Caroline Kinlund / is on Nostr

Momdad, manager, musician, moonanite.
Ex-user of twitter, reddit, pownce, digg, facebook, myspace, blogspot, and geocities, cause I’m an eldritch horror.
I enjoy cooking, eating, singing, type designing, making music, and being a girl.

Profile picture is me, in a patterned dress, smiling widely. Background picture is a panorama of the Pacific Ocean and coastline taken near Sea Ranch, California.

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2024-01-30 02:14:28

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@npub1p9k…865w not a publicly available glyph, unfortunately; Apple-only.
(it is creatively named circle.lefthalf.dotted.inset.half.filled)

2023-09-26 02:06:15

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@npub1gg8…439g also geeeez your skin looks so good 🤩

2023-09-15 21:53:44

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@npub1gg8…439g
💜 to you. Early on, my wife (who worked for StitchFix for 6 years) bought me some clothes and a bra and I wore them to work, and ended up feeling terrible about myself — I was expecting to feel empowered and affirmed and instead I just saw all the ways I was lacking. I felt like a fraud, it was really unexpectedly demoralizing.
This is part of the layers of dysphoria and growing into yourself, and it’s really hard. All I can say is push forward, but don’t push yourself too much. I’m repeating Terra, but try keeping something for the future, and you might just find later that it’s perfect, or already too boymode in 6 months 😄
@npub1ccn…ly9q that essay literally took my breath away (I read it when you published it). “Thank you” doesn’t even come close.

2023-09-11 01:56:28

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@npub1gg8…439g I actually get the sense that their generation is significantly more weirded out by people conforming to any binary of labels, even by trans people 😉

2023-09-11 01:25:00

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@npub1gg8…439g so so happy for you Jenn 💜💜💜
And be proud of your kid, but also proud of yourself, GenZ is really doing it right but it’s because of smart accepting wonderful parents like you leading by example.

2023-09-07 22:55:38

Feeling cute, so a later #transfem #TimelineThursday? Why not?
I’ve been taking near-daily pics with the venerable Photo Booth app since January. Here’s the first in my roll, 4 weeks after starting HRT, and from now, about 33 weeks later.
Kind of weird, but back when I started I was thinking of this like gestation. Not to appropriate—I’m well and deeply aware that’s an unknowable experience to me—but there were parallels. Growing a person seems interminable at first, often with little outward change for many weeks. Then all of a sudden, new milestones appear, and things daily are beautiful and deeply uncomfortable, sometimes simultaneously. Sooner than you expect, that new person is here.
Anyway, to continue that strained analogy, I’m full-term now, haha :blobcatfluffowo:
https://chaosfemtw.files.fedi.monster/media_attachments/files/111/025/829/544/342/760/original/76ae91d44247af22.jpeg
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2023-09-03 05:05:02

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@npub1gg8…439g how many vodka & bud lite sodas did you have, Jenn? :akko_smile2:

2023-08-30 05:51:23

@npub1gg8…439g What a cute profile pic!!

2023-08-30 05:50:45

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@npub1gg8…439g October too? I wish we could go together!

2023-08-27 22:39:08

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@npub1gg8…439g oh sorry, I thought your kids were a little younger! Perhaps the most banned book in the USA for the 17-year-old then, Maia Kobabe’s “Gender Queer” 😉
My kids watching Mr. Beast, another prominent now-out-as-trans YouTuber, so I’ve mentioned that to them.

2023-08-27 19:31:49

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@npub1gg8…439g do you have any kids books on gender identity or trans people/parents already? My wife got a few and added them to our collection, and the kids read them on their own (and I read to them) for a few weeks. After that, it was a pretty easy conversation — they actually asked me first.
I especially liked “It Feels Good to be Yourself” (https://bookshop.org/p/books/it-feels-good-to-be-yourself-a-book-about-gender-identity-theresa-thorn/6986272?gclid=Cj0KCQjw6KunBhDxARIsAKFUGs91ponXLJzxdXp-CL_v_8JcyDIKrTyOgdsHGkxVX9xhEVs5hVRr0gMaAszdEALw_wcB) and “She’s My Dad” (https://bookshop.org/p/books/she-s-my-dad-a-story-for-children-who-have-a-transgender-parent-or-relative-sarah-savage/13585106?ean=9781785926150)
💜 to you.

2023-08-25 18:55:10

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@npub1gg8…439g oh me too, you’re in good company. I even went to a live show of Diggnation!

2023-08-25 18:50:54

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@npub1gg8…439g oh lord, the cringe flashback. Even though I never participated, the phrases still haunt me (I had an account since 2009 at least).
Anyway that sentence is part of a text designed to contain all possible phoneme combinations in English, and it’s commonly used by speech therapists. 🤓

2023-08-25 18:11:27

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@npub1gg8…439g “When sunlight strikes raindrops in the air, they act as a prism and form a rainbow.” 😉

2023-08-24 18:33:47

It’s a little silly to post a mere 2-month #TimelineThursday, but I was chatting recently about makeup and seeing your true self, and wanted to back up what I was saying with pictures. This 1st pic is from June, the first time I’d had someone do my makeup, and it was literally stunning to look at my reflection — I realized that I might pull off this whole girl thing after all. “Maybe in another year or two”, I said, “I might actually be able to look like this all the time.” My mom kindly replied, “I don’t think it’s going to take a year.”
The 2nd pic is from today, just 2 months later, and indeed, I already easily feel (and look!) feminine, even with my amateur makeup and unstyled hair. In fact, that first picture now seems startlingly masculine to me in comparison.
Maybe it’s the HRT, or $$$ spent at Sephora; maybe it’s just improving self-perception. Either way, I know it feels interminable at first, but I promise it won’t take as long as you thought to see yourself all the time.
https://chaosfemtw.files.fedi.monster/media_attachments/files/110/945/554/849/222/616/original/b9264f0ce521b9e8.jpeg
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