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Last Notes

2023-08-19 09:37:57

After a week of working with people in person, I feel much more charged and motivated. I feel primed to learn more and better, to pick up my own projects, better contribute to open source!

2023-08-16 08:11:53

Just noted a bump in my anti-social posture. Im in a large group of cool bitcoiners working on cool new projects, yet I dont seem too excited about having conversations and sharing stories. I seem to be leaning in and clustering near people I already know. I am avoidant of my social circles back out, including my girlfriend. Theres opportunity to learn a new language, yet Im not extending and exposing myself to it.
I could change all this with a simple expense of the right mental energy.
Here we go. Day 3/14

2023-08-14 07:37:02

Biggest regret, js pretending I know stuff, hoping to just know it in time

2023-08-12 23:29:48

Changed scenery. Now out to make the best of it

2023-08-11 14:43:30

I went in, confident of doing things.
I did things. Plucked the low hanging fruits.
Now that the real work has begun, im lagging on everything I needed to learn.
And have lost confidence in my abilities to learn them properly and catch up

2023-08-07 16:18:22

Self pity is not a winning strategy! Hard work is!

2023-08-05 18:51:44

Why do I build and stop? Why do I build, stop, then destroy?! Why does my will to destroy always overpower my will to build?

2023-08-02 22:29:01

Need to know more rust. Need to know more distributed system programming

2023-08-02 16:55:10

Todays another opportunity to grow competence, confidence and skill in Bitcoin

2023-08-02 02:44:09

I ought to figure out how i hold on to the good I've gained while I build far better

2023-08-02 02:43:31

The important question is how to course correct

2023-07-29 04:44:23

I am becoming professional.

2023-07-28 09:38:09

- reply

Answer is yes

2023-07-28 09:37:50

Have I been rationalizing my underperformances?

2023-07-24 19:32:03

Problem: whenever the motivation to do things come, I am compelled to work on EVERHTHING thats broken, missing or unfinished. And that is a lot of things in my life. And I quickly get overwhelmed. And then Im back to the beginning. Wallowing

2023-07-14 08:16:24

Burned through so many. How will I learn to stick to a friend, a community. My people?