PCNOMAP. Youthlib & sex/kink positive. I'm a nonexclusive MAP. I'm the annoying guy with a special interest in mental health/self help/psychology/philosophy. "They may be my enemies - that I can not help - but I will not be theirs." “Adults read their own hopes and fears into the actions of adolescents ... They take desperate measures to protect the young from imaginary menaces … and to guide them to imagined success, which is in fact surrender.”
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Last Notes npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Just a reminder that the guy who coined the concept of "adolescence" and also "adolescent recklessness/incapability" was also a eugenicist who didn't even do proper research--He based this all off his own experience as an adolescent. He also had a negative relationship with sex in general. He thought masturbation was bad. He also said we shouldn't teach critical thinking to children because it would destroy society, we should instead teach them to fear god and serve country. His name was Stanley G. Hall. Any time someone says adolescents are disturbed, reckless, incapable of making good choices--They are parroting him, a eugenicist who believed masturbation was bad, and who never actually did real science. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Mainstream feminism really feels like we’ve all just surrendered to the whims of the sex-negative prudes who have sex-based victim complexes. If your brand of feminism says men can’t hit on women or proposition them then I don’t want it, in fact I think it sucks. I like when men initiate, I prefer it. And I’d rather not dance around sex like it’s some forbidden thing, I want men to feel safe telling me they think I’m hot when we first meet. As long as they can handle a “I’m not interested” then that’s not harassment. That’s just shooting your shot. And I wish men weren’t afraid to do that. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: As someone who's been obese all of my adult life except very recently, it feels really great to be able to buy small clothing and have it actually fit me. I bought some shorts and lowkey didn't even think they'd fit and they do, and they don't even hurt. Amazing npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: People disregarding the connection to abuse with BPD has become one of my biggest triggers. Which feels somewhat ironic, if thats the right word. It pisses me off a lot. Stop acting like you're some progressive saint who stands besides the disordered when you have to sanitize the disorders and pretend all the bad stuff doesn't exist. THE BAD STUFF I'VE LIVED THROUGH AND STILL FIGHT OFF. Its just a blemish to you. Fake allies. We're only acceptable when we manage our disorder from the day we first "get" it. And never abuse anyone because of it. Which btw, I think is pretty rare. In order to get diagnosed with the disorder, normally, you have to have terrible dysregulation and that often comes with not knowing how to manage conflict. Which comes with lashing out, manipulation, etc. To the point where many people with BPD find out they have it after abusive behavior, because they wonder why they're like this (or their loved ones wonder). If you don't stand with cluster B people when they haven't learned to manage their disorder yet, you don't really stand with them. You just want to look progressive, and if you have the disorder yourself, you don't want those of us who struggle more to make you look bad. You throw us under the bus. It's not progressive. It's ableist. Denying victim experiences isn't progressive either. Absolutely wack to me that even staunch anti-cs will claim SO MANY victims are just lying. Be consistent. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Fucked up that many of the same people who think sexual pleasure is traumatic for kids also think that physical pain (like spanking) isn’t. Yes… the nice feelings are abuse but the bad feelings, the ones that say “do what I say or I’ll hurt you” are not. You can be against both, but being against sexual abuse and not physical abuse is senseless. Hurting someone into submission is abuse—and also lazy parenting skills. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I don’t really get ethnonationalists. “Save the white race” … Why are people scared of their race/ethnicity disappearing over time? What’s bad about humans naturally evolving and becoming more similar? It’s only threatening if you identify with your race/ethnicity too much. Which is sad. Your identity should be mostly independent of your body, definitely your skin tone. Besides…. Most likely you wouldn’t be alive to see your race disappear anyway? It’s a distant future, which also relies on humanity not wiping itself out first. It seems like such an odd thing to care about. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Eating pickled red onion out of the jar on its own because I just really love onions and vinegar npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I havent heard of an admin not banning an anti tbh. Whats the username? npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: im pretty sure they do get banned once admins are aware of them? but we cant really stop antis from making accounts, so we can only ban them after they give themselves away npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I love you all. Sorry I’m so controversial and divisive, but not that sorry because *taps url* it will happen again. It’s an inherent part of my values system. Thank you for putting up with it anyway, sincerely npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Thats the journal report Im talking about. Thats all that exists on the topic now. But I saw a video with my own eyes. With shitty camera quality but back before AI was advanced. A number of people were talking about the hypocrisy on facebook and in the comments. But it was before he won the first time he ran, so he wasn't as... popular? back then. And then when he did win everything was cleaned out. I didn't save it because I assumed someone else would, but considering all I can find on the topic now is what you sent, I guess not. I did say I can't prove it. You can think I'm making it up if you want, the point is just: Save everything. I regret not downloading the video back then. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I hope it doesn't go that poorly but I also wouldn't be surprised. I know there's not a good environment waiting for them once they're deported either, given they were fleeing in the first place. They may be punished for that. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Iirc Hitler also did the "legally documented Jews wont be affected" thing irt to deportation and concentration camps - The loophole was that they made it so a shit ton of documents nobody had were required, many of them would have to pay others to procure those documents for them, and not everyone could afford that. It being "legal" doesn't matter when you're in a position of power and you think you define the law and can simply rewrite it. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Oh yeah, a ton of them voted for Trump. Absolutely shameful and unfortunate and idiotic. I feel bad for them but christ you could have not voted for the guy saying he'd do mass deportation of immigrants!!!! A racist is generally not going to say "I am a racist" they usually hide it npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Trump is going to deport LEGAL immigrants back to a dictator, who's surprised. I guess all those people who said "he's only going to deport illegals!" https://youtu.be/bTdx_jUKLd8 npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I don't know if anyone else knows about this, and I can't even prove it, but back before Trumps first presidency he had a youtube channel. On that channel he once said if he ever ran for office he'd do it as a republican (he was democratic back then) because republicans were so stupid they'd believe anything. That video doesn't exist anymore, I believe everything in that channel was cleaned out. Anything I search on it, I only find it as a "rumor" in a journalist report, no mentions of the channel at all. Anyway, now I download everything political that might be important someday. You should also do this. Also any research papers as well that go against popular censorship agendas, especially in a time when you have to pay for most access. Download everything. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I’m like halfway through Harmful to Minors now… I’m gonna try very hard to finish it before the end of the month. This is what I get for having a depression week. It’s a really great book though. If you can read the whole thing you should. If you can buy it you should. It’s a work of art with so much history in it. The post is about an hours read time so far, by the time I’m done it’ll probably be a bit under two hours estimated read time. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: This was nice to stumble across. Literally NEVER seen normie accounts defend MAPs in the past, especially when we were a teenager. Even though there are negative things happening, we’re still making progress https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/113/863/808/767/433/406/original/10fc3fad17a8dc1f.png https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/113/863/808/895/540/477/original/8892a20e349185f4.png https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/113/863/809/087/496/201/original/c3c4865c80cfbc43.png https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/113/863/809/278/762/614/original/7254c180cadf91aa.png npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Feel free to use this doodle i made https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/113/541/798/687/271/468/original/8813244113c26fe2.png npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Meh, I think the only people who deal with it are people who don’t realize humans thrive more when working together. Selfishness is animal nature, but we’re social animals, each individualhas a *lot* of potential but we live in oppressive systems that treat us like machines. If we all lift each other up that unity can spread and achieve great things. “Realists” are just too lazy and self absorbed to push for better. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: thats just false. Paraphillias aren’t even considered disordered unless accompanied with distress - meaning you can have a nondisordered pedophile, this is even on wikipedia and comes from the DSM-5 Also attraction is inherently neutral, because its just a feeling. Being straight into adults is also not a “positive” - Feelings are just feelings, actions can have negative or positive effects but thats not the same as just a feeling is. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: dont think this guy knows what map means, kinda embarassing for him. Here read up: https://www.b4uact.org/know-the-facts/behavior/ (less than 50% of csa perps are maps) by the way that same site is like the official US mental health research org on pedophilia so I think they know better than you Also the stigma you just perpetuated happens to make it more likely a child will be abused (or that one already being abused will go unnoticed) https://blog.mapresources.info/2022/10/does-pedophilia-stigma-prevent-abuse.html Do some reading and relax, the scary maps cant hurt you 💙 npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: What does that matter if its people (shareholders) who only care about their own greed and not utilizing wealth for the good of all? The people at the top aren’t the hardest working, they tend to do less actual work. They’re usually born into it. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I never hear a single bad thing about finland. Not that ive ever looked, im sure they’ve got *something* going badly for them npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: What we really need imo is social media that isn't reliant on the tolerance of others but the complete open acceptance of others. We shouldn't have to rely on the fediverse because it isn't for *us* - Its always possible we'll be driven away someday. We should have our own place, but that place needs to also be well made if people are going to stick around. Its up to you what you do @ Sofia but I think you could help in building something like that someday, and it'd do a lot for the community. But beyond that, agree with Gavin. We have to believe in ourselves and in the possibility of creating change in order for us to get there. If we accept defeat we're powerless, if we fight then we can get where we want to be. The future isn't set in stone, we're building it every moment. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Is this still active? npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I cant really do this... "discuss differing opinions and offer emotional support at the same time" thing.... Sometimes I can but I have to be in a really energetic state of being to do that. Otherwise I have to stick to the objective things. Its too much otherwise. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: None share selfies without permission, lol npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: You didnt show me any screenshots referencing the group chat being dedicated to information On You except this. I do think he should clear things up though by giving context to the point of the GC and why someone wants to target you specifically, but if its someone after you specifically I doubt thats anti behaviour. Thats more revenge-behaviour. Which is what happens when a lot of people dislike you, people feel emboldened to hate you. And that doesnt make it right, that is concerning, I just dont attribute that to Varlus. Im in GC's with many people I dont agree with the actions of lol npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Well then why did you drag my character into it!!!!!!!!!! I highly doubt you're being pedo hunted and if it turns out Im wrong you can show me dfjhj I hope Im not though since that would be much worse for you Also dont send selfies after just a few hours, bad idea. You should guage how trustworthy someone is over a period of *months* npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Literally cropped that wrong oops https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/113/026/682/903/559/759/original/11649904d9a5c8bd.png npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Also he uses element he literally left my chat with him because I dont use it enough lmao And that'd be kind of weird of me when half my friends are pro-cs who date or flirt with minors why would I want to be in a doxxing GC?? https://mapsupport.de/system/media_attachments/files/113/026/678/474/660/231/original/4eb8ecdedef52354.png npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I think you're projecting. They're not pedohunters they *are* pedos. I do not believe Varlus is a pedohunter 😭 that seems like a wild bad faith claim to make honestly. And I get being bothered but thats just paranoia levels. If it turns out he doxes you I'll apologize but I genuinely doubt thats going to happen npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: "borderline anti" is a bit much, I never said I didn't care. I said he was wrong but it seems more like he said "sure Im interested" than a malicious "yes I want to get her" And we've also been outted to people before, so I get it being stressful. But you havent been asking me how I feel, you've just been weirdly confrontational about me knowing someone and having a positive relationship. You want to classify me as an anti to justify your feelings - And frankly that feels gross. Im most attracted to actual rapists and one of my headmates did a lot of stuff I didnt like, during which also together. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Well it didn't seem like he was looking for specific personal information? Maybe I'm reading it wrong, but you havent been doxxed and I think if thats what they wanted they would have tried something? And again, hes not responsible for others in his spaces. You can believe what you want about me, its possible I'm just buying an act. I don't know him that well, but I also think he's been sincere in this and its all the young people being unstable and him not knowing how to dissuade that, and he admitted emotions played a role in that and he regrets it. What do you want really? Has he not apologized directly? Because I assume he probably would have while sorting things out with you? I dont have secret insider knowledge of your conversations, Im hardly following anymore because I got busy with my girlfriend lol npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Are you just assuming that he kept it though? I doubt he kept it and if he has I doubt he'll use it. Im not saying he didn't do wrong there, but I dont think he specifically wants to dox you. Not that I'd know since I'm not in that GC, would love to see the logs from it, but thats up to him. And I also was told by one minor that they're afraid of you, so.... He probably genuinely doesnt feel like he can prove one way or another what happened, lol npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Well wasnt it the minor who leaked the selfie? I think its a bit much to assume Varlus was a mastermind in all this. Not saying its good if he didn't speak up about people trying to dox you, but hes not in control of all the minors he talks to? npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: Im friends with Varlus, yeah. Not close but I like *him* - I hope the misgendering isn't intentional. And Im honestly surprised you care so much because from that screenshot (and the ones in it) it wasn't with the intent to dox you, Varlus said he was curious. I believe that. Because it'd be really stupid for a pro-c MAP to dox another MAP who's probably in less compromising positions (since I think youre an adult with mostly adult friends right? arent you anti-c too?) Anyway I believe Varlus about his intentions there, and its not morally wrong to be curious about other people. To me this mostly seems like kinda silly drama, you weren't being doxxed but the minor involved *was* recently doxxed and you weren't very straight forward with someone whose likely to still be pretty distressed. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: jffjjkf do you mean the minor? I only met them today because I was curious what was happening. If you mean Varlus I'd like to see evidence of trying to dox you jhjkf npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I'd agree if you didn't say "never" and "no matter how long" If someone is talking to you on pedi for years and you dont go for it just because of that - I do think thats paranoia. And I say that having been that way myself. There will always be a chance someone will dox you someday but thats true no matter where you meet them, and Im firmly against "irl chance meetings" being the only way you can ever trust someone. I've met up with paraphiles/MAPs who we met online, and i've seen many others do it. You just need to be careful. npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: I WANT A RAPE.TOWN WHAT thats the best idea for an instance I've ever heard jhfdf npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: i like this one lol npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: so many letters though npub1hp2h3n66qt9mlpmzulk0ssvrte8ps5p6wlcttxe2v42mc65sjvnsx2wqk2 :tbl: Arden/Appo :arden: sometimes i wish discord *did* have a read checkmark function just so I could not reply to certain messages and let them know I saw it and am *choosing* to not respond. I dont want that to actually be a feature, just a few rare instances it would be satisfying