Katie Cruz

Girl Lover :gl: :tgl:, MAP :map:, Korephile
AoA = <14ish, prefer 9-13
Lesbian
Progressive
Romantic
Grey Asexual/Demisexual
Hedonist
Writer, Artist
MAP Activist suffering from burnout
Christian, but not a perfect one
DO NOT SEND ME ILLEGAL CONTENT!

A MAP In Love - A Blog by Katie Cruz: https://amapin.love
The Mirror Project: https://mirror.amapin.love
MAP Merch Shop: https://mapmerch.shop
Contact: https://amapin.love/contact

Public Key

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NIP-05 Address

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Profile Code

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Last Notes

2026-05-31 01:27:28 GMT

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Because no one wants to see his ugly face.

2026-02-24 03:58:55 GMT

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Beer is gross, but beer bread, and beer battered fish are good. I’ll occasionally drink a “cheerleader beer” like Smirnoff Ice or a Mikes Hard.

2026-02-23 05:44:38 GMT

Apparently the US government is planning to offer a VPN. That certainly raises some red flags. This video also talks about some of the other surveillance software being used on websites and their links to ICE. The internet is becoming a dystopia for privacy.
https://youtu.be/LE9U85tefj8

2026-02-23 03:35:10 GMT

Question for my non-American friends:
I was browsing Reddit and found a post highlighting the trash just found on the ground all over a nearby city. Unfortunately, this is common in many places in America. How common is this in your country? Is this a uniquely American problem?
https://www.reddit.com/r/Indiana/s/oWB2w7PJOU

2026-02-12 19:03:49 GMT

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Not sure what Solarpunk is, but that flag looks hella cool!

2026-02-01 07:41:10 GMT

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Congrats. I hope this is the first step to a better future for you.

2026-01-30 17:17:02 GMT

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Help, I accidentally created a new email address to get my name out of the game for the first time since I was born.

2026-01-09 22:27:52 GMT

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Yeah, I don’t have the attention span to mess with a private server. Can barely manage all the tech stuff I’m doing now.
Signal requires a phone number to sign up, but it can be removed. Haven’t heard anything about a breach.

2026-01-09 22:12:45 GMT

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I think everyone needs to move to Signal away from Matrix. Matrix is jank and frustrating. Signal is polished, just works, and the encryption is trusted by people in the DoD for planning military operations.

2026-01-01 00:10:58 GMT

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They call it grooming, I call it dating. They call her victim, she calls me lover.
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2025-12-23 01:12:14 GMT

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But gift card payments require fewer steps than cashing out crypto.
And a manual order with a gift card wouldn't automatically transfer to the distributor, so it wouldn't wipe out the reserve funding.

2025-12-23 01:06:20 GMT

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I disabled Monero payments in October 2024
https://amapin.love/2024/10/10/map-merch-shop-is-discontinuing-monero-as-a-payment-option/

2025-12-23 01:05:06 GMT

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When I was in charge of MMS, I wanted the site to run with minimal intervention. I was operating on very low reserve funding, and didn't have the executive function or the patience to babysit the site to make sure a crypto order didn't wipe out our funding source in distributor costs.

2025-12-23 00:57:41 GMT

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We started accepting gift cards by email due to popular demand. Many people prefer that over entering their info on the site.

2025-12-23 00:46:49 GMT

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I had it setup to accept XMR for awhile. Only a few people used it, and it confused people who didn't want to use crypto. And it was a pain in the ass to manually cash out for fiat, because the crypto wallet doesn't interface with a crypto exchange.
I think the new owner of MMS is interested in adding crypto sometime down the line. Perhaps she can find a better solution, or would be willing to deal with the headache of manually cashing out.

2025-12-23 00:34:50 GMT

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I wish the price were lower, but our distributors and the Trump tariffs determine the costs. I cut it down to a minimum markup. The distributor recommended selling them for $150.
So you can always purchase a prepaid gift card for the exact amount. That way, you're not risking your whole bank account.
Some people don't even put their names on orders, opting for something generic like "Valued Customer."
Unfortunately, I don't know a good way to not include a shipping address.

2025-12-23 00:11:58 GMT

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Johnny Knoxville

2025-12-22 23:37:40 GMT

Embroidery is now available from MAP Merch Shop
https://mmsnw.com/product-tag/embroidery/
#MAPMerchShop #MMSHoodies #MMSEmbroidery
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2025-12-04 17:51:33 GMT

New alert from MAP Merch Shop regarding potential fake merch sites started by antis.
#MAPMerchShop
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2025-11-27 17:04:42 GMT

Not sure if this is legit suggestion or a bad attempt at #MMSHateMail
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2025-11-13 00:53:14 GMT

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I posted that as a bit of a passive aggressive rant about people arguing contact discourse, when the issue of contact is so far away from being relevant. There’s so many more things in society and our movement that need to happen before contact discourse becomes relevant. I don’t understand why people focus so much on it.

2025-11-11 05:53:13 GMT

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“Children should be allowed to live their lives as they wish.“
Sounds good.

2025-11-07 22:34:33 GMT

I’m gonna be candid with y’all. I’ve been very stressed these last few months, with all the antis targeting me. This has been amplified by my chronic health issues. I’ve spent nights crying over voice calls with other MAPs. I’ve contemplated walking away from the MAP community, giving up on all the activism I’ve done and have planned. I’ve contemplated offing myself to be over it all. And had it not been for my mom, I probably would have done it by now. I can’t bear the thought of taking away my mom’s only child. But that reason to stay alive is getting harder to uphold.
I’ve gotten so much empathy, support, and forgiveness from the MAP community. People offering their time. People saying they appreciate what I do. People saying they admire my integrity. People saying my blog helped them accept themselves. All of this encouragement is what keeps me going, and I thank you all for that. You don’t know how much it means to me.
I seen Lecter’s post about Ozzy, taking their own life due to the harassment and abuse by antis. My first reaction, without even thinking is “✊🏻 This is why we fight!” And that’s the right reaction. We’ve come too far to give up now. This community has come too far to give up. Too many of our people are dying because of the systemic abuse we receive from society. We can’t roll over when we face injustice. I’ll do my damndest to make sure none of these deaths are in vain. I’m not going anywhere. We fight on! ✊🏻

2025-11-07 18:11:02 GMT

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Holy shit dude, seizure warning!

2025-10-30 06:09:09 GMT

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For me, I dreaded turning 18, because I knew I could no longer date younger girls. I’ve hated my birthday ever since. It’s just another reminder that I can’t be with the ones I find attractive.

2025-10-30 05:30:50 GMT

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Two days until he turns 18, which is when everything starts going down hill for MAPs.

2025-10-28 17:59:29 GMT

One of the antis who made a video about me said, "Katie Cruz is the worst example of LGBTQ.
I'm gonna put that on a shirt.

2025-10-20 21:46:09 GMT

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And the first video we had taken down is back up. What the fuck?! Please report this one as well.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Ob2NU9u3FQ

2025-10-18 19:53:42 GMT

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Report this one while you're at it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XhopGTSvnlY

2025-10-18 19:42:56 GMT

Mass report this motherfucker! Repost so others can mass report.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cxcn54i7Qlo

2025-09-28 07:20:04 GMT

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I’m in the Apple walled garden. I don’t think there’s a Jailbreak for my iPad, so there is no pirating to my knowledge.

2025-09-27 16:43:58 GMT

How do y’all get smooth lines on your digital drawings? Are you on a computer with mouse, are you using a Wacom-like device, are you on a tablet or iPad with a stylus? What software are you using? Is it raster or vector? Are you drawing freehand, or clicking and adding points with a pen tool? Are you using a predictive line feature to help smooth the lines?
I’m on an iPad with Apple Pencil using a raster app called Sketch-up. It has predictive line, which works well. But when I don’t use it, I just can’t get the precision I get with analog pencil and paper.
What are you all using? Do I need to invest in Procreate?

2025-09-07 18:46:44 GMT

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Another thing that's sus, I right-clicked to attempt to go into the code inspector, but right-clicking seems to have been disabled.
In the code inspector, it shows a Twitter handle. When viewing on Twitter, the account has no posts, no bio, and no picture, and was created in May 2025.
The code also links to a site called schema dot org, which looks to be some kind of AI knowledge bank.
The word "fellowship" is used on the site. That's a word I use frequently on my sites, and I think it might be used by B4U-ACT, but I rarely see others using it. I'm wondering if this was generated by AI that scraped from my sites or B4U-ACT. It almost seems like a rewrite of the MEDAL mission statement.
The code also has a script for Google Tag Manager, which is used for Google analytics and advertising. I don't know much about Google Tag Manager, and if it could be exploited to track users. It very well could be a legitimate use case.
Delving deeper, there is an IP logging script. That is an extreme red flag for this type of site.
https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/115/164/364/490/560/650/original/6007d64895be6410.png
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2025-09-07 18:09:10 GMT

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When I go to the site, it says "Error fetching IP address details" in the top left corner. That is very sus.
The homepage has a video of Miranda Galbraith, who is a legit therapist and an ally to the MAP community. And it claims she is one of their leaders. Does anyone have contact info for Miranda to verify if she is affiliated with this site?
https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/115/164/334/258/112/051/original/43279d2b5c331792.png

2025-09-07 16:59:50 GMT

So this is on the header of Newgon, claiming a new MAP site is fraudulent and trying to collect sensitive information. Has anyone heard of this site: minorattractedpersons dot org ?
Can anyone confirm whether it's fraudulent or if it's legit, or who might be behind it?
https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/115/164/060/579/334/994/original/44a4d8932701b9b5.png

2025-09-06 04:14:14 GMT

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Thank you for your concern. I am right with my Lord and Savior.

2025-09-06 04:09:26 GMT

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As a matter of fact, I have read that passage. It's not talking about literal children, but those little in faith.
https://amapin.love/2023/08/07/is-minor-attraction-a-sin-in-the-christian-faith/

2025-09-06 04:03:19 GMT

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I'm sorry you feel that way.

2025-09-06 03:37:06 GMT

Holy crap, I was playing with my music visualizer, and it did this. Watch til the end.
https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/115/155/244/447/363/613/original/b4173112358eabad.mp4

2025-05-15 14:38:11 GMT

Who’s more delusional? The ones who think they have a chance of changing age of consent laws in our lifetime? Or the ones who are afraid the former will succeed?

2025-03-02 23:32:46 GMT

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Basically it just read what I wrote on my site, along with a few posts by antis on Twitter. It didn’t have to dig that hard to find all that.

2025-03-02 23:29:22 GMT

Someone asked Twitter’s AI Grok who I am. It wrote a nice biography about me.
https://x.com/jamesmykil/status/1895178891805004109
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2025-03-01 18:09:31 GMT

Gays Against Groomers is crying about MAP Merch Shop again. And you can laugh at their tears with our "Mean Tweets GAG Boo Fuckin Hoo" matte poster. Starting under $14.
https://mapmerch.shop/product/mean-tweets-gag-boo-fuckin-hoo-matte-posters/
#MAPMerchShop #MMSPosters
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2025-03-01 09:04:13 GMT

This is a great video that explains what we should be doing as the resistance, and as the MAP community, if we ever want to be free. #ThisIsOurStonewall ✊🏻
https://youtu.be/By1Z1nk31iE

2025-01-21 22:56:00 GMT

I got this strange email today. Apparently I'm an elementary school teacher. That's news to me. This person also emailed other random accounts with some variation of katie or kcruz as the handle. I hope they're not hassling another innocent person.
I'm tempted to troll him by sending a video of me flipping the middle finger in front of the MAP flag with my AR. "Don't bring a pistol to an AR fight." 🤣
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2024-10-28 16:11:07 GMT

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"they keep making bad decisions."
That's insulting to so many hardworking people. My generation was promised the American dream. Just go to college, get an education and we'd be set. But then we had economic recessions, that put us out of work. Crippling student debt. The cost of living increasing while our wages remain stagnant. That's unsustainable. My grandpa put in a good 30 years with his company, and was able to retire in his early 60s, and was set for life. My parents worked into their 60s, and they seem to be doing ok. When I was working, I was full-time, yet I didn't make enough to save. I was living paycheck to paycheck. Had I not gotten sick, I would have never been able to retire. And now I'm worried, because I can't work, and Trump's Project 2025 plans to dismantle social security and medicare... both of which I paid into.

2024-10-28 15:55:12 GMT

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Those who have money are the ones who control it. Wealthy corporations use their money to make more money. The working class uses their money to survive. For many people, there's no way to get ahead.

2024-10-28 15:47:18 GMT

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Except corporations are controlling the wealth.

2024-10-28 15:45:04 GMT

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Sounds about like capitalism... 1% of the US population controls more of the wealth than the bottom 99%. The wealth gap has only expanded since at least the 1980s. Sounds like it's slowly failing to me.

2024-10-28 15:40:55 GMT

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Ask Denmark, Sweden, Finland, Norway, Switzerland, and The Netherlands how great socialism is.

2024-10-26 19:28:17 GMT

Is anyone else stressed about the upcoming US election? It's statistically tied.
If Kamala wins, it's a bright future for our country and the world. Sunshine and rainbows. Peace, love, and progress.
But if Trump wins, we all lose. It's constant chaos. It's the end of democracy. It's rounding up immigrants into concentration camps and deporting them. Hopefully, that's the worst he would do to them. It's a national sales tax and loss of the labor force that will put us into an economic depression. It's the lack of bodily autonomy. It's the military being deployed against US citizens. It's a volatile imbecile with his finger on the nuclear button.
The gravitas of another Donald Trump presidency is sobering. I've had pain in my chest for the last few weeks.

2024-10-09 09:05:48 GMT

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I agree with a lot of what you said there. My problem isn't with his contact stance. It's that he's so obnoxious about it, and that he won't accept incremental steps that would likely bring us closer to his goal. I honestly think the person is a troll, but apparently the site admins disagree, as they've promoted him to senior member. 🤦🏼‍♀️

2024-10-09 07:17:54 GMT

There's this user on one of the MAP forums who really annoys the shit out of me. Like, this dude only thinks with his dick. Every post he makes has something to do with wanting to have sex with children. It's like this person is exhibiting every trope that antis and society think about MAPs.
I shared my post about why Kamala Harris is the best candidate for the children we love. He's like "But she doesn't support sex with children."
Motherfucker, find me a viable candidate who does. I'll wait. You ain't gonna find one. That's the only issue this person cares about. Even though Kamala Harris isn't going to legalize sex with children, she's gonna do a lot of cool things. Vote for the candidate that gets you closer to the future you want. Don't let perfect be the enemy of good.
Same thing... I posted The Simple List awhile back. The Simple List has a lot of progressive and achievable goals, without being divisive on contact stance. The Simple List isn't meant to be an exhaustive list of things that one can support. One can simultaneously support other goals too. But this motherfucker is like "No I don't support all these good, progressive goals for The MAP Community, because it doesn't legalize sex with children."
It's just so fuckin irritating. This kind of mindset is part of what holds the community back. Think with your other head, dude.
#Rant

2024-07-31 19:30:11 GMT

So the person operating The Para Files is being impersonated online. They're angry that someone is drawing penises on their animal fursona. They also mentioned handles to their mainstream social media...
everyponyy (insta)
bayponyy (NSFW insta)
Everyponie (twt)
Batponie (NSFW twt)
Everyponie (tumblr)
It's such a shame that someone is defacing this person's artwork. It's also a shame that someone is impersonating them. And it would really be a shame if someone doxed them.
Gee, I hope none of you get any ideas now. That would be horrible.
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