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I have been programming since I was 12 (born in '73 #genx), currently enjoy coding in #Rust. I use Linux every day; I prefer open to closed. I try to live and let live when it comes to people's tech choices.

I work in tech but am learning how better to separate that from my passion for programming.

I used to podcast, I plan to again soon.

I practice #zazen, #qigong, and #taichi every day.

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2024-06-26 00:30:04

I have felt irritable all day #today. I think I figured out where it was coming from and suggests some specific work I could do on and with my equanimity.
I have finally felt more settled into my new $dayjob after a little more than two months. I think that familiar comfort brought along some old patterns of reactions that left me grumpy.
Until now, everything was unfamiliar enough to create space for me to better use my equanimity rather than those old habits.
I am a work in progress.

2024-06-22 20:10:06

We have stumbled down a rabbit hole. A local store with *all* the exotic Lays chips flavors. And they deliver. No idea which if any of these are vegan.

2024-06-22 15:55:00

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I am not moving as slowly #today as I expected after staying up late for the watchalong of #TheLastDriveIn. Even better, my hope for some spillover motivation from my focus day yesterday has come true. I already read through most of the docs for a new framework I have been interested in trying. And that was on my phone before I got up for the day.

2024-06-22 05:45:07

That was fun. Until next time, #MutantFam. The Drive-in will never die. #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-22 05:39:52

That was a movie that benefited from the breaks with Joe Bob and especially Joe Lynch's participation. I don't think I would have finished it otherwise. Unless there was an episode of the How Did This Get Made podcast. #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-22 05:34:30

I get it, the soul jumper is just out racing lung cancer. #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-22 05:26:17

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I was not wrong. Like the Energizer rabbit. Until it was no longer necessary for the plot. #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-22 04:45:04

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I think you're right.

2024-06-22 04:43:27

Huh, no dead fish. Even hubby is suspicious. Even asking the right question without knowing it. Who the hell is she indeed? #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-22 04:31:10

Willful ignorance for the sake of moving the plot forward, I suppose. I mean, she saw what was about to happen to her happen right before her eyes earlier. Yet she answered the phone anyway. #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-22 04:09:24

My guess is that the father wasn't actually the father to begin with. This body swapping nonsense has likely been going on for some time. And may have started far away, under the dark pyramids of unknown Kadath. #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-22 03:09:50

I have never even heard of tonight's move, *Suitable Flesh*. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt21397580/?ref_=fn_al_tt_1 #TheLastDriveIn

2024-06-09 17:08:39

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I sliced the mycelium cutlets I cooked yesterday and rested in the refrigerator overnight. I worked slowly and carefully yielding my best results so far. I avoided tearing or shredding any pieces.
I made up my usual spice mix and added hot water to help open and meld the flavors. I put everything back in the fridge until lunch. Last time, working with the hot spice slurry caused the strips to start to fall apart. I think working cold right up until the air fryer is key.

2024-06-09 17:05:10

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
#today was another slow morning with a gradual shift into chores, for the day and the week ahead.
I did my daily circuit of the yard and gave the vegetable plants their weekly food. I prepared ingredients for my lunches. I started laundry early because this week includes towels and linens.
I think the rest of the day will be mostly reading and a bit more recovery before the week ahead.

2024-06-08 23:45:56

Now we are watching episode two of *The Acolyte* while waiting for our delivery dinner treat.

2024-06-08 22:38:56

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And just like that he was gone in a cloud of bees.
Whuff.

2024-06-08 22:23:49

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Approaching toxic levels of one punchiness.

2024-06-08 22:19:50

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This movie just keeps making less and less sense.

2024-06-08 22:04:59

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This movie, it is not good.
We've discovered how much Statham is tooich Statham
He is now out-Stathaming bullets. He's a bee themed Batman.

2024-06-08 20:59:08

We are finally watching *The Beekeeper*. Peak Statham?

2024-06-08 18:02:15

My new eyeglasses.
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2024-06-08 17:55:38

I cleaned the yard and took care of some spot gardening after breakfast. I picked up my new eyeglasses. I cooked some brown rice and mycelium cutlets for lunches.
Now that I've taken care of the day's needfuls, I can spend the remains relaxing and recovering, starting with some reading in the sun and the green.
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2024-06-08 14:58:09

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I still feel run down #today after the three day $dayjob planning event earlier this week. The time was well spent but demanding. Staying up for even part of #TheLastDrivein didn't help but hopefully a day of slack will do the trick.
I have a single errand I would like to complete before noon, picking up my new glasses (huzzah). The rest of the day I hope to take advantage of the abundant sunshine to continue recovering and recharging.

2024-06-08 03:08:00

Huh, *Donnie Darko*. I actually have never seen it. #TheLastDrivein

2024-06-08 03:01:24

I don't know how long I'll be able to stay up to enjoy #TheLastDrivein after this week but I'll try. I may not post as much either, rather watching the movie, Joe Bob, and the posts from the rest of the #MutantFam

2024-06-07 23:30:56

Despite being thoroughly worn out #today, I managed to accomplish most of what I wanted from my $dayjob agenda.
I managed to spend some time out in the yard. I didn't get to spend much time in the green over the last three days, arriving home most nights after bedtime.
I worked on recovering a few other ways. I think I barely had enough in the tank for my run but the movement and more green helped. I had two extended sits that definitely started to regenerate my exhausted equanimity. #zazen

2024-06-07 17:59:00

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Huzzah! Reminds me I need to pick up my own new glasses this afternoon. More huzzahs ahead!

2024-06-07 16:34:06

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I feel #today like I used to after a business trip even though my in person meeting was local.
My reserves are depleted. I already did some work on recovery, with an extended sit and a run along the creek in the sunshine.
Honestly, simply returning to my usual routines is highly restorative.
My $dayjob tasks for today are mostly writing though I have an idea for a small code experiment as a break, mostly to test some ideas in the small.

2024-06-06 21:49:39

This strategic planning summit for $dayjob was well run. We accomplished what we set out to do, compile a rough plan for digital that we can share with the rest of the org.
That means we were able to finish on time, i.e. early, today. I even have time to catch up with a friend over beer and still be home in time for dinner.

2024-06-06 21:44:10

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Ah. Poor Roxy.

2024-06-06 19:26:34

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The incident from last week or did you catch her digging again?

2024-06-06 16:37:25

I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling a bit punch after two intense days of work. I am just as glad my colleagues are responding with humor.

2024-06-06 13:13:08

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
#today is my last day working in office for this strategic planning session. I am hoping for a shorter day given the solid progress the last two days. Also many colleagues are traveling home today.
These three days have been super helpful for me as a new employee and also very enjoyable. Our offices are gorgeous and I enjoyed working with a wider group of people than I usually do.

2024-06-06 02:36:48

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Another plus today was I had time to use the wellness room for a round a qi gong and a brief sit. I wish I had had more time for a longer sit but was grateful for what time I did get. #zen #zazen

2024-06-06 02:34:11

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Part of my exhaustion is definitely blood sugar. Lunch was solid today, bowls from Foods. The vegan option was really good, tons of whole grains and fresh veggies.
Dinner was a treat, pizza from Anthony's. Sadly the delivery driver was rear ended. The vegan pies were the worst casualty. I had to wait an hour longer to eat. They refunded 50% of the order, which is damn decent of them so I wasn't salty at all. I definitely bottomed out while waiting though, getting through on sheer willpower.

2024-06-06 02:23:50

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I hope my luck holds and I beat the weather home. A tornado watch just went into effect for the area.

2024-06-06 02:22:08

My $dayjob's offices are right next to Nationals Park. There were games last night and tonight. The platform was packed but I squeaked into a less crowded car for the few stops up the Green line to pick up the Red line the rest of the way home. Many of the Nats fans also disembarked at Gallery Place but I beat them up the escalator and caught a Red line train already at the platform. Doors closed before the wave reached it. I am relieved; I really don't do well with crowds.

2024-06-06 02:15:36

I feel zorched. #today was day two of three for an in peraon strategic planning gathering at $dayjob.
We had a full agenda and got through it all. I have learned a lot, complementing my own investigations and reading of our codebase. I have a clearer understanding of how my own project fits into the bigger picture.
The third day, tomorrow, will thankfully be short. I want to take Friday off to nap for eight hours but am also energized to resume planning for my own project.

2024-06-06 01:13:10

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I am very envious.

2024-06-05 15:35:08

More. Tea.

2024-06-05 14:33:24

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I was up early again #today in order to travel into DC for the second day of three working in person on strategic $dayjob planning for the next 12 months of work.
I am hoping to be able to head home a littler earlier than last night. I enjoyed the first day but not so much only seeing @npub17wk…cm5h briefly before leaving then just as briefly after returning before turning in.

2024-06-05 04:17:08

There is nothing better after a long work day than a plate of home cooked food and joining an in progress rewatch of *Disenchantment*. Lunch and dinner were light buffets with a single option I could eat, though both were excellent.
Time was at a premium. The work agenda for the event was the priority at lunch, actual team building and genuine socializing was the priority at dinner.
Too bad I have to be up early to do it all again tomorrow. It is already past my usual bedtime.

2024-06-05 03:17:58

QOTD: "Imposter syndrome is the inverse of the Dunning-Kruger effect."

2024-06-05 02:58:53

I started today with a longer sit to meditate.
I think that really helped me get through a lot of challenges like my anxiety about crowds that the metro almost always triggers and the social anxiety that arose from meeting so many new to me coworkers.
I think I will have another long sit before bedtime and then again first thing tomorrow. I really enjoyed how it supercharged my equanimity today. #zen #zazen

2024-06-05 02:34:41

I had a pretty good day #today.
I enjoyed meeting so many of my new coworkers in person. My social anxiety was present but manageable. I did not have time for a full sit this afternoon but was able to sneak in a round of qi gong that was almost as helpful.
The dinner and social outing after was more enjoyable than past similar activities thanks to my new, deeper equanimity.

2024-06-04 14:15:28

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I am on the DC metro for the first time in over a year #today. I am working in office for a few days for $dayjob. I feel a little anxious but managing not to attach to it thanks to a longer than usual sit this morning. #zazen

2024-06-03 21:44:50

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The effect of a longer sit makes a certain sense. I already feel something like a refresh or recharge after each session. It is almost like adding momentum to spin back up a flywheel. There is an increase in energy, for lack of a better word.
I guess why it hadn't occurred to me to extend any specific session is that the relationship between my meditation and equanimity has not been this direct. My experience of equanimity only shifted after a year and a half of daily practice. #zen #zazen

2024-06-03 21:40:37

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I am now endlessly fascinated by observing and learning how my mind works. Good thing because my preferred meditation practice, in a nutshell, is all about that.
I had a result on my meditation stool just now. As we say in our household, more data required, however it turns out that simply extending how long I meditate helped a great deal with the cerebral weather I've been experiencing #today.
#zen #zazen

2024-06-03 15:41:35

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
My cerebral weather was a little rougher this morning. My equanimity saw me through and I will spend some more time on and off the stool processing.
#today I have some preparation for a three day $dayjob planning summit at our HQ in DC that starts tomorrow. Otherwise I expect the day to be quiet as most of my colleagues are traveling.

2024-06-02 15:29:16

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The single aspect of this MoviePass documentary I find the most astonishing and angering is how clear it is that the usual VC people never learn, no matter how many bubbles burst or how many startups they drive into the ground.
This story could have happened in the '90's just as easily as the 2010's or even today.

2024-06-02 15:04:51

I'm watching the MoviePass documentary.
I am fascinated and also angered as I am seeing what was done to the original founders.

2024-06-02 15:03:16

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I am enjoying a slow start to my morning #today before starting work on weekly chores.
I may get around to the writing I was thinking about working on yesterday. Maybe I will focus on simply getting an outline sketched out then see what else I have the appetite for.

2024-06-02 00:48:47

On to the second feature, *Godzilla vs. Kong*. A Michael Bay movie wirhout Michael Bay? Seems that way.
https://m.imdb.com/title/tt5034838/?ref_=ext_shr_lnk
I forgot we already watched this. Still fits the mood and a welcome reset after *Minus Zero*. *The New Empire* is a bit more than we're willing to spend on a rental.
This movie quickly reminded me of how ridiculous it is.

2024-06-01 23:34:58

We could not have timed our double feature more perfectly. Finished *Godzilla Minus Zero* right before a delivery birthday feast for @npub17wk…cm5h is about to arrive. We'll recharge and refresh a bit before feature two, still Godzilla but hopefully much lighter. Expecting more big dumb fun.

2024-06-01 23:27:02

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That. Was. Awesome.
And the soundtrack! I got chills every time those rumbling bass notes sounded.
Peak kaiju. No notes.

2024-06-01 22:54:19

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I am really enjoying this movie immensely. Reminds me of many of the Japanese films I studied in college.

2024-06-01 21:45:49

We are leaning into #Slackerday with a kaiju double feature.
First up, *Godzilla Minus One*.
https://m.imdb.com/title/tt23289160/?ref_=ext_shr_lnk

2024-06-01 14:27:43

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Oh! I've been hearing great things and was planning to see where it was available. Thanks for the heads up!

2024-06-01 14:25:41

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The other event is the passing of my mother, two years ago today.
I am still very saddened thinking about her absence. I have so many great and fun memories too. I enjoy the sense of humor she gifted me and my lifelong love of reading.
I owe her so much for the peace I am finally finding now.
When I was a very angry, reactive young man, she was patient with me and supported me starting on this path. The poise she found around my age inspired me through much of my adult life.

2024-06-01 14:15:49

Today I am thinking of two events that are very important to me.
The first is the birthday of my amazing partner in adventure, @npub17wk…cm5h.
I am incredibly lucky to have her in my life. Every year we are together, our relationship and shared lives get better and better. I am so fortunate and beyond grateful. I can't wait to see how this next year unfolds.

2024-06-01 14:11:48

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I am still deciding how I want to spend #today. My motivation for my own projects still feels stuck. I will spend some time contemplating that and may experiment with some small steps to try to overcome the feeling.
At the same time, Saturday is when I usually recharge and recover since Sunday is when I take care of most of my weekly chores.
I'm sure I'll find a balance I am happy with.

2024-06-01 00:29:37

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I blame @npub1t39…j3jk for bringing the #LEGO minifig series to my attention while he was looking for a goat.
Along with the X-Men set, a six pack from series 26 space arrived. Retro space heroine is definitely my favorite.
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2024-06-01 00:04:31

My next #LEGO set arrived. I've been enjoying *X-Men '97*. I read much of the comics the original series drew on. It's been fun watching this season that's after I stopped reading the comics. #GenX
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2024-05-31 23:45:46

I did more software archeology #today and was able to validate my findings in the code with my first peers, the other principal engineers. I am grateful for these peers, I have not had any at my level of responsibility in a few years. So far, this is a solid group of pros and I also enjoy their company. I look forward to seeing them all in person next week.

2024-05-31 15:07:39

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And now the fire has burned down to coals. Time to get on with the rest of my day.

2024-05-31 14:59:44

I started this book, *Old Zen Master*, a while ago, before the recent developments with my equanimity.
The stories resonate more deeply now, especially the light hearted humor. I think I will finishing reading it through then read it again as a daily reader. Each story is only a few pages long and self contained.
#zen #buddhism

2024-05-31 14:56:28

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The fire in question. Second morning I took a picture of it and forgot to attach it to my morning post.
https://files.thecommandline.social/files-thecommandline-social/media_attachments/files/112/535/809/985/214/616/original/614b5336e35b75cd.jpg

2024-05-31 14:49:05

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I am celebrating the end of another week #today with tea by the fire and a little more time reading.
A couple priority meetings have invaded my $dayjob agenda on No Meeting Friday. They are related to an on site gathering in downtown DC next week. Neither should be a very heavy lift.
Otherwise my day should be a pleasant one full of reading, researching, and thinking then kicking off the weekend.

2024-05-31 14:26:09

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8:00a when you decided it was acceptable to sabotage their equipment. Cut pneumatic lines, sugar in the gas tank, etc. No jury in the land would convict you.

2024-05-30 22:29:37

I spent today mostly reading code for $dayjob, another repo I need to understand for my project. I thought I had developed some pretty tough mental calluses to the anti-patterns and misapplications of design patterns. The callouses, they did nothing. My equanimity helped me more.
Parts of project could be simple enough. Other requirements will either have to be punted pending some intense discussion or could drastically expand my project's scope.

2024-05-30 15:48:45

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
#today started a little rough, my second pint last night was a double IPA. I found myself wanting a pale ale, specifically something old school with a more crisp, bitter finish. That beer was the closest on offer.
I still managed to get out for a very good run this morning and feel almost back to rights.
I am hoping for a quiet day to get some reading, thinking, and further technical design work done for my $dayjob project.

2024-05-30 00:51:30

I had a fantastic time tonight at my usual haunt, Saints Row Brewing. Turns out combining that experience with my newfound deeper equanimity enriched my enjoyment considerably. I was uncertain that would be the case.

2024-05-29 21:03:01

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So it didn't inexplicably and suddenly become a much better movie in the third act?

2024-05-29 20:58:45

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Heh, I didn't even realize what I did there, honestly.

2024-05-29 20:58:00

#today has been a good day to practice my growing equanimity.
I had a couple of opportunities (construction snarls, critical but well intended $dayjob feedback) to practice my awareness and alignment. I definitely felt better in the moment, like my responses were better chosen than in the past, and no lingering attachment to negative feelings after.
That construction this morning alone would have had me grumbling most of the day only one week ago.

2024-05-29 14:26:19

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I am starting #today with tea and reading by a cozy fire out on our patio.
I have an overdue eye exam later this morning. I am hoping to find some focus after to make more progress on my new $dayjob project.
I also feel overdue for a social outing. I plan to visit my favorite local tap room towards the end of my day.

2024-05-29 13:47:57

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Yikes!

2024-05-29 02:51:37

I maintained my equanimity pretty well #today. Not perfectly but well enough. Even found some helpful humor. Otherwise my day was full of $dayjob busy-ness.
No luck on a sun break but I did enjoy a scenic drive on the cross county toll road to get this week's CSA share. I enjoy the chance to open up my little sports coupe more than my usual route allows. The usual hot spot often takes longer to sit through than the rest of the return trip.

2024-05-28 15:56:19

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
Back to the grind, #today. I am still getting used to the shift in my mind over the last few days. My usual morning anxiety, especially at the start of a fresh work week, was still present but more attenuated and easily managed.
I managed to get out for my first run on the week. The sun is still brilliant and I hope to enjoy a little of it amongst my 1:1s and other meetings.

2024-05-28 14:40:23

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Yay! So excited to finally see these!

2024-05-28 14:36:23

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Mmmmm...Pizza...sauce for later in the week...

2024-05-27 19:04:05

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I guess I have an unusually high tolerance for lazily written drek. Or didn't have anything else better to watch at the time.

2024-05-27 18:54:40

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I managed to finish it, not sure how.

2024-05-27 18:45:03

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Waiting eagerly for the Hypers to start shipping.

2024-05-27 16:21:36

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Wise.

2024-05-27 16:20:52

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That's one of the needfuls taken care of, catching up on the household ledger and budget. After a quick shower and shave, I will take care of the other, a quick errand, then back to following the day as it unfolds.

2024-05-27 15:25:19

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Especially if you can't get your wifi driver to compile, or the current wpa stack working right, or network manager decides it doesn't want to cooperate, or...

2024-05-27 15:24:15

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I woke to bright sunshine #today but clouds have already rolled in. I am still trying to decide how I want to enjoy my extra day off. I would like to clear away at least one or two needful things I haven't gotten to this weekend. Otherwise I think I am leaning towards more relaxing and simply following however the day unfolds.

2024-05-26 21:40:18

#SilentSunday
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2024-05-26 20:51:46

An interesting thing happened on the way to groceries today that led to me picking up this book. Our organic market has several in this series.
Another driver followed us after he thought my frustrated pointing at a four way stop sign was my middle finger. He was threatening us with his car until I pulled over.
I reacted in self defense to confront him but with peace in my heart. We both wound up finding a bit of understanding and compassion. #buddhism #zen #zazen
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2024-05-26 15:59:03

This is day four of what feels like a subtle and profound change with my mind. Having hyperphantasia (a very powerful ability to visualize) I approach experiences like this with a certain amount of skepticism. I think I have enough direct experience to understand that what is going isn't only my imagination.
My mind feels more spacious. Feelings come and go, just as present but attenuated. Unless I attach or align to them. I feel more ability to do so voluntarily. #zen #zazen #buddhism

2024-05-26 15:50:15

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
My phenomenal mood continues #today after a wonderfully restorative day yesterday. We spent a lot of time out under the cantilever shade down on our patio.
After a brief storm over night, the glorious weather is back. We have a few weekly chores to tend but should still have plenty of opportunity to enjoy the sun and the awesome, chill vibe we've been enjoying since Friday afternoon.

2024-05-25 18:36:18

We were in the mood for a game or a puzzle. Far too nice out even for a favorite video game. Setting up a jigsaw puzzle felt like too much hassle. We each individually concluded a card game on the patio would be perfect. Several rounds of Zombie Fluxx was just about perfect.

2024-05-25 16:01:09

This video wins the weekend.
https://infosec.exchange/@cirriustech/112501925881748657

2024-05-25 15:30:45

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I love her expression and how it resonates with her pose. Positively buoyant.

2024-05-25 14:38:40

Good morning and TZAG, friends.
I am feeling surprisingly well #today after staying up with the #MutantFam for a watchalong last night. Yesterday all around was a stellar day. That momentum is sustaining me nicely this morning.
I am enjoying the relaxing long weekend vibe. I might get up to something creative later. Nice not to feel any urgency to do so.

2024-05-25 05:26:47

That was fun. #TheLastDrivein Good night, #MutantFam

2024-05-25 05:18:18

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Definitely felt that way for a second

2024-05-25 05:17:15

Was mom giving off some seriously sinister vibes there? More random even with the cliche all a dream beat? #TheLastDrivein

2024-05-25 05:14:36

"Why sis I marry him again? Take me with you, Ann-droid." #TheLastDrivein