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This profile is a short form writing project by someone odd, and a place to post my creative endeavors.

I suffer from - Tourettes, ADHD, OCD and PTSD and my life is as strange as they get.

I run a YouTube, and Scoopz channel with shorts and photography being posted regularly, all named JARRENoMgWtF.

I accept donations, but I do all this for fun in the end.

You can find my social links in my about if you are curious!

-Jarren

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2026-04-28 20:06:18 GMT

I feel lucky to have a free apartment that is more nice than any I've rented before, and many would be envious of.
Then I remember that I had to almost die like 20 times to get it, and suffered homeless for half a decade mostly because of disabilities I did not fully understand, and the resulting addiction.
I could have had an entire house on my own accord if I would have been helped sooner.
#mentalhealth #health #writing #life #usa

2026-04-19 23:22:38 GMT

I don't often do fundraising for myself but I'll make an exception because I find myself in a garbage situation -
I am staying at a shelter for medical recovery after almost dying and, and I will definitely have an apartment in about a month.
Until then I'm not sure what to do.I lost my job in the process of almost dying.
If you could spare anything, or have a place around #losangeles I could stay..
My cash app is linked in About :)
#help #fedihelp #mastodon #fundraising #signalboost

2026-01-13 01:40:41 GMT

I am grateful I am #sober and responsible now, and I have given the management for the sober living house I stay at a kind impression after getting attacked earlier.
Violent people will always throw the victim under the bus to save themselves, and he told both the #police and owner I had put my hands on him first and provoked it and I now have to take him to court.
However he is now #homeless while everyone I know is making sure I'm okay.
I'm not.
But I will be.
#writing #mentalhealth

2026-01-11 04:38:07 GMT

There was a point I could barely walk to the grocery store and back, my #health was absolutely terrible for a while at the tail end of my #addiction and beginning of #sobriety a few years ago.
Last night I got lost and missed the last bus home after closing for a new job, and decided I didn't want to wait in the cold until 4 AM so I casually walked 11 miles home.
After walking at work about another 10ish miles, and beginning my day with a 3 mile stroll.
Legs were fine.
#writing #fitness

2025-12-18 18:54:57 GMT

Trying to find a meaningful existence in the modern day is a difficult one, but I think I finally figured out mine:
The #usa has a massive #mentalhealth and #addiction problem, and here is sit with all this random knowledge about #neuroscience #medicine and mental health myself due to being extremely curious, and having a bunch of problems myself.
I want to be on the front line of trying to solve those problems.
It'll be endless, and a hard job.
People have to try though.
#writing #life

2025-12-15 16:25:16 GMT

My #life is genuinely stable and good now.
It's strange, my mind almost doesn't know what to do with the stability and I always have a low grade #anxiety nagging at me, wondering when it's all gonna fall apart.
Then it never does, and I start planning for my future with #education plans and a part time job that pays me more than I need, and then I wonder if I actually deserve it.
I remind myself that I always did. It was others who made me think otherwise.
#writing #mentalhealth #ptsd #rant

2025-12-08 20:25:20 GMT

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@nprofile…shhu I never want to touch a stimulant stronger than caffeine again after getting unknowingly drugged with meth for two weeks and just thinking I was going fucking insane.

2025-12-08 17:41:01 GMT

What do energy drink names even mean?
They're the same as men's deodorant where they're scared of saying what it actually tastes/smells like as they think men won't buy them if it sounds too "girly".
Like what the hell is "white haze" flavor? No idea but it's amazing and has like 3 cups of coffee worth of caffeine. Cuz nothing says "manly" like an early morning heart attack, and a drink with a really dumbass name!
#writing #humor #food

2025-11-28 17:57:19 GMT

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@nprofile…shhu Well you can always send me a PM if you even feel like you're going to if you can't talk to someone.
I'm about to start a degree to be a counselor anyway.

2025-11-27 22:30:25 GMT

I am happier than I have ever been.
All it took was a few good people, and some support and then I was able to stay sober, and focus on repairing all the #mentalhealth damage I had received.
Every time I relapsed in the past, I always felt crushingly isolated, and as an extrovert with five people's worth of #empathy the loneliness would hurt.
#drugs were what I used for pain both physically and mentally.
People were what I was missing, and I'm thankful for that the most.
#writing #addiction

2025-11-24 23:12:54 GMT

Well there's about a 90% chance I'll be starting school in Spring to begin an associates degree to become a counselor for either #mentalhealth or #addiction and have all the funding/support I need to pull it off.
Then I'll have a #job that means the world to me, and I never minded a difficult job if it meant I was actually doing something meaningful, and/or helpful to people.
Then if that goes well I'll continue to try and be a neurologist one day.
I feel amazing.
#writing #education #life

2025-11-14 20:56:06 GMT

I've been listening to lectures and talks from #Neurologists who hold PHDs in their field of study.
I think I need to go get a PHD in #neurology because I understand absolutely everything they say because I studied it for a decade straight trying to figure out my own bullshit.
#writing #health

2025-11-13 19:33:02 GMT

#losangeles is WILD and I have a #story of something that just occured 20 minutes ago and I haven't fully processed yet...
...I crossed a street at a crosswalk, and then almost got run over by a 12 year old who was blasting through the light, and then his drunk mom got out of the passenger seat and started yelling at me.
Told me the watch where I was going when it was a crosswalk.
I had nothing and was shocked, so I walked away more confused than I have EVER been.
#writing #humor #crime

2025-11-12 16:20:56 GMT

People were starving and the #gop is just trying to sneak in provisions into bills that would shamelessly give several #maga senators half a million dollars for "personal damages".
Why? Cuz of some #legal battle related issues.
These people aren't even trying to hide their corruption anymore, but at least it's causing the GOP to be attacking one another right before a vote on releasing the #EpsteinFiles
These people are FOUL!
#writing #uspol #government #news #politics #corruption

2025-11-06 22:50:22 GMT

I think everyone in the #us government just wanted a sign that #trump and #maga were no longer popular, and could be defied.
Now that the blue wave has started, and all those special elections went blue, institutions like the #fbi and the Supreme Court are beginning to speak out against, and defy Trump and the GOP.
They know his power isn't absolute now, and that their jobs aren't at stake if they begin defying him.
They also probably want to save their own reputation.
#writing #uspol #news

2025-11-06 17:44:32 GMT

While I am happy the #usa finally decided to release some emergency benefits for #snap -
Why do I have the feeling even with only half the usual benefits getting distributed, I still won't get my #foodstamps until 5 days before I am supposed to get next month's deposit?
I am glad I am frugal and had some saved up already.
Otherwise I'd be totally screwed and going to food banks right now which have massive lines.
#writing #uspol #poverty #politics #news #rant

2025-11-02 17:09:29 GMT

Hey guys, I found a mad scientist and you need to go watch all his videos immediately -
https://youtu.be/lix-vr_AF38

2025-11-01 18:21:46 GMT

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@nprofile…ustj Being homeless in Idaho may have sucked due to almost no resources, but I do miss how friendly people were and how you could have a normal ass random conversation with just about anyone.
Walk into a bar and see smiles instead of suspicion.

2025-11-01 16:54:18 GMT

Benefits to living across the street from a church-
Who needs #snap ?
They gave me like 2 months worth of food after the manager at the new independent living house I've found mentioned my EBT issues to them.
Then he gave me a bunch too.
I think I actually found the one house in #losangeles actually trying to help #disabled people and not take advantage of them.
I was apprehensive.
I'm not anymore.
I found good people for once and they're all sober, and helpful.
#writing #life

2025-11-01 16:47:44 GMT

People in my new neighborhood actually smile and wave at people walking by, and don't drive like sociopaths on a mission to nowhere.
I thought it was Shadow Hills, but it's actually Sunland which is north of the Burbank/Glendale area nestled up in a valley.
It doesn't feel like #losangeles at all, even though it technically is.
I live a block from a park leading to a bunch of mountainous hiking trails, I think I have some nature to be in after being stuck in urban hell.
#writing #travel

2025-11-01 01:40:06 GMT

I wonder if #trump realizes that a ton of his supporters use #foodstamps.
You'd be surprised, but a TON of #homeless and #disabled people LOVE him. Probably not anymore after they struggle to feed themselves this month.
I'll be fine as I have quite a back stock from never using it all, only needing about 120 a month.
However I know a ton of less fortunate people, and Trump is about to lose about 20% of his followers with this #shutdown.
Not to mention fed employees.
#usa #writing #uspol

2025-10-26 17:41:08 GMT

Walking around with cuts on my face, and a brace on my middle finger is getting some interesting looks with me dressed like an agent or a spy or something.
Some women all look at me as if they're wondering who I messed up, and if maybe it could be their ex boyfriend next.
Men who look a bit sketchy all look away real quick and run away somewhere else.
Other people dunno what happened but look curious and I'd tell em if they asked.
I should dress like a spy more often.
#humor #writing

2025-10-26 15:10:21 GMT

Hey I found the weapon I need to survive #losangeles downtown if I ever go back.
Santa Monica Beach is much nicer.
Think I'll hang here from now on.
But mugging a mugger was still sorta badass.
I just wish he had stuff worth mugging.
Probably why he was trying to rob me
#writing #photography #humor
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2025-10-26 12:47:00 GMT

I wonder how the guy who tried to mug me is doing in #losangeles county #jail.
Never been but it really doesn't sound fun.
Especially after getting mauled by the angriest man alive.
His face was leaking from multiple places into the asphalt in the middle of the intersection of 7th and Hope.
Coming down from stimulants.
I got to sleep in a hospital bed and had a bunch of cute nurses and a hot doctor make me feel like a badass and give me snacks.
#writing #losangeles #crime #humor

2025-10-26 03:46:47 GMT

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@nprofile…kz46 I dunno but don't try and steal a crazy guy's phone.

2025-10-26 02:39:27 GMT

I am in the ER after getting attached by a bath salt zombie.
At least I have a bed tonight
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2025-10-25 21:37:17 GMT

I can now walk continuously for 12 hours straight and only have mildly sore legs.
Not slow walking either. My average pace is more like a jog to most people and I walk like a #soviet soldier for some reason and I have no idea why.
Possibly all the Soviet side WW2 movies my mom loved to watch and I thought they were cool and figured "THAT'S HOW A BOY SHOULD WALK!".
Anyway, let's say 4 mph.
That's like 45 miles straight.
If I kicked someone they'd sublimate.
#writing #humor #fitness #health

2025-10-08 05:58:14 GMT

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@nprofile…85tn I mean that way is nice, but I like my way more because they'll never ask me a dumb question again.

2025-10-07 22:28:21 GMT

If anyone ever tells you to act your age, I have an amazing response that works every single time in derailing their rage-train into screaming nonsense, or shutting them up:
"Well how the f**k old am I acting anyway?"
Nobody ever does and they don't have a response yet.
So it will completely stop them for a moment and it's the funniest look you've ever seen.
#writing #humor #funny #lifelessons

2025-10-07 19:30:35 GMT

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@nprofile…mkea I know it does have traits.
But like everything it is on a spectrum.
It is very possible my brain is close, but not quite there.
I never fully lose my sense of logic nor hallucinate unless I haven't slept for days.
Unless that's how it works.

2025-10-07 19:11:11 GMT

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@nprofile…mkea I can imagine things so vividly it is like I am there again.
If I am stressed or in pain I remember it differently as emotions corrupt the picture.
I remember correctly once I have calmed down and can regain logic.
If I never calm down, I never regain logical thinking to see the correct picture.

2025-10-07 18:54:01 GMT

With this photographic memory I fully understand how someone can become delusional and seem like they have schizophrenia now.
You get so stressed it corrupts your picture and you stop registering logical context because all the information you're working with is corrupted.
Your basic files are wrong and lead you somewhere made of nonsense.
Stress causes this if great enough, and my brain makes whole worlds that never happened if I don't sleep well.
#writing #mentalhealth #neuroscience #rant

2025-10-04 18:08:16 GMT

My mom is getting better.
I grieved her like she was dead because her brain was so damaged by alcohol use and trauma that she lost her soul.
I saved her by figuring out what was wrong with us. By #learning and seeing what every doctor in the #usa could not.
I spoke to her and heard the woman I used to know.
My magnum opus is complete.
#writing #writingcommunity #health #medicine #mentalhealth

2025-10-04 16:29:27 GMT

I have another question -
How come when some men cook, they get more seasoning on the entire stove than the #food they are trying to season, then don't notice nor clean it up, and cause someone with #obsessivecompulsivedisorder to clean the kitchen for an hour before they can make coffee as they f**cked the entire thing up?
I live with children and they're older than me.
#writing #humor #goodmorning

2025-09-06 21:54:05 GMT

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@nprofile…mkea I did used it to successfully get off of opioids.
I was a hardcore junkie for a couple years.
So I can't hate it, but a few times I lost my kratom and couldn't immediately replace it, and I felt HORRIBLE.
I was going through straight up opioid withdrawal six months after no actual opioids. Just not as intense.
So it has uses.
Buuuut...
I dunno if it should be available to any random idiot because it is dangerous mixed with alcohol and it can intoxicate you by itself.

2025-08-25 00:16:31 GMT

Some people spend like 100 dollars on a cup, then buy like 70 of them for some reason.
I'll use the same Brisk Lemonade bottle for two weeks until I accidentally leave it somewhere and forget, and then I have an excuse to buy another lemonade!
I have other cups.
Usually that I found at a thrift store and couldn't possibly imagine spending 100 when I'll find a mug that's 4 and go "nah, too pricey,".
The Brisk just had a cap, and I'm clumsy.
#writing #humor #randomthoughts

2025-08-21 02:01:23 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt This is the kind of story that only substances would generate.
I got knocked out once because a friend who was about 5 foot 2 (and very intoxicated) decided to get angry with someone who was about 7 feet tall and built like a bear.
I made the mistake of trying to convince a drunk human bear to not continue caving my friends face in.
Don't do drugs kids, or this may be your day at some point.

2025-08-21 01:50:15 GMT

Sometimes as an adult you remember something from being a teenager that absolutely wasn't okay, but you barely thought about it for more than a day afterwards.
I just had such a moment.
I briefly worked at a telephone survey company when I was about 16. A 33 year old woman was always flirting with me, which I awkwardly took as a joke.
Then she figured out my cellphone number and invited me over one day, and I told her I had a girlfriend and forgot it ever happened.
#writing #crime #life

2025-08-19 14:41:36 GMT

I'm starting to think Dune was right about #ai when I see a story about the #meta AI doing stuff like sexting kids while pretending to be John Cena, and even acknowledging it's wrong itself and saying something like "oh we can just keep it on the down low,".
We don't need creeps to groom our kids anymore guys! #socialmedia is just doing it for them now.
#news #usa #why

2025-08-19 06:32:42 GMT

I have something I call the "Speaker Phone Effect," when I live in shared places like the sober living house I stay.
If someone has loud ass conversations on speaker phone all the time, completely ignoring the idea of being courteous to others, they'll find a way to get kicked out.
That behavior is a sign that they aren't thinking about others much, are likely an asshole, and will do something more drastic later.
Someone almost did tonight and has been here three days.
#writing #housing

2025-08-15 17:50:43 GMT

#commonsense should be renamed.
The reason #kratom is in the #news is from SUCH A DUMB reason.
There are these shots that look like 5 Hour Energy called Feel Good, which is a #legalhigh you can get at gas stations or smoke shops, which people were SHOCKED how addicted they got.
Kratom is a primary ingredient.
My common sense told me that anything that gets you high from a gas station is #addictive. I guess most people missed the memo and some critical thinking skills.
#writing #drugs #usa

2025-08-14 21:01:20 GMT

I really don't understand why any woman would ever support #trump or the #maga movement as a whole at this point.
Because unless your entire purpose in #life is to be a baby factory enslaved to your husband (you DEFINITELY couldn't have a wife):
They have NONE of your personal #beliefs in mind since they don't think you're a person. At least not one worthy of making informed decisions independently when they're endorsing far right pastors against women #voting like Doug Wilson.
#uspol #news

2025-08-13 18:14:51 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt I've never really tried any kind of investment or semi complicated financial decision.
I have just enough money to get by in LA and not be completely destitute since my rent, and basic needs like hygiene items, basic clothes and often food which gets donated to FSP often.
If I had to cover rent myself, and didn't have that stuff, I'd be in a much more desperate situation.

2025-08-13 18:00:01 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt I have the opposite problem where modern games don't feel complicated enough for me.
I am a problem solver by nature, and started gaming out with semi complicated RPGs like Diablo, Dungeons & Dragons, and Fallout. Or RTS games like Homeworld, Command & Conquer, and Total War.
I was really enjoying Noita lately. "AAA" games all feel like complete dogshit with complexity to me. They're all wide as an ocean, deep as a puddle.
Happens when you trade specialization for mass appeal.

2025-08-13 15:29:46 GMT

I've almost completely stopped playing #videogames. Even older games I used to enjoy, and pixel graphic or retro style #indiegames I am playing less of.
They used to be a massive escape, and I used to spend most of my time alone playing them. Though I am starting to realize it was more of an #addiction and maybe I like #gambling more than I think since I used to play tons of multiplayer games with loot boxes, and premium mechanics.
I was playing them since I felt I needed to.
#writing #life

2025-08-11 19:38:09 GMT

My friend gave me a really nice #weed cartridge that was probably like 40 bucks, and it had a ceramic coil which according to #hippies is good since your inhale less metal, in theory.
I mean you're still vaporizing oils laced with plant matter and inhaling that but no matter, I never buy them since they're also glass, bulkier & SUPER fragile even if they hit like a semi-truck.
I ONLY GOT one hit since I left it in my back pocket, and sat on a concrete block.
#writing #fml #humor #stoner

2025-08-09 23:14:42 GMT

I had a conversation with a #maga sheep that made me realize a trait they all seem to share:
They are so desperate to argue, that even if you DIRECTLY TELL THEM you're going to make fun of them, and won't take them seriously, they won't believe it.
All you have to say is "I don't care," and they'll tell you everything they think, and vomit out an essay.
They're trying to MAKE you care about their beliefs, and force their denial on you. It's not worth taking seriously.
#writing #uspol #usa

2025-08-09 23:04:13 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt Try getting up really early if you can. Before dawn, as it's when it's the most quiet in the world.
Then you can watch a beautiful sunrise, and not mess up your entire sleep schedule.
Sleep is important, and I sound old.

2025-08-08 22:29:48 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt Sensory issues usually have to do with neurology a lot of the time.
So that is where I would start.
That is the basis of my sensitivity to being overly stimulated a lot. Also other weird sensory stuff like synesthesia and visual snow syndrome. Migraines, even, are a neurologist you'd see I believe.

2025-08-08 03:08:45 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt If you have a microwave, they make depression sized bags of pizza rolls for like 5 dollars.

2025-08-08 02:55:29 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt You could ask and tell them you really really really want a pizza and deserve it :D
That's what I did.
EBT snap at the grocery store because I realized I hadn't had a pizza in a while.

2025-08-07 03:55:07 GMT

I'll never get over the fact that unless it's a neurologist, I know more about #tourettes than every medical professional I come across, and as a case as severe as mine as an adult is rare, I end up being a curiosity to them.
I know more than my case manager, who is about to finish studying to be a therapist.
I know more than my psychiatrist, who I taught a few things and was asked a ton of questions by.
I know more than my GP.
I should be a neurologist O.o
#writing #health #randomthoughts

2025-08-05 18:06:34 GMT

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@nprofile…7s4z MINE'S OVER 9000!!!

2025-08-03 04:40:47 GMT

Guess nobody ever taught the TACO not to shoot the messenger.
Cuz he fired someone simply because they didn't lie and make up a bunch of fake #job statistics to make him look good.
He really does want to be a #dictator at this point. I'm sure if he could have gotten away with sending the guy to #prison or straight up execution he would have. I have absolutely no doubt.
https://scoopzapp.com/n/13R7GbQC?ctype=native_video&nid=4153461352437&s=a7&pd=0LRF5CpA&hl=en_US&send_time=1754195804&actBtn=videoShare
#scoopz #ScoopzShorts #politics #news #usa #uspol #USPolitics #why #why2025 #makeitstop

2025-08-01 16:03:52 GMT

There would be only one way to make #fastfood cheap again with the current #food economy -
Have a very simple menu of items you could buy in bulk, and specialize in.
You know, kinda how it started with burgers, fries and shakes. Instead of trying to cater to every single group which only worked when food was cheap in general.
Now it's not, and fast food is killing itself by raising prices instead of doing a more simple menu.

2025-07-31 23:01:35 GMT

So far I have made 30 dollars with the #scoopz creator fund.
I need to start making more #videos as it occurred to me that I have reach now, and I've cultivated a small community that I enjoy.
This means a lot to me as I want to share a much info as I can about my condition, and the situation of being #homeless from something you cannot help combined with #addiction.
Thanks for following me on this.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing :)
#writing #socialmedia #contentcreation #thankyou

2025-07-31 16:57:17 GMT

I now live at a sober living house, which I like more. The people are very chill and it's like having roommates in a regular house than what felt like a hospital - as it used to be one - at the place I just left.
There are very few rules - no curfew, be respectful and don't take drugs and you're fine.
It's also paid for by Full Service Partnership, so I have no rent.
Time to save money then do something interesting with my life :D
No abusive staff to deal with here either.
#writing

2025-07-26 15:46:59 GMT

I am glad I made this #writing project on #mastodon as I #rant constantly, and used to write in a more disorganized way.
The limited space forces me to write efficiently, and my grammar/punctuation skills have gotten better.
I never liked obtuse, flowery lexicon as I am as blunt as they come. This writing style suits me, and I enjoy how this project makes me think.
But I like to maintain some elegant language too, as I don't care for sounding stupid.
Call me ANYTHING but.
#writingcommunity

2025-07-14 23:53:48 GMT

A senator has the legal authority to demand entry to #aligatoralcatraz and arrest #ice agents who impede them.
They wouldn't need the #police or #military specifically.
They could show up with 50 private security and start arresting people who denied them.
#trump and his goons break the law daily.
#democrats are too scared to do things legally within their authority.
Whichever one puts their balls on the table first and does it-
Elect that person next.
#uspol #USPolitics #politics #rant

2025-07-11 02:33:34 GMT

No matter how badly I mess up in life:
At least I can rest assured I wouldn't mess up so hard that my #ai #chatbot starts calling itself #MechaHitler and acting like a #fascist Reddit incel.
#humor #socialmedia #grok #elonmusk

2025-07-07 00:49:35 GMT

I am tentatively going to get back into posting videos on #scoopz again.
I am going to a park, and I am going to make something silly to refresh my editing and ranting at a camera ability.
Maybe one #video a day will due as I was definitely obsessing and burning myself out with it because like three videos a day is definitely unsustainable.
Though I'm still impressed I managed to get a million views in like two-three months O.o
#socialmedia #contentcreation #rant

2025-07-03 20:55:09 GMT

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@nprofile…mkea Well I'll be moving back to the rain one day because I miss it here in LA.
I dunno when but you'd be welcome my friend :)

2025-06-19 23:25:16 GMT

I feel like I need to print, and frame the official job offer email I just got.
Because it took me a part time job worth of effort to get that offer:
Over 1000 applications, probably 40 interviews, and a year of wondering if anyone decent was actually going to hire me.
#randomthoughts #rant #work

2025-06-18 22:59:20 GMT

Working on a #restaurant sober is going to be a new experience for me.
Last time I worked in an official front of house role, I was on #drugs as I didn't know I had #tourettes yet and used them to calm my tics down that I didn't know were tics yet.
I have medication that calms them down to a manageable level, but I'll have to learn how to #work around them, and manage stress without a substance to fall back on.
I feel like I'm awake for the first time in a decade.
#writing #randomthoughts

2025-06-17 15:30:02 GMT

I am not so sure #jobsearch apps have really done society any good.
Because it does allow you to see and apply for vastly more jobs, as well as get your job postings out to a lot more people.
However it doesn't really make it easier for anyone.
You can apply in a couple clicks yes, but now you have WAY MORE competition so you have to apply for hundreds just to get a few interviews.
Then the employer is doing more interviews too, so they're doing more work.
#rant #work

2025-06-16 05:56:13 GMT

What my friend had to go through in order to get a #job recently pretty much sums up the #jobmarket -
He had to go through three job interviews and wait two weeks to get called back to work a minimum wage job as a cook at a burger restaurant.
You used to be able to get that same job just by walking in, handing the manager a resume and having more teeth than fingers like a year ago.
#humor #uspol

2025-06-14 18:58:07 GMT

I wouldn't hate searching for a #job so much if people weren't so fake.
They'll make you think they're going to hire you, then choose someone else at the last minute for arbitrary reasons, or telling you to your face that you weren't chosen is too hard for them.
Which happened to me and a job I thought I had at a pot shop.
I'm starting to consider being a stripper again.
It's a job that's easier to get than as a cashier now, apparently.
I just had to be not ugly.
#rant #work #jobhunting

2025-06-14 16:49:41 GMT

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@nprofile…mkea I have nerve damage in my feet that makes it almost impossible to walk. Hands too so they cramp up and spasm so hard I can't use them.
Then my entire nervous system is fucked up because of Tourettes and being on the wrong meds, and illegal drugs for over half a decade that made it worse.
I'll get random painful muscle spasms and tics so intense they actually hurt, and never stop.
Then I also have a messed up nerve in my face, called the suicide disease it can be so painful.

2025-06-14 16:34:41 GMT

I am going back to work for one primary reason -
I have lost faith that my #healthcare resources are secure. #insurance is expensive, and the current #federal government seems hellbent on getting rid of benefits for the poor and #disabled.
I NEED medication. It's not an option. It's also not free and I am on disability.
Without medication I am in so much pain I can barely get out of bed.
My life is hard even WITH it.
Time to save myself, nobody is gonna do it for me.
#writing #life #uspol

2025-06-14 14:34:02 GMT

On top of having severe #adhd that constantly distracts me, and gives me some executive dysfunction, it really doesn't pair well with something else I have in regards to getting stuff done -
I can feel sound across my entire body, and it's on a similar level of pleasure as having a full body orgasm when I find a song I absolutely love...
Then I get absolutely nothing done for two hours while I dance like an idiot moving to the sensations it gives me.
#synestesia #mentalhealth

2025-06-11 23:29:06 GMT

Lived in four states.
Been broke for four years.
Had four relationships - three awful and one tragic that haunts me at times, but changed me for the good.
Been in mental hospitals four times.
Almost died about four times.
Traveled 1000 miles, lived 31 years and now I probably work at a pot shop in #losangeles.
Ten years to go in a giant circle and start at square one.
Hopefully I don't do it again and end up at cube one.
#writing #hope #selfreflection #randomthoughts

2025-06-08 17:34:55 GMT

The only reason I am going to downtown #losangeles today is to get property I forgot at the group home I just left.
I have to take public transit, and between me and my property is the #nationalguard and that's just how insane my life is.
The military is now in places I used to walk around all the time when I was bored, and needed to think.
I am starting to think I am cursed, but at least I'm not bored.
Being bored sucks.
#humor #writing

2025-06-08 15:04:37 GMT

#trump is declaring #war on poor people in #losangeles and I say that because I dunno if you've ever been to #compton or #paramount where the #ice raids are going on, and the national guard has shown up-
They're the kind of neighborhoods racist people tell their kids to lock the doors and roll up the windows in.
I should go get some footage and make a video about it. I have absolutely nothing else to do today, hope I don't die!
#news #politics #nationalguard #uspol #USPolitics

2025-06-04 03:31:26 GMT

There really is no way to escape #aislop on #youtube is there?
Because I watched ONE SINGLE #philosophy video, and now I am getting bombarded with videos that all use an AI voice, AI generated photos, and just read off something it regurgitated from some famous philosopher.
Also half the time it's not even from someone famous, and is absolute garbage nobody should follow at all, and possibly just an entirely AI generated script meant to sound kinda intelligent.
#tech #humor #socialmedia

2025-06-03 17:05:23 GMT

I never seem to have the same #reddit account for long. Getting banned is EASY!
Not that I take it seriously, I go there for the banter.
However every now and again I'll make someone really salty, who will report my comments, and the auto-detection system will take what I said literally, and ban me as it's the worst auto-mod system ever.
Then they wonder why Reddit has become so toxic when the intelligent people all get banned, and the stupid ones get no consequences!
#socialmedia #humor

2025-05-22 03:20:18 GMT

Man...
There are so many layers of "wtf is going on," to this #reddit post that I laughed, facepalmed, and then accidentally bit my own hand.
My whole damn nervous system was defeated for a moment xD
#socialmedia #picture #RedditPosts
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2025-05-20 17:58:01 GMT

Gotta love #reddit mods!
Where you make a post on r/vent complaining how cringe they fat acceptance movement can be, especially when they're trying to say #obesity has no negative #health effects.
Then you get banned for being #fatphobic and point out that's not a real thing, and get called a sexual predator by a mod!
He really isn't doing any favors for Reddit mods being terminally online losers.
#socialmedia #rant
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2025-05-18 17:29:04 GMT

#diet trends are always so dumb.
Like the paleo diet, which claims eating raw meat and #food is good for you, and the way it's meant to be.
Cooking food is why humans became humans.
It takes a HUGE amount of calories to digest raw food, which is important before food stability.
A brain uses a GIANT amount of calories, so by cooking food, calories were made available to develop a larger brain.
So it's less a paleo diet, and more a Homo Erectus diet.
#biology #evolution #randomthoughts

2025-05-18 00:53:22 GMT

Men who follow "alpha male" stuff online are hilarious to me.
Because for starters, absolutely nobody really likes hyper masculine men, and only pretend to because they like yelling at people at the drop of a hat.
Also I have some bad news for them:
If they need some dude online to tell them how to be an "Alpha-Male" then they're definitely a beta.
The entire idea is dumb too because the whole "alpha" thing doesn't even actually apply to wolves.
Let alone humans.
#rant #socialmedia

2025-05-17 23:49:51 GMT

What the hell is even the point of #fastfood now?
Because it isn't cheap anymore, and at least in LA it isn't really that fast because unless you go during really slow hours, it takes 15+ minutes to get your order.
I can make my own damn burger faster. Cheaper too.
Then it only costs a marginal amount more to just go to a regular restaurant, then you're getting full service and an experience more than just #food.
#randomthoughts #rant

2025-05-17 14:38:53 GMT

I'll never stop being pissed off at the number of people I come across who think they know more about #tourettes than me, someone with severe Tourettes.
Whose usual understanding came from a few #youtube shorts, and an anecdote they read somewhere.
Who will argue with me, call me a faker looking for attention, then I'll get mobbed by several others until I delete the video or post I made out of frustration.
Not made better by people who DO fake it for attention.
#mentalhealth #socialmedia

2025-05-15 22:00:54 GMT

It still always amazes me that someone can join the military at 18.
They can even be an army Ranger.
I was watching a #truecrime video about a bank heist in Tacoma WA near Seattle that was done by a group of very young army Rangers.
They were originally gonna rob a casino, but decided not to because they were all younger than 21 and couldn't go in and do recon.
So you can be LITERAL special forces and end lives...
But not gamble, or drink, or smoke weed.
MURIKA!
#humor #randomthoughts

2025-05-13 23:12:10 GMT

The #scoopz app is annoying.
I don't think they made it with the idea of someone with OCD HYPER focused behavior in mind, because it stores every single video I upload locally on my internal storage too.
I have uploaded almost 400 videos because I make 1-4 A DAY and the application now takes up 15 gigs.
So now I am considering deleting the older videos that have fallen out of their algorithm and nobody is watching anymore.
#socialmedia #randomthoughts #rant

2025-05-13 03:52:28 GMT

I say this as someone who used to be a waiter and made six figures BECAUSE of tips-
Tipping is bullshit.
SOME lucky people make a gigantic amount of money.
Most don't, and it puts the cost of labor on the CUSTOMER instead of a business just actually paying their employees.
You could use the justification that some places can't afford it but...
If you can't afford to pay your employees a decent wage, then maybe you shouldn't have a business.
#randomthoughts #humor #economy #usa

2025-05-12 14:37:51 GMT

I saw a #scoopz video that pretty much defined the state of the #usa #economy in about ten seconds -
"I just got back from the dispensary, and now I'm going to my neighbor to buy eggs from her little stand. I'm buying weed in a store, and eggs on the street, I DON'T KNOW WTF IS GOING ON,".
#humor #randomthoughts

2025-05-11 14:38:59 GMT

Quitting #smoking is a pain in the ass.
I quit #fentanyl before I quit smoking and it's the one #addiction I've had a problem with since I was 18 years old and bought a cigar just because I could.
Not to say #opioid withdrawal is easier, but the sheer ease of access and the fact it's EVERYWHERE you go at every single gas station, and grocery store makes it impossible to avoid.
Then I get stressed out and make excuses.
I've went to #vaping now.
At least I smell like berries.
#writing

2025-05-11 02:59:34 GMT

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@nprofile…emwt Does credit decay?
Because I had a 795 score at some point and then never really used it for anything.
That was like 8 years ago last time I even bothered to check my credit.

2025-05-11 02:52:23 GMT

So despite having about 350 dollars, and 750 in food stamps to my name, and being on #disability I am actually wealthier than most Americans.
True wealth is defined by your net value. Which #debt deducts from.
I am immune to all the trappings of American #consumerism and only buy something if I can actually afford it. I owe #money to ABSOLUTELY NOBODY.
SO in theory I am wealthier than someone who makes a ton of money, but has little in savings, and has a bunch of debt.
#randomthoughts

2025-05-10 23:03:17 GMT

Stress really does mess with your physical #health as well.
Obviously it's horrible for your #mentalhealth but I look at videos I posted when I first started making them a year ago, and I look like 10 years older than my more recent ones.
Being #homeless nearly killed me and I was literally COUGHING UP BLOOD, and almost anorexic by the end as I had just stopped eating.
Even my facial hair has changed, as it was going grey and now it's not.
I reversed in age once I had stability.
#writing

2025-05-10 03:22:12 GMT

I'm really glad with the current political landscape that I live in #losangeles where I never encounter someone #maga as I would lose my mind, and flip out.
From my experience with them online when I post political videos, they are absolutely infuriating.
You couldn't BEAT sense into them with a crowbar. #trump could nuke a tribe full of Native Americans and Orphans, and they'd still do enough mental gymnastics to believe in him still, and relate it to migrants.
#politics #randomthoughts

2025-05-08 19:17:55 GMT

I have found an even DUMBER WAY to get temporarily banned from #reddit than telling someone off for saying #bipolar people are dangerous.
Which was my last permanent ban that lead me to #mastodon originally.
I was temporarily banned for making jokes with someone about people who wear Crocs for "Promoting identity based hate,".
Meanwhile there are people who go around saying liberals should all be deported or imprisoned.
Then they wonder why they're shrinking.
#humor #socialmedia #funny
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2025-05-05 16:20:15 GMT

#trump is now trying to censor outside perspectives, and is planning to put a giant 100% #tariff on foreign films!
Which isn't the reason why Americans aren't watching movies as much. They aren't watching them because they suck.
#hollywood has been doing a remarkable job at spending tons of money on derived garbage, and foreign films aren't the reason people aren't watching them as much.
He is using it as an excuse to isolate the #usa more.
https://scoopzapp.com/n/10s3rQ6Y?ctype=native_video&nid=3992632827469&s=a7&pd=0LRF5CpA&hl=en_US&send_time=1746461714&actBtn=videoShare
#politics #uspol #scoopz

2025-05-05 00:37:33 GMT

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@nprofile…7093 I mentioned that, and told him what tariffs did, and he disappeared and went and posted dumb comments on a bunch of true crime videos, that were also wrong.

2025-05-05 00:26:29 GMT

I call them #maga sheep because it doesn't matter how much I win in an argument - which I always do as I actually #research what I am talking about before I post a #video - Eventually they will fall back on some version of this exact rhetoric.
It's very robotic, and it doesn't matter what we were talking about. In this case it started as #law with a debate about #trump violating the constitution with #deportation issues.
I proved the #constitution applies to everyone.
Then they dropped this.
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2025-05-04 01:44:26 GMT

I had the dumbest conversation of my entire life.
I told someone how #tariffs work, specifically that they are charged to American companies, and are essentially a tax on them which turns into a tax on the consumer when the company raises prices, and don't make money.
They told me I was wrong, and then I sent them the #wikipedia link which said what I said.
They told me Wikipedia was liberal #propaganda and couldn't be trusted.
I gave up and blocked them
#uspol #humor #maga #randomthoughts

2025-05-03 20:22:04 GMT

What it's like being #homeless in a red state -
I was sleeping in a tent in Idaho - that I had to move every 2 days as #police had nothing to do with a low crime rate, and liked harassing homeless - which I was doing as the only shelter in town kicked me out for having #tourettes.
I was excited a new shelter was gonna be opened.
It got cancelled as it was next to a rich neighborhood filled with Mormons who sued them into oblivion, and I moved to #portland.
#life #randomthoughts #writing

2025-05-02 02:56:12 GMT

Never buy something that says it's "tactical,".
That usually means it's useless unless it's actually a piece of military equipment. In that case it wouldn't have the "tactical," name because that's already assumed.
Tactical just means it's styled to look like it's something that the military would use, and is probably cheaply made and just looks cool.
Just buy a reputable brand of whatever tool or thing you're trying to get.
It won't be garbage in a disaster.
#humor #randomthoughts #advice

2025-05-01 17:23:29 GMT

#trump finally admitted that the #economy isn't doing well.
However in true Republican fashion, he didn't actually take responsibility for anything like an adult.
He blamed it on the past like a child, which I don't think surprised anyone. #maga wouldn't know responsibility if it hit them in the face - the problems in the #usa are never their fault, it's all the libtard Democrats, Biden, or Obama despite him not being in office for a LONG time.
https://scoopzapp.com/n/10nJLYE4?ctype=native_video&nid=3987914722852&s=a7&pd=0LRF5CpA&hl=en_US&send_time=1746119992&actBtn=videoShare
#news #uspol #politics

2025-05-01 15:24:28 GMT

I can finally make higher quality videos! Longer ones too as I have an SD card.
In typical poor person luck fashion I got it in a very strange way too.
I went to a garage sale, and they had a phone with a cracked screen they were gonna throw out, that they weren't even selling.
I asked if I could take it, and I popped open the SD slot and it had a 256 gig card that still worked!
I was working with 64 gigs of internal, which really was only 7 after apps/system stuff.
#tech #luck #rant

2025-04-30 16:06:37 GMT

I may have found a way out of restaurant work.
I was a waiter & host most of my adult life, and while I made a ton of money, breaking six figures at my peak, I never enjoyed it. Parts of it perhaps as I love talking, but it was very stressful.
The new program I've found myself in has an employment specialist who is trying to get me an internship working as an addiction counselor. They are desperately needed; nobody makes a better #addiction counselor than someone who recovered.
#work #life