Nick

Lead Software Engineer. Motorsport Official. ADHD Brain. Bit of a nerd.

Pronouns: He/Him
Website: https://nickperkins.au
GitHub: https://github.com/nickperkins
Volunteer Hub: https://volunteerhub.au/

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2026-04-27 02:12:02 GMT

I'm not religious. I used to be a Christian until my late teens/early twenties. It used to bring me great comfort, and if I could still believe it would help sometimes. But once you know, you know, right?
I'm not really spiritual either. Does sending good vibes and thoughts really help someone or something? I'm not entirely sure I can make sense of that. But I do feel like there's nothing negative about it.
I'm also not against people being religious or spiritual, provided they do not harm.
What's this all got to do with the price of fish?
Lucy goes into surgery on Wednesday to remove a mast cell tumour from her left leg. I still want to ask the universe to look after her even if I know it makes no difference. It's funny how brains work.

2026-04-26 10:17:59 GMT

Got the surgery estimate today for Lucy. It is quite a lot, but I kind of expected that.
💸💸💸

2026-04-20 02:11:01 GMT

Lucy likely has a mast cell tumour on her back left leg. A sample has been taken and send to a lab for review. We'll know in a couple of days.
We've had to cancel our holiday to K'gari because she will need surgery next week to remove it.
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2026-04-12 12:50:47 GMT

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well, there goes WVA

2026-04-12 12:36:42 GMT

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he does but I do hope he gets the win anyway

2026-04-12 12:19:31 GMT

#trolltips I will take WVA please

2026-04-12 03:55:29 GMT

Natalie has a ko-fi and it is so wonderful to see other people support her art and see the value in her creative passions. This month it allowed her to buy a bunch of art supplies that she needed to continue her current work.
I'm proud of her.
https://ko-fi.com/natalieperkins

2026-04-10 08:18:53 GMT

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thanks for the reminder that this is on

2026-02-09 09:37:55 GMT

Families are complicated

2026-02-07 10:32:21 GMT

I launched a thing today.
https://volunteerhub.au/
Let's see where this ends up.

2026-01-16 11:59:52 GMT

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10 is a nice round number :popcat:

2026-01-10 07:22:32 GMT

@npub1q05…k85s and I went for a walk up at Mount Tamborine this morning. It was very rocky and overgrown in places but we ended up at a nice waterfall. Sadly on the way out I rolled my ankle and fell.
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2026-01-07 09:28:04 GMT

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hurrah!

2025-11-24 04:44:34 GMT

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I'll send it back.

2025-11-24 04:34:35 GMT

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Oh right.
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2025-11-24 04:21:06 GMT

Yeah cool
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2025-11-16 11:43:28 GMT

So the danger of going through your old email account and cleaning stuff up is finding the emails between you and your mum that remind you how much you miss her

2025-09-13 09:42:59 GMT

Doing my best to not be upset or angry about my old job being fuckers, but struggling.

2025-08-29 08:46:14 GMT

As if we needed anything else this year, I'm pretty sure there's a leak in our roof.
#FML

2025-07-31 10:17:31 GMT

I'm tired of being aware of my own mortality. Ever since mum died, my brain just likes to remind me that at any moment this will all end. I find the thought of being dead terrifying. I guess that might be some sort of evolutionary advantage? Anyway, when you have anxiety and AuDHD it's not great.

2025-07-26 10:37:35 GMT

Happy birthday @npub1tmr…ue9e Wish you were here.

2025-05-16 06:07:28 GMT

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Lucy will only eat the home made food off of a small plate. Today she's eating some of her dry food for the first time, but only off the floor.
She is the strangest dog.

2025-05-16 03:01:51 GMT

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On top of that, Natalie is going back to the hospital on Sunday for at least a couple of weeks. So that will be interesting for the dog.
I have to go away for a motorsport thing the following weekend so I booked her into a luxury kennel room. I just hope she doesn't go batty there. At least I can talk to the vet on Tuesday.

2025-05-16 02:59:19 GMT

Lucy had to come off all of her behavioural medication due to her liver issue. She's on Gabapentin instead.
When she was left at home last weekend she broke the wooden slat blinds in my office, presumably trying to look out or get out.
She just escaped the yard while I was home. She hasn't done that in years.
She gets a blood test on Tuesday, so I hope we get some good news on her liver. But she still might not be able to go back on her medication as it all can impact her liver.

2025-05-09 03:45:43 GMT

Lucy is still not eating much. It's only coming up to two days on the antibiotics and liver support supplement, so that's to be expected. She did have a couple of bits of sausage and a few bits of scrambled egg. But after a few mouthfuls it seems to set off her nausea and she doesn't want more.
I have to go away for a couple of nights. She hates that, and right now I hate it too. I hope she doesn't stress too much and makes herself worse.
I'm a bit of a mess emotionally. I don't have pets I have fur babies. I'll be a couple of hours away so I hope nothing bad happens while I'm gone.
#dogsofmastodon

2025-05-07 12:00:45 GMT

Lucy can use all the good vibes you can muster today please. She's been off her food, and a trip to the vet was had. A blood test showed very high levels related to her liver, so she had to stay in for the day to have an ultrasound to see if it was a tumor or something else.
Her ultrasound showed nothing untoward internally, other than what you might expect from a 9 year old dog.
She's now on some antibiotics, a liver support supplement, and Gabapentin to help with pain and anxiety. We've also taken her off all her other medication to give her liver a break, and she's on a special low fat high fibre diet.
We give it two weeks and then it's back for another blood test, hoping those numbers have started to improve. None of this is cheap, but as you know, she's a part of our family. It was a good thing she had those pre-surgery blood tests 3 months ago, so we had a baseline to go off.
So all the good vibes are still very much appreciated for our girl.
#dogsofmastodon
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2025-04-24 07:42:02 GMT

Having a dog with anxiety and pain issues who won't take her meds is not great for a human with anxiety and depression issues. Particularly when said dog is a sensitive soul who is now keeping to herself after being forced to have peanut butter and crushed scotch finger biscuits with crushed tablets.

2025-04-22 08:58:54 GMT

I was patting the dog today and heard the birds outside and realised that I rarely stop and just be. I even smiled.
I'm often stuck in my head instead of just living. Anxiety is not great. A reminder that I can't change the past, or control the future, I can only be here in the now and experience the world as it is.

2025-04-21 04:10:12 GMT

Lucy has been off her food for a couple of weeks. Given that I've been trying every trick to get her to have her medication, all of the things she would normally eat "no worries" are off the list.
I had to stop at the shops on the way home from seeing Natalie so for a roast chook. She's just demolished half a breast. Woohoo!

2025-04-18 12:10:48 GMT

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There could be some exceptions, but then I would expect that you've built a safe and comfortable place for your dog to live outside and that you spend time to get your dog comfortable with this.

2025-04-18 12:08:53 GMT

There is a dog some houses away that has been barking non-stop for at least two hours. It pisses me off, because it likely means that the dog has been left outside alone while their owner has gone out.
I will never understand the idea of having a pet and then leaving them outside. I would never leave an animal at home for so long that they need to go out except in an emergency, and if they made a mess then that's in me. If needed I would get a dog sitter to come and check on them or stay with them.
Leaving a dog outside because you've gone out for the night? No, I don't understand that.

2025-04-17 21:38:45 GMT

For those interested in the saga of getting the dog to take her medication, I have resorted to crushed scotch finger biscuits with milk and crushed tablets. Works, eventually.
I think if I can get her meds into her for a couple of days her anxiety will go down and she will start to consider other things.
She's finally eating some other food though. She had some bacon this morning, and some poached chicken in 'gravy' (thickened chicken stock) that I made her.

2025-04-17 09:21:12 GMT

When you buy Harry Potter related products, you provide legitimacy to JK Rowling. You directly or indirectly give her the money and the social cachet to allow her to not only be a proudly public TERF, but allow her to find other TERFs to work at reducing the rights of trans people.
Fuck that.

2025-04-16 09:24:29 GMT

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I just found some cheap petrol to fill Natalie's car. I should definitely do that right now.
What? Snacks? What do you mean? 🤭

2025-04-16 09:20:45 GMT

I want snacks. I have no snacks.
Doordashing snacks is not a good plan, is it?

2025-04-15 11:10:46 GMT

Weirdly hoping that possums keep me up tonight. This will cause the dog to eat some food, and therefore hopefully her meds.
This is messed up, I know. 😂

2025-04-15 08:19:42 GMT

Tonight I cooked sausages for the dog. She had one, but as soon as tablets were added, no dice.
She is refusing any food I offer now, even in her bowl.

2025-04-14 00:44:10 GMT

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Will you have any blood left after 14 tubes?

2025-04-11 04:17:15 GMT

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Those of us on the left of the political spectrum are doing our best!

2025-04-11 03:39:03 GMT

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rude

2025-04-07 09:19:52 GMT

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I also forget that I have a disability, that is AuDHD. Dealing with the world takes it out of me, and I need to rest. I'm allowed to.

2025-04-07 09:18:10 GMT

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Of course I did spend Saturday running errands and mulching the yard, and Sunday I went up and took Natalie out shopping for a few hours before coming home and watching the F1, followed by De Ronde.
I find with my ADHD that I have no concept of time, and no realisation of what I actually achieve. No satisfaction at a job well done. Just a realisation that there are more things on the list that need to be done.
Maybe I'm not that bad. 🤷🏻‍♂️

2025-04-07 09:12:28 GMT

With Natalie in hospital for the last few weeks, it has become apparent just how little contact I have with other people except through this device.
It's also become clear that I spend most of my time that I'm not working in some sort of fugue state, or just doom scrolling.

2024-12-23 04:29:04 GMT

Hi. Long time no toot.

2024-11-12 21:32:42 GMT

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it's rage bait from a couple of years ago. https://www.reddit.com/r/recruitinghell/comments/122emsa/we_dont_pay_you_you_have_to_pay_us/

2024-10-13 10:33:24 GMT

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I hope tomorrow is better.

2024-10-09 14:01:05 GMT

October 20th will mark 3 years since mum passed. It feels like another lifetime ago. October has never been the same since. It creeps up on me, and then bam!

2024-09-22 13:30:12 GMT

You know what to do #F1 #SingaporeGP
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2024-08-26 05:57:57 GMT

Tooth or gum is surely infected, but without bulk billed dental treatment i cannot afford to see a dentist right now.

2024-08-25 03:10:58 GMT

If you, like me, have a difficult relationship with the male parental unit, please consider my take on Father's Day.
Buy yourself something as a self care gift. Consider it only fair, since the person you would normally be buying a gift for doesn't deserve it.

2024-08-22 03:51:59 GMT

My friend was killed 4 years ago by his ex-partner and his partner's new boyfriend. Ex-partner did a plea deal for manslaughter and is out. The new boyfriend is on trial for murder at the moment.
Just read for the first time the alleged details of his murder. They didn't just kill him, they degraded him.
I'm angry, and shocked, and devastated for my friend. He wasn't an angel, but he never deserved that.

2024-08-18 04:33:43 GMT

A filling which constituted about half a tooth fell out. Thanks, universe. What's next?

2024-08-16 12:15:22 GMT

Is the lump on my wrist due to a fracture? I guess I'll find out Tuesday.