currency, wherein you can be the envy of your friends or family or maybe the whole world. but with all the vapidness we see these days, my question is why anyone would want to be envied by vapid people?
people who are internally wealthy - and perhaps also externally wealthy *enough* - don't seem to envy megabillionaires precisely because they've lost the one thing thing that makes life actually interesting: the ability to speak to and be around normal humans who won't alter their behaviors or opinions to appease others, and those conversations that give life meaning because it's shared amongst a collective whose struggles haven't been prematurely mitigated by wealth.
those are the best experiences to learn from, imo, and all else is some degree of show-and-tell; or, a flex that is quickly forgotten and not especially relatable.
so if you're frustrated at the way it seems to be harder and harder to have a meaningful effect on people the wealthier you are, maybe think about the fact that it's because you may no longer speak the language of the masses as good as you thought.
one, just because you came from the hood doesn't mean you're still One Of Us; and two, anonymity and humility aren't mutually exclusive. imo, it actually takes far more humility to remain anonymous than it does to nauseatingly self-promote until the world begrudgingly brands you with its explicit endorsements.
for all we know, those days could be completely over and nobody except that fiscal ruling class could care about the material trappings of status, or of the out-of-touch, grandiose missions which conveniently point to a problem that's been chewed up and spit out into the baby bird's mouth and a solution which is equally and easily regurgitated.
anyways, it's pretty fun planting the seeds of discontent with these nonsensical Ruling Techniques by the Ruling Elites of our time. plus, there's not actually a more important goal in terms of governance than the one which sets us all free from our slavemasters. it may not even be relevant to tear the system down completely either if it's quite clearly hellbent on destroying itself from the inside.
interestingly enough, it would seem that the wealthier you get, the less effective you are at changing the world in the most meaningful of ways. why? because the inner circle and outer circle is a collar around your neck and people in those social scenes are more than happy to yank the leash to ensure you never become affected by the blissful energy of anons who are more concerned about their own families and livelihoods than some billionaire's woefully addictive gambling on some basically irrelevant Master Plan.
anyone with a Master Plan, by the way, is just a salesperson for a future that could be far better planned without the continuous infestation of elitist propaganda.
if it's not by the people, then it's not for the people.

2024-05-06 22:17:14

the fact that Nostr doesn't allow you to save drafts is a good thing 🤭

2024-05-05 02:23:30

imma figure out how to prolong this rap beef FOREVER 😂

2024-05-04 08:09:51

nah because they're talking about the alleged stalking incident on the gossip channel again wondering if maybe it really did happen and I think that's what blows up all that fake ass moral superiority shit you sold to the masses with artists like Kendrick as your cultural sidekicks.
it's mutually assured destruction no matter how you look at it but at least one of 'em is sucking the poison out of the plot.

2024-05-03 21:35:59

or all of it is predestined and then you join the hoardes of people who tried and met the same fate.
in better-ish news, someone was amazed by the thing (my voice) that the People at the Top weren't and that felt good.
we played music together :)
that's never happened before.

2024-05-03 21:26:15

maybe dead dreams give birth to new ones

2024-05-03 06:38:09

girls just wanna have fun

2024-05-02 14:28:00

OH DID THAT STRIKE A NERVE

2024-05-02 07:31:52

white dude leaves the suburbs now he's acting like Satan.
black man leaves the hood now he thinks he's Jesus.
and then there's Drake.

2024-05-02 07:18:45

tldr; you seem to be part of the reason the rappers hesitate to address The Elephant in the Room.
Drake's got an excuse (flimsy, but still) cause he's Jewish.
Kendrick will pussyfoot around it cause he still thinks he's the hardest mfer on the planet for escaping Compton.

2024-05-02 07:05:25

factor out wealth disparity and all of these apprehensions are still mutual. it's the attention that comes with it---the vilification of your human shield, the person brave enough to say what you would never for fear of losing all that is precious to you.
but the truth yields for no one, and at some point, you will be dragged into it beyond what is reconcilable to the masses on the sheer retributive value of your abuses of trust.
if you are so happy with yourself then leave me the fuck alone and stay out of it and don't try to get more sexual footage from someone I date. in other words, fuck off forever.
it's almost like that tendency to manipulate the world from the nether regions of the internet has never left you; truly, it was your way of maneuvering into and out of the realm of responsibility with just enough finesse to appear oblivious.
you had to serve them, too, and you did.
in fact, you're the one who used the black and brown community like YOUR human shield. that's where this all actually does involve you, and where your real responsibilities lie.
this isn't about some rap beef, relational beef, or monetary beef, and we all know it. you were the one who helped set those communities on a collision course with the Realities of Conservatism; and looking back, this very fact seems to be why so much of that 2010s era rap sounds like it was the brainchild of the Neo-Left, some bastard child of Communism.
I can't shake the feeling that you have only ever wanted someone who would never question the freakishness of that lack of morality and the way it infected black and brown communities toward the abject hatred of those who really would have preferred a respectful level of ambivalence toward racial identity as a linguistic programming tool.
you helped invent and disseminate an entire dialectic which led to more casualties of civility than most people ever want to imagine. so believe me when I say that I take everything in the vein of wokeness to be some sort of sick and cruel joke played on the youths, continue to grow up on these platforms.
do you honestly think you're not resented for this anymore? or is it just that there's never been a coherent narrative about HOW you helped shift the landscape of civilization toward the most vapid rephrasings of intentional retribution---bitter words spoken with a patronizing, condescending tone.
unironically, it's the thing that caused the whole rift in the first place and my only real concern was making sure the facts didn't go unnoticed and unacknowledged this time around.
I can't even IMAGINE the kinds of blackmail Mossad and CIA have on you; obviously, which is why your only option for redemption is to play handler for yet another fall guy.
that trust is dead.
don't even send that fucking tweet at 11:19, am or pm; and no 1:43's like it's junior high and nobody's gotta know.
I'm not done writing the report on you and I'll eventually get your handlers handled, too. (they all kinda like me tbh). bet you anything your dossier makes Elon look like he's a literal fucking saint.
fuck the manufactured rap beefs.
we are still at the beginning of an Uncivil War and no good man throws a woman under the bus to save his fuckin' homie anymore. you wanna hack someone? hack yourself.

2024-05-02 00:17:06

Survival of the Richest

2024-05-01 07:58:59

LIKE I SAID DRIZZY DIDN'T TEACH A BITCH HOW TO RAP IT WAS KENDRICK NOW EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP.

2024-05-01 07:33:50

I know I don't need anyone's money.
the question is when mine is going to actually be mine.

2024-05-01 05:33:45

I think the right approach is to remember we are only human and prone to error. there's nothing wrong with reaching outside of your caste, especially if the high-risk of rejection doesn't fall on you. but don't make a mockery of love if you feel it and don't say it's not there if it is.
too many people might be counting on you to say it's not, yourself included; and in that case, you should keep it that way for your own sake.
I don't think anyone deliberates the meaning of fate more than people on the opposite ends of reality, but nobody is asking you to feel guilty about it. the awkwardness of being everyone's lucky break could make a simple thing feel obligatory if it's not what your heart really desires.
and in all honesty, it's kinda like looking into a two-way mirror without the observer's advantage - an entertaining kind of voyeurism that I'll never know or understand. maybe the conversation shouldn't happen because I don't think it's useful to know what parts were accurate and what parts came from total madness or something in-between.
think about all the people whose endless and relentless mockery relies on you - it would be like telling them they deserve to be disappointed and they'll call you a class traitor.
tbh, it's not like you owe me an apology for something I don't actually know for a fact that you did. I can't promise I wouldn't cry for a couple different reasons anyway and nobody needs to witness a scene like that.

2024-05-01 04:43:43

do or don't.

2024-05-01 02:28:07

the dudes here are, uh, *very forward* 😂

2024-04-30 20:27:13

- reply

omg!!

2024-04-29 21:32:10

wreckless dead weight abandonment can be a good thing.

2024-04-29 05:43:54

I think about Satoshi often even though people say it was the CIA or the NSA or some secret government project.
I don't believe it, and while my guess as to who he is might be a wild one - there's like a one in a bajillion chance it's him - I like to believe that someday we'll know for sure.
unlikely, I know, but possible.

2024-04-28 06:48:50

NGL, there is this terribly heartbreaking aspect of all of this, which is that the weakest of weak men (money rich, masculinity poor) seem to be under the impression that a good woman wants a man who finds himself egged on and turned off by the designation of a group which has found its safety in the realm of grifters and gifters - the media, the swindlers, the smear factory laborers, the Pharisees of our time, the liars.
what woman wants a man who lets other people trash her with no real reason except banal jealousy, spite, and hatred? shouldn't men be PROTECTING women from becoming the objects of some collective rage due to her perspective, insight, intelligence, or talent?
instead these types originate from the sewers of the internet where men believe women are better off not doing much at all; and why, when that would force him to sacrifice himself in some way or another to protect her in less predictable settings? or worse, to participate fully in raising a family so that she might explore her own ambitions for the sake of balance.
you know what's actually very sexy?
when a man's like "you're right" and he's STILL the one she relies on to do all the things good men are inclined to do. in order for a relationship to be happy, there really doesn't have to be a great deal of intellectual debate, if at all; in fact, I don't LIKE talking to a man I'm dating about politics very much. but respect for a woman's intelligence coincides with her respect for his actions.
thinking and doing are equally important, you know.
personally, I think the best men are the ones who motivate women to APPLY their intelligence to whatever they see fit. equally important, to not be an intertiatic force in her life, as the world provides too much of this already.
women don't really need men to tell them what's right or wrong, or to condemn their thoughts and opinions - nor do we want a man to.
no woman needs or wants a man who will judge her the way the world judges her.

2024-04-28 06:19:56

I'm doing an exegesis on Mein Kampf on twitter rn, not because I'm into Nazi stuff or Hitler, but because for whatever reason the so-called Smartest People on Earth are literally dialectically braindead and keep pushing propaganda.
they really just can't look at all those dead baby videos and think "this is so wrong".
good part is this: people are watching them struggle to conjure up a meaningful justification and it's not working.
all they can do is criticize students and the extremists of any protest who don't necessarily represent the majority of those protestors.
imo, anytime you have to use some edge case scenario to define the matter as a whole, your assumptive reasoning must either be for the sake of engagement or for pandering.
somehow Idiot Supreme has managed to perfect the craft of Engagement Pandering.
we wouldn't want a worldwide anti-Zionist boycott of his products, now would we?
🙂

2024-04-28 06:12:44

💜
#nevent1q…lflj

2024-04-27 05:06:09

it's so weird to watch the growth of a movement that didn't originate with some stupid hashtag, innit?
thank GOD humanity chose not to keep fighting those same, very petty and baseless battles.
yes, I absolutely do hate when aggressors pretend to be victims and victims are blamed as the aggressor.
I also don't like how twitter gave birth to a whole era of Proper Phrasing - a means to identify those who'd been thoroughly brainwashed by the hashtag campaigns.
what I'm super thankful for: that it's ok to hate evil again. there's no club worth being in with anything to gain from the denial. the people who get it don't really care where those arbitrary lines are drawn between love and hate - it is simply the right thing to hate evil in all of its forms instead of loving it.
it is just an unfortunate fact of the matter that too many lies have been told by a singular group of people to keep parsing out who's good and who's bad. it's not like those who have preemptively cast judgment upon another can claim anything except being errantly prone to keeping the ugliest secrets to protect and preserve their status.
good men don't just let other men do that shit to women and children.