Aurora

so, what's the situation on 3d loli right now, still absolute shit and useless to come back?
https://media.baraag.net/media_attachments/files/115/165/879/039/177/741/original/81592220ed9e07e7.jpg

2025-08-07 00:41:26 GMT

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@nprofile…vdr6 They're not made to work for flat chested people yea, daz has never been known for their knowledge of how muscles work, that's why you usually need addons to have better folds and muscles flexes

2025-08-07 00:35:03 GMT

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@nprofile…ca3d Yea there's also that case.. I didn't even think about it because the artists who are really good at it usually don't do lolisho and are mostly on twitter, where I don't go anymore...
It's true that it wouldn't work for them :(

2025-08-07 00:20:54 GMT

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@nprofile…vdr6 Them renders very often being gorey or rapey definitely doesn't help, yea..
Thank you for my Aurora, she wasn't too hard to rig since she's also a daz import, but I couldn't do without blender to fix many of the daz inherited flaws (talking about issues with younger faces not behaving like adult ones for example, same for the chest muscles and breasts, or bending the legs and arms), and of course creating my own shaders

2025-08-07 00:00:08 GMT

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@nprofile…ca3d One way would be to force people to tag the characters they're displaying if they're not original, this way we could also filter them out if we wish

2025-08-06 23:48:00 GMT

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@nprofile…ca3d While I'm sorry because I replied when still angry about misunderstanding the news, I'm sure you can understand that I don't have anything against illustrators and cartoony 3d, and what I mean when I say shit quality stuff is pretty much anything that indeed is composited from imported models, always the same ones, you know what i'm talking about.
I'm tired of the TLOU, Detroit:BU and RE models that we're seeing everywhere, yet that's all we'll find if we search for #3d now

2025-08-06 23:07:35 GMT

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@nprofile…ca3d until when

2025-08-06 22:16:48 GMT

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@nprofile…ca3d guess i'm getting bullied out again huh
stopped posting nsfw and i still have to stfu even more, kill my reach, not get seen and not getting support

2025-07-31 18:42:01 GMT

i'm gone indefinitely, sorry

2025-07-31 18:40:39 GMT

i'm indefinitely gone, sorry

2025-07-30 19:04:41 GMT

no way, posting sfw makes shit numbers, color me blahblah

2025-07-30 18:00:39 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy Only time will tell, it will be way different, that's all I know

2025-07-13 16:48:51 GMT

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@nprofile…33lv please don't say things like that

2025-07-02 22:20:56 GMT

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@nprofile…ywxf Heyyyy long time no see 🤭

2025-06-28 13:26:09 GMT

That awkward moment when I tell you who my girl is named after
https://www.instagram.com/p/DLKz05QReeg/

2025-06-07 20:57:29 GMT

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@nprofile…azaz Don't ever hesitate to reach out, there are people out there that care 😊

2025-06-07 20:12:39 GMT

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@nprofile…azaz Would you like to talk about it a little?

2025-06-07 19:13:11 GMT

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@nprofile…azaz Why that?

2025-06-02 18:53:12 GMT

:pepe_stare:

2025-05-28 19:32:43 GMT

sorry, shit takes time

2025-05-18 12:54:03 GMT

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@nprofile…nlvm Yea, I had to throw a tantrum to finally get a treatment.. but i got it in the end
it's depression, plain and simple, but it's probably less about the willingness or strength to get better, and more about my brain being chemically imbalanced for some reason
it's incredible to see that all i needed was medication, and that's the only thing i never got from any doctor before, even though i knew it would work a lot more than positive thinking or therapy

2025-05-18 09:56:21 GMT

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@nprofile…nlvm I'm alright, I'm on meds

2025-05-04 09:21:45 GMT

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@nprofile…zkek sounds like it huh?

2025-04-30 08:29:41 GMT

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@nprofile…3js7 i try sometimes, but when you don't succeed after trying again and again, reaching out to the people you look up to, you give up

2025-04-29 22:28:55 GMT

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@nprofile…3js7 i am ignored if i don't create things
each time i posted just text, or links to songs i liked, i've been plainly ignored

2025-04-29 22:08:46 GMT

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@nprofile…rtdv I see other artists interact all the time, just not with me

2025-04-29 22:06:36 GMT

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@nprofile…pyuk I see we agree

2025-04-29 22:03:08 GMT

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@nprofile…3js7 human, that's in my bio

2025-04-29 19:59:39 GMT

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@nprofile…sw2g what do i gain from being here?

2025-04-29 15:17:03 GMT

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@nprofile…rtdv i don't feel that loved here
all the attention is drawn to those who make low effort content, while i put too much attention into images that will get scrolled past, with a like at best
i'm not even liked for who i am, only what i make
it's not like i never tried sharing more of myself, but people tend to get icky when they see the human beyond the screen

2025-04-29 15:06:06 GMT

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@nprofile…9psz my whole existence summarized

2025-04-29 14:57:22 GMT

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@nprofile…nlvm the only way i get people to read me is when i threaten to delete what i created, no one cares about my health, not even doctors

2025-04-29 14:50:16 GMT

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@nprofile…3js7 all i am is a content creator then

2025-04-28 10:19:51 GMT

might delete my account this week
change my mind
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2025-04-23 01:26:39 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy time, that's all i have to lose and i am constantly suffering from FOMO already

2025-04-23 01:18:36 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy i might hurt myself before then

2025-04-23 01:06:42 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy I don't want something to feel better, i want something to not feel

2025-04-23 00:55:25 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy no, they wouldn't think of the kind of medication i'm thinking of, it's the kind that you only consider after everything else has failed (everything already failed, but they don't believe me when i tell them i've been depressed for 15 years, and only now am seeing a psychiatrist)
if you're interested, one of the things i'd like to try is benzodiazepines, and metformin. one to go full retard, and one to not crave food
i'll never get any of those

2025-04-23 00:43:42 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy the people who can help won't let me get the help i need, because i'm way too aware of myself and have looked thoroughly into what kind of medication could work for me. which is exactly what professionals don't like, they don't like when their patients already know what's wrong and what they need to get better
i won't get the medication i need because i'm too interested, and they won't let me have the power to decide for myself and experiment without them

2025-04-23 00:25:30 GMT

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@nprofile…nlvm i wish i didn't feel like i could find help or support here
it's like drinking vodka every night, knowing that it never helps, but still i do it because maybe one time it will make a difference

2025-04-23 00:23:57 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy i'd rather bang my head on asphalt i think
distracting myself didn't work for the past 10 years, that's why i started creating, because i needed to make something of this sick brain, but lately the ONE thing that was working made me even more miserable, and it still does

2025-04-23 00:08:50 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy i don't react to alcohol in the way most people do, it just makes me tired, which is one of the things i wish i could get on demand without the aftermath of drinking, and the costs..
each time i smoked it was a bit more traumatizing, with the last time ending with a lot of vomit, and even more guilt

2025-04-22 23:59:53 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy feels complicated, and i'd rather stay aware of myself and my surroundings, just want to get dumb, like with alcohol

2025-04-22 23:55:22 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy each time i smoke i feel like i'm going to die and usually vomit more than what i ate, so i'm a bit scared about trying again

2025-04-22 23:54:13 GMT

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@nprofile…nlvm i know you mean well, but that's not helping

2025-04-22 23:47:41 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy the only thing that keeps me going is the carrot at the end of the stick, but the carrot is actually pills that will make my brain die just enough so that i don't remember why i suffer

2025-04-22 23:41:25 GMT

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@nprofile…acmy to be honest, nothing helps
my life is like your name

2025-04-22 22:37:57 GMT

i wish this was my last post here

2025-04-22 22:37:29 GMT

monthly cry for help

2025-04-12 19:40:37 GMT

just a reminder that i'm nothing

2025-04-12 19:10:20 GMT

not impressed, only disappointed

2025-04-12 18:44:52 GMT

no one sees text posts

2025-04-12 18:08:11 GMT

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCXmYMPEAlc

2025-04-12 16:44:01 GMT

⚰️

2025-04-11 18:34:29 GMT

Any mutual would like to chat?

2025-04-10 18:06:33 GMT

Please give her some visibility and love :blobmeltsoblove:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qo1TvIv0peg

2025-04-08 07:29:36 GMT

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@nprofile…ywxf I feel like it's so hard to see though :ohno: I could have done it better I'm sure :sadness:

2025-04-08 07:29:04 GMT

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@nprofile…ywxf I feel like it's so hard to see though :ohno: I could have done it better I'm sure :sadness: :ohno

2025-04-05 18:17:39 GMT

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@nprofile…eh5g Posse is cute?? :blobmeltsoblove:

2025-04-02 10:09:11 GMT

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@nprofile…xq65 To live through a character maybe, just like playing a game puts you in the skin of anything or anyone you are not.
Being in a girl body while still having an adult brain, and pretending to not know anything about the worst of humanity is what i chose

2025-03-24 02:58:00 GMT

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@nprofile…dv7z I know, I didn't want to give any advantage, but I felt that it could motivate some people to donate :sad_cat:

2025-03-23 15:29:55 GMT

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@nprofile…cyuf Well i made a lot on fanbox back when i was doing nsfw, it didn't save me.
It's just plain random moderation to me, one day they're okay with something, the next they're banning it without warning
If you want an example, here's a message i received on the 10th of march, after i sent an appeal because they set a work as private, telling me it was against the rules.
https://media.baraag.net/media_attachments/files/114/212/456/965/840/406/original/058c454e47187d2a.png

2025-03-23 15:27:19 GMT

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2025-03-23 05:26:25 GMT

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@nprofile…78gu But we have plenty of Kool-Aid 🤭

2025-03-22 13:53:55 GMT

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@nprofile…nlvm It wasn't different on baraag back when I did nsfw
I'm not even that good at 3d really

2025-03-22 13:42:01 GMT

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@nprofile…rtdv They're only scared about their interests, making money, not allowing people to create.

2025-03-22 13:31:35 GMT

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@nprofile…ge4z can you not

2025-03-21 13:48:03 GMT

Well, it didn't take long for pixiv to be back to their old reactionary selves, my pixiv account has been banned with no possibility to reactivate the account.
Feel free to read this shit if you feel like punching a wall today.
My fanbox is still up, but I'm not getting my hopes up anymore.
I'll delete everything there and just leave it as a blank page, since I'm not allowed to do anything ever.
https://media.baraag.net/media_attachments/files/114/200/726/607/712/327/original/223c373fa5ad767c.png

2025-03-15 13:08:57 GMT

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@nprofile…dv7z Thank you so much :blobmeltsoblove: 😭

2025-03-15 02:14:40 GMT

Hei hei! I recently have opened a fanbox page for the people who wish to support me! For now I'll probably only post new images there for a few days before I post them here and on pixiv, there's no big advantage or hidden content, but I will forever appreciate all the support I can get :blobmeltsoblove:
https://auroar.fanbox.cc/
(new images coming very soon 🤭)
https://media.baraag.net/media_attachments/files/114/164/030/711/084/961/original/16fda4df50ba45f1.jpg

2025-03-07 22:24:45 GMT

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@nprofile…3vzd small but mighty ☝️

2025-02-11 21:59:18 GMT

:jasin_teruri_dance:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHtnN4pckeY

2025-02-11 14:07:12 GMT

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@nprofile…t3yp i like breathy

2025-02-11 01:05:51 GMT

obsessed with her voice
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nl0e7yzOUwM

2025-02-10 18:28:13 GMT

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@nprofile…dv7z Mine has always been winter, but i'm not capable of making winter clothes in 3d just yet :sad_cat:

2025-02-10 02:24:18 GMT

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@nprofile…nlvm And there's more to come, I wanted to be sure I could keep that level of quality before coming back

2025-02-09 23:27:58 GMT

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@nprofile…g5km Yea sometimes I wonder how I managed that, and then I remember how depressed I've been when working on making each of my characters..
Perfectionism is only nice from the outside

2025-02-09 22:20:43 GMT

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@nprofile…g5km It's entirely a gen 9 daz figure, with a lot of work on the skin shaders and modifiers for every bit of anything that folds, tons of corrective smooth, geonodes, and shapekeys 💀

2025-01-15 04:26:58 GMT

#3d #girl #loli #cute #overalls #converse #sfw
https://media.baraag.net/media_attachments/files/113/830/460/107/265/705/original/bb4b513118d577a5.jpg
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2025-01-08 03:54:18 GMT

#3d #girl #loli #cute #overalls #converse #sfw
https://media.baraag.net/media_attachments/files/113/790/700/017/324/886/original/4b7545c727a21b01.jpg
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2025-01-03 18:29:22 GMT

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@nprofile…r75t To be honest I posted this right after seeing someone legit blocking me.
I'm sure you can understand that it's hard to not take it personally, but this has also nothing to do with anyone who just doesn't want to see sfw content (tho it's not like I'm spamming content or boosting other people's stuff, so i'm hardly a nuisance)
Sometimes it is as deep as we think it is. Just not from your point of view. Not everything is experienced the same by everyone.

2025-01-02 00:35:58 GMT

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@nprofile…c5x3 Well, that's the bare minimum, but thank you 🤍

2025-01-01 23:25:02 GMT

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@nprofile…c5x3 What do you mean, *still* sticking around?

2025-01-01 22:49:35 GMT

Oh by the way, i see many people unfollowing me or blocking me, so good riddance!
Feel free to go away if you're transphobic, map, pedo, racist, anti freedom and only followed me to jerk off 🖕😊

2025-01-01 19:00:00 GMT

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Anyway, this was way longer than I thought, and now I have to make a conclusion..
Happy new year to everyone, please love one another (platonically if possible) and let's stop devolving as a civilization 🤍

2025-01-01 18:59:42 GMT

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Please do not take it personally, just let this place be respectful to everyone, be cute, live and let live, and leave me out of your horny stuff. 😊

2025-01-01 18:59:10 GMT

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One of the changes though is the death of my libido and my new aversion for sex and everything related to it. So I hope that everyone reading this will understand that this is the main reason why I won't reply to sexually explicit comments, and will delete messages or block people if they start being disrespectful to me or Aurora in any way, especially sexual.

2025-01-01 18:58:58 GMT

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I do enjoy seeing my body change into a shape that resembles more who I am inside, and enjoy even more what the absence of testosterone is doing to me in general. I'm a better person now that I've probably ever been.

2025-01-01 18:58:43 GMT

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I will say that I haven't always been the way that I am today, things evolve with time, but after many failed romantic relationships, I understood that I was only running after the thrill of the first love, which I'll never experience again. I also have been aware of my lack of sexual desire towards anyone of any gender or age for years now, but only recently decided that I didn't want to have sex with anyone at all anymore.

2025-01-01 18:58:29 GMT

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Now for something a bit more personal..
I started a hrt treatment a few months ago, some time after realizing that I was aromantic and asexual.

2025-01-01 18:57:57 GMT

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Either way, aethy got into more issues on their side and I was forced to move again.
At this point I had already made so much change in my life that I wasn't thinking about going back to pth or similar content. I just wanted to keep Aurora and create something great again, something that I could be proud of. So I made the transfer back to baraag, this time with our admin's approval, and the hope that I would never have to run away again.

2025-01-01 18:57:35 GMT

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I tried transferring you all to Aethy, to my Aurora account, hoping that the few of you that wouldn't be happy about it would just leave and that the rest of you would enjoy what I had to offer, if the only other option was to just stop creating altogether.
This didn't work out great. Lots of my followers got lost in the transfer because of shadowbans between baraag and aethy, and a mere 1000 or so followers didn't reach me there for reasons I don't even understand.

2025-01-01 18:56:58 GMT

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What I've been making with Aurora on Aethy since early last year was definitely more of a passion side project, I wanted to keep it away from what I made so far, I wanted to keep away the people who liked me for my nsfw content, and make a new fanbase that would be happy with what I was now offering.
This turned out to not be possible. After getting booted from baraag on the last Halloween, I tried to keep the only thing that I was allowed to keep from my time here, my followers.

2025-01-01 18:56:18 GMT

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I was forced to close my pth account because of that, but I'm not mad. Since the beginning I've been told many times that what I make looked too real and that I'd get in trouble for it.
Now that I am forced to stop, I honestly don't miss it.

2025-01-01 18:55:57 GMT

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This new year marks the switch of my artistic career from nsfw to only sfw.
After starting to create loli 3d almost 5 years ago, I now know for sure that AI shit made 3d realistic nsfw loli impossible to create without risking being chased away. Because of the relative ease of making photoreal content that's hard to distinguish from csam today and may use real cp material, 3d photoreal receives the same treatment and is getting banned everywhere.

2025-01-01 18:55:37 GMT

Hey, I was never really personal publicly, here, on pth, and on pixiv years ago, but I guess since I'm at the beginning of something new, I might as well share a bit.

2024-12-29 03:06:26 GMT

#3d #loli #girl #cute #overalls #converse #sfw
https://media.baraag.net/media_attachments/files/113/733/832/120/820/956/original/92112266789366f2.jpg
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2024-12-28 15:14:06 GMT

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@nprofile…jglm @nprofile…ewry ✌