Silver Arrows

🧁 This account is mostly just for my #plantbased #supermarketvegan posts now.

🌻 Main account Silver Arrows (npub1fs5…5p5v)

🖥️ I'll try to remember to update my megapost sometime

Location: London, UK 🇬🇧
Homepage: https://blog.outtolunch.me.uk/
Languages: English (primary), French (mostly competent, but rusty), Japanese (forgotten), Portuguese (beginner)
My supermarket vegan megapost: https://blog.outtolunch.me.uk/2024/05/09/supermarket-vegan-megapost/

Last Notes

2025-01-15 12:57:31 GMT

https://slrpnk.net/post/17279213
#RightWingHypocrisy #Brexit
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2025-01-07 16:47:20 GMT

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it was more competitiveness with their siblings. I have two cousins my age, and it was always that I had to get better grades than them. I was a reflection of my parents, rather than a person with my own feelings and interests.
Even at school, good grades and being a model pupil was all I was valued for. So when I ended up in dead end jobs because of the anxiety, one of my parents made it very clear I was the face of failure and still holds me up as what failure looks like. 🤷🏽‍♀️
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2025-01-07 14:32:20 GMT

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Negative Parenting Test
https://www.idrlabs.com/negative-parenting/test.php
I'm surprised at how high I scored, because while I can see a lot of problematic things in my childhood (my value was nothing more than how well I did at school, I was wrapped in cotton wool and I was always the weird one that needed to be "fixed"), I don't remember my childhood as being mostly miserable.
#idrlabs #autism #mentalhealth
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2025-01-02 07:57:48 GMT

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unfortunately my therapist is taking the approach that my anxiety comes from thinking bad things are going to happen, whereas it all comes from being uncomfortable around anything unpredictable and unfamiliar, including people and places.
I asked her to research autism related anxiety over the Christmas break, because after 6 sessions, I've made no progress. She's focusing on self esteem but that's a side effect, not the cause!

2025-01-02 07:54:45 GMT

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thank you. I've been trying to explain to my CBT therapist but she doesn't understand at all.
The feeling I get when I think of these things is that void. Travelling within London to new places also made me so anxious I avoided it for a long time, but now I can carry a map on my phone (and I screenshot every map area I need just in case) and can use street view to see beforehand, I can fill in that void and can break past the anxiety.

2025-01-01 17:00:51 GMT

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things like walking you through the process of renting or buying property, budgeting, etc. It's all so overwhelming and scary, but for my own mental health I need to move out the family home once I have enough saved up and hopefully get my Cytech. Even travelling alone outside London freaks me out. I don't know if traditional #CBT works for this type of anxiety. I feel scared to do these things, because all I have is this big blank with no personal experience. #autism #anxiety

2025-01-01 16:58:20 GMT

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Can anyone recommend a good book/site that goes through step by step how to make your way through the world as an #autistic adult who's been mollycoddled all their life and has no clue how the grown up world works? I want to be independent, but everything is just a blank void. I'm using ChatGPT to help demystify the process of becoming independent, but I'd really like a real human's guidance. Preferably from a UK perspective.