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2026-10-08 12:35:24 GMT

mom is going psychotic/delirious again, this time sister called fortunately and doctor and two nurses are supposed to have visited them today, hopefully also social services since they still have no electricity

2026-08-17 21:09:40 GMT

finally a proper cool night

2026-08-06 15:19:59 GMT

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@nprofile…shek (she gave me one of her nuggies

2026-06-19 15:51:15 GMT

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@nprofile…xxfl ok actually let's be more constructive here. in order to embrace things designed in this era you have to understand the mindset exemplified by 90s unix, nowaydays mostly only surviving in older linux tools and the core systems of the BSDs.
IRC is basically a clunky but simple text protocol created with the mindset that parsing complicated things is scary because hand-rolling parser code in C is fragile, and maintaining lots of state is _very_ expensive in addition to the protocol overhead, like just the overhead of user connection state tables mattered to the self-hosters of the era, not to mention the overhead of running various services. using something like XML for the protocol would have been considered stupid levels of overhead.
people also made clunky shit up on the spot because CS knowledge was much more unevenly distributed: see PHP.
but the thing is you can just read RFC 1459 and completely understand the protocol because the design is very mechanical and simple, there's absolutely zero fancy architectures or algorithms involved and the bookkeeping is only as big as it has to be. if you find it complicated you are probably overthinking it or expecting the wall of text to be describing something much more complicated and modern than it actually is

2026-06-19 13:43:37 GMT

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@nprofile…xxfl the irc protocol is actually simple and plain and easy to learn

2026-06-06 18:37:37 GMT

i hate how band-aids are packaged in the exact worst way to open with wet, bleeding fingers, which is one of the primary use cases of the packaging

2026-05-27 22:07:10 GMT

my sister that lives with my mom had been isolating herself from communication for months, and my other sister noticed via telephone that she was drunk a lot
turns out mom had been descending into what is probably frontotemporal lobe dementia _hard_ after years of "not finding the right words" and not remembering things after getting covid
she'd been talking to people that didn't exist, or insisting that the tv be off because "she couldn't hear the people talking to her", sister had been guarding her because she'd just leave the apartment "because murderer's live here"
tonight mom beat the shit out of my sister, and ran out of the apartment and ran howling across the neighborhood until the cops and psych people caught her, she's currently sedated at the psych ward
i was expecting either sudden death or slow cognitive decline and death, not this

2026-04-29 07:31:39 GMT

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@nprofile…shek it's an american ai, the customer is always right

2026-04-18 17:12:50 GMT

the Wages of Sin in popular media: HIV
the Wages of Sin in reality: scabies

2026-04-02 09:54:33 GMT

cleaning day today

2026-04-01 20:01:04 GMT

the astronauts have boarded the manned artemis-2 rocket, they're gonna circle the moon
then in 2028 they hope they're gonna be able to do another manned moon landing
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2026-04-01 15:37:46 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l what's the appeal of harem anime? :akkoWhat:

2026-03-31 20:20:11 GMT

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@nprofile…shek this also applies to nurses i think

2026-03-30 20:30:56 GMT

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@nprofile…qegj that style of machined long distanced skiing track takes me back

2026-03-30 17:29:37 GMT

"you're a slut, you let other dogs lick you"

2026-03-30 11:14:34 GMT

baked cinnamon rolls :blobcat3c:

2026-03-29 18:48:07 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l except with more clothes washing (because linen shirts are not exorbitantly expensive so you can afford more than one

2026-03-28 16:35:44 GMT

wiffen loof

2026-03-28 12:30:23 GMT

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@nprofile…shek >but what if other people are UNDERthinking it

2026-03-28 10:21:01 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l >sovereign >hosted on github :blobcattilt:

2026-03-27 23:18:38 GMT

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@nprofile…kxhc @nprofile…tsag at this point it's been like 15 years

2026-03-27 18:50:46 GMT

the core of the original rabbit paper is that you can do a magic trick where you mechanically convert the code to imperative form by just rewriting it in continuation passing style and then doing all imperative-friendly compiler passes on that before turning it into opcodes/machine instructions
this means that you do not need any other intermediate representation than this, and the representation is still in the original language

2026-03-27 16:55:52 GMT

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@nprofile…wwyk i've heard of it in passing, but i never looked closely at it

2026-03-27 16:51:46 GMT

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@nprofile…wwyk yes well i think developing a runtime is significantly less painful in C compared to other uses of C probably

2026-03-27 16:41:48 GMT

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@nprofile…wwyk i only work like this on the days i take lisdex, and i keep at minimum two days between those

2026-03-27 16:26:22 GMT

coded for 7 hours need to eat

2026-03-27 15:53:52 GMT

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you can bail out of a minor gc into a major gc in a cheney collector by just continuing to scan and update pointers via any fowardings created up to the point of bailing but not doing any new copying, then after that the world is consistent (but split between the heap and the nursery) and you can just run a major gc at that point

2026-03-27 13:24:16 GMT

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i think a consistent model is "if the first byte of an allocated or copied object would be inside the nursery and the last byte outside, trigger a minor gc - if the first byte would be inside the heap and the last byte outside, trigger a major gc"

2026-03-27 13:13:02 GMT

got full generational garbage collection working, now just need to make it trigger automatically when an allocator tries to allocate

2026-03-26 20:29:40 GMT

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@nprofile…shek i have the money
i have the means
i have the strangest dreams

2026-03-26 03:56:11 GMT

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@nprofile…shek american squirrels are actually turning actively predatory due to a lack of small insects

2026-03-25 21:27:56 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l it's a good init system and certainly vastly better than sysvinit which is kind of like starting an airplane using a set of structured electronics breadboards
the whole issue is the insane scope creep
(it should be said that i use devuan with sysvinit for my personal machine, even though using sysvinit at this point is entirely deranged

2026-03-25 17:44:49 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l many weird things happening in the USA make sense once you remember that they are weird in some other way, like the overdiagnosis of schizophrenia in the black male population
in this case, the fact that a big part of the country is actually lowkey fundamentally religious or at least immersed in and required to function in such a culture to the point that it makes no difference

2026-03-25 17:32:02 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l there was near complete silence on AIDS and no resources allocated to investigating or fighting it from the highest positions down because it was viewed as only killing gays who should not be cared about anyway
reagan was at the head of this silence

2026-03-25 08:50:40 GMT

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@nprofile…wwyk @nprofile…shek this is the correct answer

2026-03-25 05:05:44 GMT

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@nprofile…wajc well you can cheat and control the gas prices by starting a war in the middle east, problem is it only works one way :nook_money:

2026-03-25 04:56:20 GMT

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@nprofile…0spr having the impulse to immediately argue when confronted with an idea to the point that not being able to retreat into your own subjectivity becomes profound
that's a thought i've had for a while now regarding a difference between european and american culture, that europeans seem less "stupid" because they actively try to seek out accepted social truth as part of forming opinions to a larger degree, and if they can't do that then they suspend judgement until they can
or maybe i'm being silly and this wasn't written by an american at all

2026-03-24 19:20:32 GMT

82nd airborne is allegedly actively being prepared for iran

2026-03-24 14:59:24 GMT

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@nprofile…ux7q i had a very safe childhood mostly so i can't have an opinion on that, but regarding diagnoses there's two notes here i think: first of all having any of those diagnoses will often directly lead to childhood trauma of various kinds, and second of all they're highly inheritable so autistic and ADHD parents (who can be very dysfunctional) will have autistic and ADHD kids

2026-03-24 13:03:03 GMT

"maybe if i wear my collar to the arbeitsamt they'll realize i'm unemployable and leave me alone"

2026-03-24 12:03:23 GMT

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@nprofile…shek
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2026-03-24 10:06:45 GMT

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@nprofile…0spr this is such an american statement

2026-03-23 15:02:57 GMT

if i was actually given to depression i'd be legitimately sad that it's taken me this long to find a medication that just completely alleviates my problems and allows me to work at the level i've known i'm supposed to work at since middle school

2026-03-23 11:30:33 GMT

particularly happy about how the garbage collector is turning out with some principled tagged pointer management https://git.shadowkat.net/whiteline/Nahemoth/src/commit/bcfd5fa044ed52cfc161b5b814c32b99b67fd3f5/cheney.c

2026-03-22 20:17:58 GMT

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@nprofile…lfj8 this is like those oversized swords they forged for ceremonial purposes

2026-03-22 14:09:58 GMT

with the new glasses i see so many cobwebs i didn't notice before :neocat_woozy:

2026-03-22 10:04:39 GMT

wife will be home today, happy times

2026-03-21 18:40:24 GMT

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@nprofile…4c5e sea doggy

2026-03-21 18:18:44 GMT

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@nprofile…x5xx @nprofile…qzwa why wouldn't they switch to the euro instead of the yuan, seems more politically neutral

2026-03-21 16:17:18 GMT

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@nprofile…shek feetin toerantino

2026-03-20 21:27:19 GMT

frau doktor, i need the knark

2026-03-20 13:57:46 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l yes via the paid gmail edition, but i have no experience with this

2026-03-20 13:46:53 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l it is very difficult to impossible to run small scale email operations anymore in a way that e.g. gmail accepts
do you have an actual reason not to use gmail?

2026-03-20 13:15:01 GMT

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@nprofile…shek us

2026-03-20 13:03:02 GMT

@nprofile…ux7q got my new glasses, they work perfectly, thanks again :blobcatcomfy:

2026-03-19 19:28:26 GMT

>don't laugh, don't laugh, don't laugh....
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2026-03-19 09:48:30 GMT

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@nprofile…u8md @nprofile…hu5l still requires a postgresql database behind it though

2026-03-10 15:10:14 GMT

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@nprofile…tsag when i have something meaningful and working as i define it

2026-03-10 14:24:53 GMT

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@nprofile…0spr does this work well with vgdb?

2026-03-10 14:13:09 GMT

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also managed to learn how to use GDB properly

2026-03-10 14:04:58 GMT

fixed the last pointer alignment bug, actually have a working runtime + assembler with function calls, now onwards onto working flat closures

2026-03-05 18:33:37 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l @nprofile…t3h7 the failure to actually get collective farming working is a common theme in state socialism, which is interesting, you'd think it'd be one of the easier things to collectivize

2026-03-05 17:58:20 GMT

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@nprofile…shek my grandpas favorite card playing line was "they'd shoot you for that in texas"

2026-03-05 17:56:26 GMT

playing poker with wife, and after like 10 rounds she finally notices that she's sitting with her back to a giant mirror :buncowboy:

2026-03-05 08:42:28 GMT

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@nprofile…tsag making a runtime mostly based on lua5, BEAM and MIT scheme that i can target with a custom lisp compiler developed in parallel
it's part of a bigger project to create a runtime that can support self-mobile agents

2026-03-04 20:27:29 GMT

actually have a working assembler (in scheme) and a runtime (in C11) that can load and execute bytecode now

2026-03-03 13:54:25 GMT

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i love when my wife steals my keyboard and posts on irc and fedi

2026-03-03 13:53:43 GMT

woof woof I'm a dog

2026-03-01 13:02:43 GMT

got sexually assaulted by a trans girl in a bathroom
i mean it was my wife and it was our bathroom but, the principle of the matter

2026-03-01 09:26:59 GMT

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@nprofile…t3h7 that's those ever-expanding string implants that got banned - you implant an irritating artificial fiber string inside the breast so the body keeps trying to isolate it with fluid, causing the breasts to never stop swelling like balloons, it's kinda horrible...

2026-02-28 18:24:58 GMT

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@nprofile…shek you are not 💜

2026-02-28 18:08:17 GMT

it's a "wife drinking three beers and listening to tiamat" kind of day

2026-02-28 14:17:30 GMT

i hate how abrasive stims make me, but i need them to do studying/advanced work :blobcatsad:

2026-02-28 09:26:14 GMT

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@nprofile…3hmk @nprofile…dy20 if the USA had spent every cent it spent on stupid military adventurism (as opposed to strategic empire building) on social welfare and infrastructure instead it would never have come to the brink of collapse

2026-02-27 16:18:24 GMT

they're building a direct cable under the north pole between seattle, japan, and my hometown :blobcat3c:

2026-02-27 15:36:41 GMT

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@nprofile…tsag @nprofile…t3h7 @nprofile…fsu6 he's on drugs i think

2026-02-27 11:45:04 GMT

chat, is not showering leftist praxis?
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2026-02-26 21:34:46 GMT

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@nprofile…s6ys well surely she will diagnose you with something but GAD is when you have anxiety for no reason not attached to anything specific.
i meant more that approach with both mental healthcare and otherwise seems easy - you have anxiety for no reason (and have always had it?), and it is that simple

2026-02-26 21:24:54 GMT

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@nprofile…s6ys you clearly suffer from generalized anxiety disorder separate from whatever other problems you have, you should approach it from that angle - "i just have anxiety for no reason and it interferes with my functioning and well-being"

2026-02-26 18:20:27 GMT

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@nprofile…eh9a @nprofile…tsag the thing that makes gypsies development a lot less weird is that they where enslaved in a form of indentured servitude for many hundreds of years in the hungaria-romania area, notably in a way where they where as a community self-sufficient and somewhat mobile but still slaves
not from a "sympathy" perspective but from an "oh, so that's how they turned out that specific weird way" perspective

2026-02-26 12:45:23 GMT

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@nprofile…q49y they will poop

2026-02-26 12:01:33 GMT

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@nprofile…tsag yeah but like, you can't just say you disallow something while obviously profiting / receiving some sort of benefit (keeping the prices of lootbox items high) from it anyway, that's not how law works

2026-02-26 09:06:52 GMT

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@nprofile…shek the paprika was exactly where it belonged @_@

2026-02-25 19:42:49 GMT

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@nprofile…shek this is so you-coded

2026-02-24 23:07:32 GMT

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@nprofile…04yf yeah "the superfluous man" is the natural protagonist of the times but people don't want to engage with that for whatever reason

2026-02-24 19:27:01 GMT

i really hate not just being able to provide for us like a normal person

2026-02-22 22:36:32 GMT

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@nprofile…q49y incrementally building a game is a good model for the grand-scale strategy games, but it fails for most other type of games

2026-02-22 21:17:22 GMT

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@nprofile…x3w8 insallah they will be fed captagon and put to work

2026-02-22 20:49:24 GMT

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@nprofile…shek are you taking shrooms again, be careful honey...

2026-02-22 17:57:20 GMT

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@nprofile…shek the train conductor knows you are high but he does not care because he's used to berliners

2026-02-21 22:00:17 GMT

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@nprofile…shek this might be the ultimate ADHD autism fusion post tbh

2026-02-21 09:22:32 GMT

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@nprofile…hu5l this looks eerily similar to our apartment, same style of oven, same kind of small sink, same windows, same little lamp hanging from a wire...

2026-02-20 20:53:04 GMT

so tired

2026-02-20 19:36:00 GMT

it is time
for paracetamol

2026-02-20 19:14:01 GMT

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@nprofile…dugj *slaps top of soldier* "you wouldn't believe how much trauma fits in one of these babies"

2026-02-20 17:41:05 GMT

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@nprofile…5n8n because the PMC only see the products they are sold?

2026-02-20 17:40:23 GMT

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@nprofile…shek it's actually full of stacks

2026-02-20 17:11:43 GMT

my wife rn
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2026-02-20 16:44:48 GMT

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@nprofile…shek this is the kind of high-level thinking that can only be produced using mind-altering substances tbh

2026-02-10 20:59:11 GMT

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@nprofile…0spr @nprofile…p9a6 @nprofile…z9f3 @nprofile…tsag
but each of those people in steps knew each other and greatly influenced each other and the people we call parents
being aware how extremely fucked up great-grandma was makes me aware why grandma was kinda fucked up and why she kicked out dad so early leading to etc.
same as being aware that grandpa was a narcissist means i understand why mom is a neurotic wreck etc., just with more steps